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2003 24 September :: 11.06pm
i'm kind of peeved.
this needs to be a real confrontation but, things need to change.
regardless of what (you) may think or regardless of what (you) can or can not do, it isn't your decision, its mine.
i don't need extra drama and I know that (you) don't either. I know you think you know everything but guess what buddy, (you) don't.
there are many more of us who have been doing this for a heck of a lot longer then you, when there was actually something worthwhile at the other end. Maybe you'll learn from your mistakes, I tend to learn from mine.
thats all for now.
in other news, Gregory Luke returns on Fri <3
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2003 24 September :: 9.06pm
:: Mood: sleepy
:: Music: "Gravedigger" -Dave Matthews
Everyone look at today's song. *waits till you actually look up, even though I told you to*....see the artist? That's right. It's not a typo. Dave Matthews. Not Dave Matthews Band. Today I got Dave's debut solo album. EVERYONE GO BUY IT! : ) I got the tee-shirt too, and an exclusive cd from the tour with tim reynolds because I'm a warehouse member. And because I'm special. So now all you guys on my bus can stop yelling at me, I will NOT be listening to Busted Stuff in the morning. But I will bring it to school, in case I miss it on the bus to the game. Stupid Thursday game..
I just got home from school. It's like 9 o'clock. I went out to dinner with my Uncle Bob and his new fiancee. The whole thing is kind of weird. First of all, Susan (his fiancee) bears a noticable resemblance to his two ex-wives. Not physical, but her personality and stuff. Second, and this is the part I dont get, he broke up with his last wife on the issue of children. She wanted em, he has two older kids with his first wife, and didn't want more. Funny thing is, post-divorce, his new fiancee has 2 boys, 11 and 13. Just seems kind of odd. Oh well, he's not the weirdest part of my family...
On a more band related note, I still suck at pit, and I'm still spending a good amount of time practicing. I almost have the third song down though. "I'm working on it." I think I say that to markgraf like 10 times every day. I need to play louder, apparently. A LOT louder. (But I thought it was full, not loud!) That's the one thing that I get yelled at the most for. "Lauren, play out. I can't hear you at all up there." Mmmm...yea, I guess I do. It's just hard to hit those stick thingies any harder against the marimba than I am already. But I'm working on it. Excessively. I'm such a bando now. Even Amy says so. I spend every waking moment practicing. Much of it is on the piano/desk/dashboard, but it still counts. Today Amanda called me Skillet in front of Mr. Markgraf. He laughed at me.
This is a really boring entry. Nothing else happened. I'm gonna go listen to some Dave now.
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2003 21 September :: 3.36pm
:: Mood: okay
:: Music: "I'm Still Here" -Johnny Rzeznik
I'm really pissed off. I left my entire music folder in the band room on friday. That means I've played nothing but the clarinet all weekend! I could not practice the new song at all! GRR! I'm also pissed that my parents made me delete Kazaa. -.- Apparently it lets in all kinds of viruses. Either that or they have no idea what they're talking about and just decided to delete something that I liked, so now I'm limited to things that I've burned to listen to while I'm writing. Not a good day.
This stupid percussion disease of not being able to keep my hands still anymore has given me freaking aim add. I can't sit here and not type. Not many people are online right now, so I came to woohu to write about absolutely nothing just because I have no music to practice and no one talking to me online. I don't know if that made any sense at all, but just go with it. Oh, and sorry about last night/this morning's post of all those quiz results...I was really tired and bored.
Today I finally went to church with krystle. (I told you I would!) I like her church a LOT better than mine. We got out of "big church" and went to help out with krystle's sunday school group of 5 and 6 year olds. They have a lot of energy for it being AM. I think I used to be able to be like that. Once. About 11 years ago.
