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:: Mood: stuffy nose.
:: Music: none.
peanut butta jelly time, SPREAD OUT! lol Alyssa
today was different.
woke up @ 6am, not feeling too great. but i got ready for cheerleading, ran 2 jackies, (woke her up =/ sry <3 ) and then went to gym. 8-3pm wow.
Steph jacked the pizza. lol. s0o much pizza, everyone got their own box. <3 ATL
Courtney tellin' Alyssa & Steph about how she got suspended. STUPiD, STUPiD Bellin.
UCA teaching the dance to the girls. look at the lil' ones... they were s0o cute.
Captain is COMiNG. Good game, good game xoxo Mary Ellen doesn't know what she is doing, but Kaila is winnin' woot!
it was a long day, but we made it. even though this wasn't "real" camp.... i know it brought people together. (me, steph, alicia, kaila, courtney, alyssa) i surely enjoyed.
when i got home, i took a shower & was SOOO tired that i laid in my bed with my fancy robe & was gonna turn on the t.v. but didn't & just fell asleep. then jackie called me and woke me up lol, i deserved it. then had dinner. talked to jonah. can't go back to sleep now. s0o i talked to sherman. he's gotta flight to Maimi on the 29th. maybe i'll c him this time. +shrug+
anyways how is everyone enjoying their 3day weekend...?! its gotta be nice right. 10 more days of school. xoxo enjoy.
hm... i rented GOTHIKA... GOTTA get to watchin' it now...
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2004 15 May :: 1.00pm
:: Mood: un-loved
:: Music: ..s0 yeSteRday -->> hiLary duFf..
. t0dayy w0nt be g00d .
i knew t0dayy wasnt guna be g00d. my m0m hatess me cuz i never g0t her a m0ther's dayy giift. I'm a h0rrible daughter. I make her regret haviin me. I screw upp at everythiin. I'm the daughter she DiDN'T wanna have. I d0 druggs, g0t pregnant, gettiin badD gradess, nd i didnt get her shyt f0r m0ther's dayy.
EdDy is bein a bigg fuckin assh0le. I'm s0o sick 0f hiim treatiin me this wayy. He juss dun give a shyt, but i DEF d0. Nd i l0ve hiim s0o much! I juss cant st0p cariin lyke he can. I dunn0 h0w guyys can't have str0ng feeliinz. How theyy can act lyke they never even caredD. haRsh. Tom0rr0w iz the day we 0ffiicially br0ke upp last year. I dun wana replay of that m0ment again this year . .
JaX nd me we'll never be as cl0se as we usedD t0 be. Me nd eRin went 0ver there at 11 last niite nd haRris0n was there. She's changedD s0 much. I wish shyt didnt change between me nd her. She was such a great friend nd there was never a b0riin m0ment. st0ners f0r lyfe! =(
The 0nlyy thing stayiin the same iz my TrUeSt, eRin. My BESTEST friend f0r 6 fuckiin years. I'm guna hate it wen she g0es t0 c0llege. Next year, she'll be a seni0r. Well, i'm 0nly a year behind her. I sh0uld be g0iin there s00n. I l0ve her s0o much. `4`7`7` <33
0k, dun bytchiin again. Lyfe suxx. Shyt aint the same n0 m0re. I wana g0 back t0 5 m0nths ag0 .. everythiing was s0 straight. I'm g0iin sh0ppiin wit jeNny in a lil bit, then g0iin t0 niCk's h0use nd guna g0 fuck upp my lyfe again .. d0in stupidD ass crack. I alwayyz t0l myself i'd never d0 druggs nd n0w i'm gettiin addicted t0 fuckin crack! Weed nd crack .. wut a lyfe?! But is the 0nly thing that makess dayyz lyke this better. Nd t0nyte, guna get fuckedD upp wit riA nd g0 see a m0vie while anDy stays wit my dad nd gets drunk al0ng wit all their p0thead friendz. Yea, an0ther drunk partyy at my h0use t0niite. Awesum . .
I'm g0ne. Later bytchess. -->> i want t0 leave this place nd never c0me back. (( oNe ))
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2004 14 May :: 9.36pm
:: Mood: crappy
:: Music: people come for the party, but stay for the cory!
LALALA
today = nothing. woke up, talked to jonah all day. took a shower, did laundry. got in trouble for breaking the dryer. o well. its old anyways... we were doomed to get another one. haha so now mommy has to get one tomorrow. now, i'm babysitting and i was having a hard time eating my salad. tried stabbing a croton to get on my damn fork, and the chicken flung into my hair. +sigh+ forget that salad.
s0o i was thinking... this whole friend thing. idk none of it works out for me. no calls, no invitations, no nada. its like... i = never part of the girls "group". if i went somewhere, i'd invite u people... altho i don't go anywhere that u people would enjoy. but i'm saying... idk. i just wish i could be thought of. or am i one of those annoying girls of atlantic, but i just don't realize it. cause i think i seem to be. i take the effort to approach people... but they don't approach me. perhaps i am correct. cause i notice... the annoying girls approach people to talk.... but they are never approached. i lie in the same boat, obviously. i just wish someone would have warned me about it earlier.... w/e, i'm done complaining.
talking to pj now... gas money or walk to baseball.... lol
LiLsHorTcaKe2315: MR. PATRICK ZEITZ!
Baseballa4eva17: MRS. BRIANNA EVENSON!
LiLsHorTcaKe2315: ms. briana kristine evenson.
Baseballa4eva17: mr patrick jermaine zeitz
LiLsHorTcaKe2315: jermaine....? interesting.
Baseballa4eva17: u never herd mike call me jermaine
Baseballa4eva17: ?
LiLsHorTcaKe2315: nottttttttt that i recall.
Baseballa4eva17: lol
Baseballa4eva17: my m,iddle name not jermaine
LiLsHorTcaKe2315: ..... then why did u say that?
LiLsHorTcaKe2315: +confused....+
Baseballa4eva17: to have a lil fun wit ya
anyways... danielle g and i are discussing how i feel right now. yeah... i miss these talks. unfortunately i realize i don't have anyone to blab to anymore... cause since her & brittany moved... hell has been my home. it may not seem like it.... but its hard to find a girl to confide in. cause a guy doesn't understand. i know hema, & danielle g have always been there 24/7, whether they pretend to listen to my b.s. or if they really do... but everyone else just gives me a "shrug" or just that look... like... 'why are u telling me this?' s0o i've just not been able to open the can of worms inside of me.... o well.
i'm 0out. hahaha. my throat hurts again. this morning... i woke up without a voice. [stress=losing my voice]
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2004 13 May :: 10.19pm
:: Mood: amused
:: Music: ..i PrAy -->> aManDa PeReZ..
. RanDoMnEsS .
Videogroove: i hope i dont use all my white on sat night
x BABiGURL387 x: crackhead
Videogroove: its a good possibility
Videogroove: naw ima save some i really want to do it on my bday
x BABiGURL387 x: l0l
x BABiGURL387 x: i think y0u guna be a crackhead
x BABiGURL387 x: nd y0ur guna start sh00tiin upp
Videogroove: yea prolly
Videogroove: jk
x BABiGURL387 x: l0l im n0t kiddiin
x BABiGURL387 x: haha
Videogroove: fuck u
x BABiGURL387 x: assh0le
x BABiGURL387 x: n0 .. ur guna be an anti drug teacher
Videogroove: yeaaaaa
x BABiGURL387 x: .. after y0u get 0utta rehab
x BABiGURL387 x: haha
Videogroove: fuck u lol
x BABiGURL387 x: l0l that was g00d
Videogroove: im not gonna ever shoot up
Videogroove: i used to want to but not nemore
x BABiGURL387 x: l0l i thiink y0u will
Videogroove: no
x BABiGURL387 x: maybe n0t
Videogroove: i dont think i will
x BABiGURL387 x: i think y0u'll g0 thru a stage 0f sh00tiin upp th0
Videogroove: no
x BABiGURL387 x: then u'll try it
x BABiGURL387 x: l0l i have a feeliin y0u will
Videogroove: no bitch i wont
x BABiGURL387 x: l0l 0k
x BABiGURL387 x: ( y0u will )
Videogroove: (fuck u)
x BABiGURL387 x: yea .. heyy, wheres a g00d place i can buy a pipe that ripps g00d but kinda cheap
eLeCtRiK cRaYoN: no where lol
eLeCtRiK cRaYoN: head shops in broward county r illegal
x BABiGURL387 x: that suxx
eLeCtRiK cRaYoN: but broward county is tryign 2 be drug free
eLeCtRiK cRaYoN: which wont happen
x BABiGURL387 x: l0l i kn0 .. t00 manyy p0theadss live here
eLeCtRiK cRaYoN: exactly
l0l, maj0r rand0mness. edDy iz bein a dickhead again. l0l, wuts upp wit hiim lately?? Tom0rr0w iz fRidAyy .. sm0kin wit FaNFaN nd WeiNeR .. maybe piPeR t00 <- h0ttie. (( oNe ))
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2004 13 May :: 5.00pm
:: Mood: amused
chem:
*ms. swanson is priceless. "i don't know why u have to be such a pussy about it!"