I'm still trying to figure a lot of stuff out. I think IB is turning me into one of those people who needs a crisis. Either that, or there are a lot of crises right now. It used to be all about band. I don't really have too much to say about the workload of junior year, because I knew it was coming. I think that the whole lack of eventful things to deal with is leading to my whole blah-ness. It's like...I don't feel like doing anything, but it's not because I'm just lazy. There just isn't anything worthwhile to do. I guess theoretically I could "do my readin'," but I said worthwhile. I'm going to fail history no matter what I do. Actually though, I'm doing a lot better in this class than I did in last year's. I think it's just because I was so screwed over for last year by Mr. Lemon Head. The only thing I knew from world history in middle school was how to surf. God bless private schools. (>:o)
HEY! I just found ALL the music I downloaded!!!!!! WOOT!! It's all in a folder, but I'm no longer connected or whatever with kazaa. Now I can listen to music while I post!!! YAY! *adds music to top*
Anywho...I really don't know what's going on in terms of a bunch of ...stuff. I HAVE BECOME SUCH A BANDO! I think a lot of it has to do with Nikki leaving, but she got aim now, so ...woot! But seriously. I am spending all my time that I'm not in class practicing, even when I knew all the music. Now I'm all like obsessive compulsive about it, because I'm freaking out that I have to go TWO WHOLE DAYS without music! *gasp* Last year this would have been something to celebrate: I would have an excuse not to practice. It's just something weird. I practice more than leah. o.O That kinda scares me. I'm noticing myself slowly turning into someone else and it's kinda freaky. I'm actually being nice to people sometimes.. o.O Who would have seen that coming?? I dunno, I guess it's not that big of a deal, but just something thats....there. Is anyone else noticing anything? I can't tell if it's just inside my head, or if it's totally noticable, because no one has said anything, and I can't decide whether all these things I'm semi-unvoluntarily changing are good or bad.. Feedback please! I mean, come on, I'm listening to Good Charlotte right now, and actually liking the song. WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH ME?! Atleast it's only this one song I like, and I'm still listening to more dave than his mom is.
Speaking of Dave, I saw his new video "gravedigger" from Some Devil in the middle of the night, WOW! That's a cool video, and it's a sweetness song. He played it at the concert I went to, but we didn't know what song it was. We were expecting it to be on busted stuff, but it wasn't so we decided it was just something unreleased, which it was, but no longer is. Some Devil is gonna rock the house!!! I can't wait till I get it! That'll give me something new to listen to so the people on my bus don't complain that I listen to the same 8 songs every single day on Busted Stuff on the way to school. If they would only listen to it, they'd understand. Or maybe it's just that I'm more weird than I realize. I just think that everyone else has music ADD. Those people that can't stand to listen to a whole cd from the same band.. I just don't get that. I listen to the same cd every day for months and then switch it to like another cd from dave. Almost the only time I listen to non-dave is when I'm writing this, which is why very few of my songs listed are from dave. Because I know all of you were wondering! o.~
Ok, I think that's enough bs. I have nothing left to talk about, so I guess I'll go actually study for my history dbq. :-(
I am a question to the world,
Not an answer to be heard.
All a moment that's held in your arms.
And what do you think you'd ever say?
I won't listen anyway…
You don't know me,
And I’ll never be what you want me to be.
And what do you think you'd understand?
I'm a boy, no I'm a man.
You can take me and throw me away.
And how can you learn what's never shown?
Yeah, you stand here on your own.
They don't know me 'cause I'm not here.
And I want a moment to be real,
Wanna touch things I don't feel,
Wanna hold on and feel I belong.
And how can the world want me to change,
They’re the ones that stay the same.
The don’t know me,
'Cause I’m not here.
And you see the things they never see
All you wanted, I could be
Now you know me, and I'm not afraid
And I wanna tell you who I am
Can you help me be a man?
They can't break me
As long as I know who I am.
And I want a moment to be real,
Wanna touch things I don't feel,
Wanna hold on and feel I belong.
And how can the world want me to change,
They’re the ones that stay the same.
They can’t see me,
But I’m still here.
They can’t tell me who to be,
‘Cause I’m not what they see.
Yeah the world is still sleepin’,
While I keep on dreamin’ for me.
And their words are just whispers
And lies that I’ll never believe.
And I want a moment to be real,
Wanna touch things I don't feel,
Wanna hold on and feel I belong.
And how can they say I never change?
They’re the ones that stay the same.
I’m the one now,
‘Cause I’m still here.
I’m the one,
‘Cause I’m still here.
I’m still here.
I’m still here.
I’m still here.
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2003 21 September :: 1.49am
:: Mood: Kinda Tired
:: Music: "Ziplock" -Lit (I think that's the title...)
Quizzie-Poos
hmm...I dont think they have seen my history grades...
Hell ya, I so kicked the President's ass.
Haha, I apparently am better off with my band-name.
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2003 20 September :: 2.27pm
:: Mood: pensive
:: Music: Hey Baby! -Atlantic High Marching War Eagle Band
Umm...today should be a short journal entry, or so I say now. Not a whole lot going on since Thursday. I thought the game last night went pretty well. I mean, the football team won, but besides that.. I think we did pretty well marching/playing, from what I heard. I didnt really see it, kinda had my back turned, and nobody in pit can hear the band AT ALL. Amy can't either, I don't think. It's kinda a problem I would guess, since it will lead to separation of pit and band as far as sound goes. I think part of the problem is that hardly anyone is surrounded by people in their own section, or so everybody tells me, so I wouldnt imagine that they would be playing to their full ability like that. There actually is a point to sitting with your section in class.. I think Lerner's just an idiot. Although, much as I hate to admit it, he earned huge points in my book last night. When Gabe almost passed out, and scared the CRAP out of me and krystle, we were lined up to go running frantically around the field, and lerner actually went up and sat with gabe for a few. It was at that point that I thought, hmmm, maybe he does care somewhat about our well being.. Dunno. Just an observation. I still dont like him though. I'm closer, but not there yet. Pit so did an awesome job last night. Way to go guys! And I actually hit my 3 note solo! lol. I was so afraid to screw that up.. It's not like an actual solo, but I'm still the only one playing. You guys know how bad I am at playing anything by myself in front of people, and...thats a lot of people!! I was so nervous before the show though. We were just kind of standing around. We were trying to find people in the stands that we knew, we only found the youngman family. All of them. It's kind of funny that they bring their daughter to ATL football games.
So anyway, I talked to nikki on the phone last night for like an hour. I laughed at her because her band is so weird. They sing all the time. Haha. Northwestern band is even more of a cult than Atlantic's. Nikki, there's always room for you at uf band! ;-) I think Ryan's still saving you a seat! hehehe. But I am expecting more updates AFTER classes start! (grrr....they have not even started yet. -.- ) Oh, and I so dedicate today's song selection to Nikki!!!
Well, this is a short journal entry for me, but that's really about all that's happened, other than the fact that everyone is now calling me skillet.. hm. So...uhh..I'll post more someday when I feel like it.
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2003 20 September :: 2.44pm
i'm far too lazy to fix my last post. It's beary purdy @ www.livejournal.com~plainmornings
:0)
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2003 18 September :: 8.13pm
:: Mood: amused
I have been amused all day. I got my music for the last(?) song of the show. (Do you hear the people sing?? lol amanda.) Anyway, Markgraf at the bottom of the page wrote "The end my friend." That amused me ALL day. Just ask people who have my 1st/2nd hour. I'm ...easily amused. Speaking of Markgraf, there is an interesting story from when you guys took your water break (singular) at practice today. I'll do it in script format, sort of.
Scene: I was practicing my part for master of the house while you guys were all getting water. I had no less than alé and adam behind me; I think krystle was there, but I dont remember. o.O I was probably around measure 20 when markgraf walked up to the marimba.
Me (immediately stopped playing): Hi. *wave*
Markgraf: How's the bass part coming?
Me: ...It's coming. I'm doing pretty well actually.
Markgraf: Ok... (waits expectantly)
Me: ...You want me to play it?!
Markgraf: Yea.
Me: Um..ok...from where?
Markgraf: How bout from 26?
Me: I haven't memorized the measure numbers, markgraf.
Markgraf: It's the pit part.
Me: This? (Play from measure 18)
Markgraf: No. It's the da da da....part. (it makes sense in my head, guys.)
Me: Ohhh! (Play from the right spot this time, virtuously flawlessly :-D)
Krystle: Ohhh! Lauren's got skills!
Markgraf: Yea, she's skillin'. That's what I'm going to call you now: Skillet.
Me: o.O
Later that day....(or after practice for all of you counting (non-lerner style, that is!))
Markgraf (after a brief conversation with a band parent): ...Right, Skillet?
Me: ...uhhh...sure. You're going to call me that forever now aren't you?
Markgraf: Yea, and I'm going to make everyone else call you that too.
Me: Bye Mr. Markgraf. I'll see you tomorrow. (walk away slowly)
So that was my practice today. We (markgraf, me, jen, and leah) also stood up in the back while lerner was talking (I mean...) and looked at the picture from last year. He was commenting on how he couldnt believe it was only taken last year, since some of the people looked SO different. Lots of changing hair styles this summer.. Anyway...other than that, today was rather uneventful..
We're discussing stress in health class, so we spent a majority of the class telling jokes. You know, because laughing is the best way to relieve stress. :-) IM me if you're stressed out! I've got a few good ones now! o.~ Got chem tests back...I still have a B in the class, but I'm very thankful we're about to do a lab. IF I actually do well on it, since I dont really know how he grades them.. I have another song to learn on the marimba, which I think I mentioned, but my life is now complete. Every year I have one thing that makes my life complete. Last year it was finally figuring out the origin of the word 'Alphabet'. This year it's learning the Rugrats theme song on the marimba. Freaking awesome. Let's see...I'm trying to think of everything else that's worth typing.. OH! I almost forgot!! I'm so going to the ataris concert! Woot! Everybody go! It's only 12 bucks! General Admission! It's gonna rock the house! If I think of anything else, I'll post it up someday, but I think that's about it for today. Today was just generally good overall. I like good days. I'll leave you with some Ataris.