*adam adding the one drop of NaOH to our vinegar! grrr... turned it dark pink, he definitely isn't a good titrator.... nor is he a good shaker. but christina & danielle rock my sox.
stats:
*spoons LMAO!!! omg, mike, pj, anand, avi, stu, logan, ashley, heather, me, pretam... i love this class. "i owe u a ride, don't i?" and a way to hold the hand. goodness.
*mike gettin' hit with the pen in the neck.
*pj gettin' 4 of a kind & not gettin' a pen lmao.
*anand & his baller hat that he wants to get.
*me & heather knocking over that stupid game.
*ashley & BS. BS. BS. BS. i KNOW u don't have ANY Jacks. lmao.
econ: sleep. simple as that.
lunch: heather & i talked. & even though she mentioned that she has told s0o0o many people about her situation, i still... felt good because i haven't had anyone like her talk to me in awhile... and i mean, i got so used to listening to jackie & carlos & brittany & groton, that i just.... it felt good to hear someone else talk to me, about something new. idk its like... heather actually found it worth telling me... idk it just was nice.
art hist:
*wrote in sam's yearbook. who thought u could write so much for people u barely even know... i guess... just like writing in liz's book... i wish i had gotten to know some of these people better... cause they look so sweet & they look like if we hung out... we could have fun together.... when summer comes... we're hanging out. <3
*talked to carlos.... it was pretty much a free period. (spain, & ur haircut lol)
*u know i owe u a ride home... don't i?! lol
allaround222: did patrick ride u
allaround222: *give u a ride
anand.... urrrrrr dead. lol <3 come on. i have jonah, lucky me!! <3333 pj just offered me a ride home... which i intend on getting... maybe. tuesday perhaps. +shrug+
bus ride home: determined to win solitaire on Kayli's IPod. but u know what... since i didn't win today... i still have monday. <3
now... i think imma nap... today was a great day... but it wore me out. now if only my boyfriend could make it better.... maybe i will see him, or alex & i will ACTUALLY get together & go for ribs. lmao xoxo
HAPPY BIRTHDAY AVI!
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2004 12 May :: 9.16pm
:: Mood: pleased
:: Music: what a wonderful world // louis armstrong
school isn't officially out, but its almost over. this is all we have left:
Chem - lab & exam.
Spanish - role play project & exam.
English - vocab quiz & exam.
Bio - buncha stuff.
Stats - done.
Economics - done.
Art History - simple project, then done.
simple. simple. no more AP tests. thank goodness. i forgot the stickers along with pretam, carlos, heather, and ashley t. lol ballers.
i need to go see landaker. need to get papers for departing Atlantic. =/
my kitty: she went to the vet. doctor said she has a cancer tumor. he also said that we will know the signs of when she is too sick to live. the only way for her to survive is to amputate (sp?) her leg.... at which, is a risk considering how old she is. mommy cried. she made me cry. she's very emotionally stressed about the situation. 17 years. its been long... my kitty is my baby. i went to pick her up last night, & i just carry her on my side like a baby and she wraps her paws around me... and nudges at my face. so loving. so sad. that's going to be the day. grandma emily. papa. & now my kitty. i don't want it to happen. *pray, o, pray*
on a better note: jonah & i = 7 months. 1o.12.o3, congratulations to us. we made it. no hell. no no no. feels very refreshing, clean & nice. no matter how i feel, i don't want this love to end. endless.
alex, ribs. lol thursday, por favor? perhaps, we'll try. xoxo
time to blow dry my hair, pick out what to wear, & clean off the bed so i can get some shut eye.
i see trees of green, red roses too
i see them bloom from me and u
and i think to myself
what a wonderful world
i see skies of blue & clouds of white
the bright blessed days & dark sacred nights
and i think to myself
what a wonderful world
the colors of the rainbow
so pretty in the sky
r also on the faces of people passing by
i see friends shaking hands
saying "How do u do?"
they're really saying "i love u!"
i hear babies cry, i watch them grow
they'll learn much more than i'll ever know
and i think to myself what a wonderful world
and i think to myself....
what a wonderful..... world
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2004 12 May :: 8.42pm
:: Mood: flirty
:: Music: ..MoRe tHaN LyFe iTseLF -->> KeLLy osb0urNe..