Being grown up isn’t half as fun as growing up
These are the best days of our lives.
The only thing that matters is just following your heart
And eventually you’ll finally get it right.
Breaking into hopes of swimming pools, and reeking havoc on our world.
Hanging out at truck stops just to pass the time.
The black top’s singing me to sleep.
Lighting fireworks in parking lots,
Illuminate the blackest nights.
Cherry cokes under this moonlight summer sky.
2015 Riverside, it’s time to say goodbye.
Get on the bus, it’s time to go.
Being grown up isn’t half as fun as growing up
These are the best days of our lives.
The only thing that matters is just following your heart
And eventually you’ll finally get it right.
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2003 15 September :: 5.44pm
:: Mood: numb
:: Music: "Best of Friends" -The Fox and The Hound
When you're the best of friends
Having so much fun together
You're not even aware
You're such a funny pair
You're the best of friends
Life's a happy game
You could clown around forever
Neither one of you sees
Your natural boundaries
Life's one happy game
If only the world wouldn't get in the way
If only people would just let you play
They say you're both being fools
You're breaking all the rules
They can't understand
The magic of your wonderland
When you're the best of friends
Sharing all that you discover
When these moments have passed
Will that friendship last?
Who can't say
There's a way?
Oh, I hope, I hope it never ends
Cause you're the best of friends
I MISS NIKKI!!!!!!!
We went out on Wednesday and had a blast.. We went to see American Wedding, where I so got carded (my first time!) then rented Drop Dead Gorgeous and hung out at chez moi. It was like the best time ever. Or atleast the best time since Christmas Parade last year. o.~ But the whole "leaving" thing was so awkward. What do you mean Nikki's going to Chicago? It's not really registering at all. That doesn't happen. I'm feeling better now than I was a few days ago, but it still feels really weird. I was telling Krystle when I got home wednesday that I just didnt want to do anything. It's a weird feeling ya know.. Didnt feel like sleeping. Didnt feel like eating. Didnt feel like talking to people. Didnt feel like sitting there. Just kinda wanted to not exist for a little while.
This whole thing though has made me realize how lucky I am to have the friends I do. I really appreciate you guys and I dont often say it. You guys really have gotten me through a lot of shit. Band/IB/life has put me on this emotional roller coaster (parenthetical to Krystle) that I can't seem to get off. All my friends really keep me grounded. I can remember after we marched at festival last year, and we all did so bad, we went back up into the stands and me and gabe and teri just sat there with each other and it was like the best ever, because I knew that no matter what we had done, my friends were there with me. That's the only good thing about IB. I have the best friends ever. I love all you guys so much.. *hug* (ahh!...*right eye twitches*) hmm...well Krystle, I tried. Just doesnt seem to work as well as when nikki forced me.. And with all the crap that's going on now for everyone, I know we all have issues, we can just rely on each other (uh huh, from one corner to another, uh huh...sorry.) You guys all know that no matter what happens in band or school or home or all three or what have you that we'll all make it through okay. It's just good to know. And I need my friends more than ever now. All this shit has been getting to me lately and just has not let up. All you guys are so great and you know exactly how to make me feel better whenever I'm down. Just wanted to write this entry kind of as a tribute to friends because I need you the most now, and I know you're there for me no matter what.
So no one told you life was gonna be this way (clap clap clap clap)
Your job's a joke, you're broke, your love life's DOA
It's like you're always stuck in second gear,
When it hasn't been your day, your week, your month,
or even your year, but...
I'll be there for you...
When the rain starts to pour
I'll be there for you...
Like I've been there before
I'll be there for you...
'Cause you're there for me too.
You're still in bed at ten, though work began at eight,
You burned your breakfast, so far things are going great,
Your mother warned you there'd be days like these,
But she didn't tell you
when the world was brought down to your knees
that...
I'll be there for you...
When the rain starts to pour
I'll be there for you...
Like I've been there before
I'll be there for you...
'Cause you're there for me too.
No one could ever know me. No one could ever see me.
Seems your the only one who knows what it's like to be me
Someone to face the day with.
Make it through all the mess with.
Someone I'll always laugh with.