. n0 0ne l0vess me lyke y0u d0, unc0nditi0nal nd tru .
This s0ng iz s0o me riite n0w. It makezz me cry cuz i feel everything she sayys. Newh0, me nd edDy r back t0 n0rmal. He has sum surprise f0r me .. but he w0nt tell me wut it iz. UgH, i hate wen guyzz d0 that .. l0l, but he sayz it has suttin t0 d0 wit me nd hiim s0o iz g0tta be g00d! yAyErZz. Work iz gettiin t0 be crazyy funn. I w0rk wit 4 gurlz. They're all lyke 25 or 26 nd they're awesum t0 w0rk wit. I l0ve them. JeSsiE nd X-iE r my favezz. They're all lyke g0rge0us t00. l0l, i l0ve them all. Yea, t0day was g00d .. we juss sat ar0und nd talk b0ut fuckiin nd wut n0t. l0l, iz great shyt.
Me nd ChRiStiE r makiin planzz f0r niCk'z bdayy which iz this TuEsDaYy. l0l, we're makin f00d nd gettin ball00nz nd p0sterzz nd everything iz guna be PiNK. l0l, he'z guna hate uss. l0l, he'll get 0ver it. Well, AnThoNy FeRrEr g0t expelledD t0day .. damn drugg d0ggz. I swear, 0ur wh0le p0thead clique iz gettin smaller nd smaller. Nd n0w there iz lyke s0o much drama between all 0f uss. We're alwayyz fightin. Nd if iz n0t b0ut wh0 t00k the weed, iz ab0ut y dint y0u ask me t0 sm0ke 0r stupid friendshiip shyt. We usedD t0 all be c00l nd we never f0ught because that wasnt 0ur thang nd n0w iz lyke m0re drama everyy fuckiin dayy. Iz gettiin crazyy .. newh0, me nd jAx r tryiin t0 straighten shyt 0ut. We're the 0nes that startedD all the drama. An0ther thing wit beiin best friendzz wit a bunch 0f p0theadz iz we all suck at listeniin t0 each 0ther'z pr0blemz cuz all 0f 0ur brainz r s0o fuckedD upp that we cant think straight .. nd i'm definitely beiin t0tally seri0us. . .
ChRiStiE t0ld me t0day that i'm lyke her best friendD. l0l, that'z madD cute .. i l0ve her. We've g0tten crazyy cl0se nd we never usedD t0 talk lyke at all. I fixedD shyt upp between her nd FaNFaN. l0l, i'm s0o pr0ud 0f myself. ?? Questi0n .. why iz it that as s00n as i'm n0t feeliin hiim nem0re, coLLin hitz 0n me a l0t ?? UgH, madD crazy shyt!
Thiz wkendD shuld be g00d. Me nd my ErBeAr r definitely chyllen nd 0f c0urse imma be wit my JeNNy-p00 0n satuRdayy. l0l, g00d stuff. 0h nd anDy hadda get his head shavedD cuz he triedD t0 cuz his 0wn hair. l0l .. aww, he'z such a cutie! w0w, this entry was maj0rlyy rand0m. I'm l0viin it. HaHa, later bytchezz. i l0ve y0u babyy!! x0x (( oNe ))
0h yea, nd i l0ve my j0ey-p00 too. l0l, i dun think ne0ne can sayy 'i l0ve y0u' t0 each 0ther as much as we d0. iz DEF tru l0ve .. oo yea, M0ST DEFiNiTELY .. HaHa! x0x
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2004 9 May :: 6.56pm
:: Mood: crazy
saturday nights get long.
8pm: called hema.
9pm: hema picked me up.
9:30pm: we were at the motel with morgan, neil, zil, jb, renee, zach, andrew, mike & some other kid(s).
10pm: morgan records zach promising to buy us breakfast in the morning.
10:30pm: BOOM BOOM BOOM!
10:30-11pm: busted & laughing with the cops. condoms, the ice, the "guns", the keg in the bathtub, the pizza, etc. nobody's parents were called, hema was the only sober driver out of: Jb, Zil, renee, & her. 3 girls, 7 guys... hema... TIME TO BUST THE COP'S ASS!
11pm: neil, w/o a license, .o9 over the alcohol limit after a breath test... drives hema's car, hema drives zil's car. renee drives his own.
11:30pm: Lake Worth Beach. met up with a bunch of potheads. not safe driving.
12am: Neil grabs me, i get off the phone with brittany & we grab everyone & head for city place.
12:15am: neil is being yelled at by the backseat people. he swerves into the right lane... thinking nobody is in it. nearly hitting a white truck. the white truck follows after us. neil calls renee, telling him to cut off the truck so he can't get the license number in the parking lot.... nice parking lot chase. renee ends up knowing the people. then we stop at some other parking lot, and renee wants to beat neil's ass... cause he almost killed those people.
12:45am: made it to the train station.
12:50am: hema & i jumped in her car & drove off in search of a restroom. ran into city place... then headed to mike's house.
1:30am: got to mike's house.
2:30am: i crashed cause hema & mike were flirting... i didn't wanna interupt.
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8:30am: we all wake up.
9:30am: on the road to drop me off at work after speeding very much so.
10am: made it to work on the dot.
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how'd we get caught in the motel: zil bought the keg.... they brought it upstairs... people surrounded it. obviously not enough people because the manager saw them carrying it up through his window.
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good weekend. even though i was scared shitless that my parents were gonna be called... which they weren't... but still... phew. <3 for the record: hema & i were sober... the only ones.. w00t.
"I live for the nights i will never remember, with the people i will never forget." Anonymous (Neil's Profile.)
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2004 9 May :: 12.11am
:: Mood: drained
:: Music: ..LoNeLy DaYy -->> Pp..
. Guyyz can be DiCKZ .
Last niite was crazyy .. lyke alwayyz. Finally g0t t0 see my truest. Got fuckedD upp 0ff 0ur assez nd went sh0ppin. This m0rnin, we g0t all ready f0r HeAthEr'z funeral. We left early cuz we were juss cryiin lyke crazyy. Veryy sadD. Then, we went m0re sh0ppin .. cuz i g0t payedD .. nd i b0ught the cutest purse ever nd cl0thezz. jeNny iz jeal0us 0f my purse. l0l, t0dayy me nd jeNny went t0 the beach nd saw NY MiN. l0l, it was cute. She gave me 0ne 0f th0se MADE hatzz. Wen i figure 0ut h0w t0 put upp piczz in here, ill sh0w u me wit my new hat .. l0l. EdDy iz beiin an assh0le .. he g0t his fuckiin peri0d 0r suttin .. haha! But n0, he relle iz bein a dick. It all startedD thuRsdayy wen i made the mistake 0f tellin him i was g0in t0 chRis heRnanDez' h0use. l0l, badD idea. Yea, s0o i dunn0 .. have t0 see wut happens.
iin mem0ryy 0f . HeAtheR WeiNtRaub
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'God saw y0u gettin tiredD nd a cure was n0t t0 be. So he put his armz ar0und y0u nd whisperedD, C0ME WITH ME. Alth0ugh we l0vedD y0u dearlyy, we c0uld n0t make y0u stayy. A g0lden heart st0ppedD beating, hard w0rking handz at rest, God br0ke 0ur heartz t0 pr0ve he 0nlyy takezz the best. It will be l0nelyy wit0ut y0u, we'll miss y0u m0re each dayy, lyfe w0nt seem the same f0r us, since y0u've g0ne awayy. Each tiime we see y0ur picture, y0u'll smiile nd seem t0 sayy :: Dun cryy, i'm in God'z handz, we'll meet again sum dayy.' We l0ve y0u nd we miss y0u ... <-- cLiicK tHat
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-->> Real eyez realize real LiEZ.
-->> REAL treezz . chr0nic leavez . n0 seedz
. l0l, DEF the sec0nd 0ne f0r the st0nerzz .
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