Even at my worst, I'm best with....
you - yeah
It's like you're always stuck in second gear,
When it hasn't been your day, your week, your month,
or even your year, but...
I'll be there for you...
When the rain starts to pour
I'll be there for you...
Like I've been there before
I'll be there for you...
'Cause you're there for me too...
I'll be there for you...
I'll be there for you...
I'll be there for you...
'Cause you're there for me too.
Ok, so the Rembrandts can say it a little better than me... o.~
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2003 14 September :: 3.23pm
hes gone again :0(
I guess I really have no reason to be sad because I'm really lucky I get to see him so often and we had an amazing weekend.
Him staying over was the best idea we've ever had :0) i woke up Sat morning to him just staring at me... kinda creepy but ultra soothing too. We took a crazy long nap yesterday and watched One Flew ove the Cukoos nest. Last night I awoke to Greg laying on my arm and VERY loud purring.. my kitty was sitting smack on my stomach and chest, it was a very weird thing to wake up to but kinda funny. I tried to wake Greg up but he was all sleepy. shame. I got to see him after my class this morning. I miss him already :0(
BUT! I get to go to Gainesville on Thurs so that'll be nice :0)
oh yeah. We lost Fri night vs. Glades Central. (46-27 i think) it was... sad. I was kinda out of it Fri night.. I went wake/kneeboarding & tubing with Paul and Matt before the game. Sun exhaustion + crazy bruises EVERYWHERE! + no water or food = very worn out Vivi ... although i'm all in pain and stuff it was really fun. (<3s for Pauly & Matthew.)
I have a spanish oral tomorrow. I don't know ANY SPANISH!!!!!
i have to go to work in like 10min. This sucks.
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2003 11 September :: 10.33pm
:: Mood: Grrrrr
:: Music: "Ants Marching" -Dave Matthews Band
Band Aid
"It's just one of those days
When you dont wanna wake up
Everything is Fucked
Everybody sucks
You dont really know why
But you want to justify
Ripping someone's head off
No human contact
And if you interact
Your life is on contract
Your best bet is to stay away...
...It's just one of those days.."
-Limp Bizkit, "Break Stuff"
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
There. I needed that. French club sucks. It can kiss my ass. THANKS FOR VOTING FOR ME GUYS!! >:o Sorry...that sarcasm was not directed at anyone really reading this, because your probably my friend, and IF you voted, I'm just going to make myself think you voted for me. But I hope Farrah or whatever goes to hell. This is so unfair. She just decided to show up and run for office?! I've put so much time and energy into this freaking club, finally work up nerves to actually run, and SHE beats me?! I hope she gets a poor on the scrapbook. She told me that she only came to run for office. That if she didnt make it she was just not going to be in French club. WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH HER?! Or me, I guess...I'm the one who lost. Dont pay any attention to what I'm saying really. I'm just very...bitter. Congrats to Ale and Amy though. You guys totally deserve it. UGH! I'm just SOOO pissed off though!! I'll get over it. This week has just sucked so much. This is exactly what I needed to send me over the edge. Thank you God! You really do want me to be institutionalized!! Then I wont have to take history essays!
Anyway, for those of you looking at the subject of this post and going ...quoi? (ugh, I hate french so much.) Band aid. Yes. I know that some of you...almost all of you had a HORRIBLE practice today, but I had a great time! (lack of sarcasm) I love pit this year! lol. I know you never thought you'd here me say that! Today I got the whole show, or what we have of it, memorized. I can play it ALL!!!!! Leah was like Lauren I'm so proud of you! Band makes me feel so much better this year. Practice, not class. And at practices I dont have to deal with lerner at all! It's so great. Only Markgraf. And I dont get why some of you guys hate him so much. Well, I do, but I like him anyway and so does Leah. He's a good guy people. Who none of us can STAND is Lerner. Atleast everyone in pit that I talk to think he is absolutely an idiot. That thought is actually not limited to pit people.. Music knowledge or not. He doesnt listen to anything anyone says. Well, he does listen and then "politely ignores" what you suggested. Even markgraf today was complaining that every single suggestion he has made has not even been considered. I'm really afraid that markgraf is gonna leave. I know, or hope, that he is just blowing off steam with some of the things he's said, but like he is probably the biggest reason I'm even in band at this point. You guys know well enough that if I had to deal with lerner all the time I would not be here. I love you all, but ....I cant stand the man. I think, though, that it is bad for us to have two directors at this point. Well, not necessarily bad to have two directors, but rather two directors that hate each other. I keep on thinking about how bad it is that now the directors are sending another rift through band. It was bad enough last year, in terms of number of rifts, when everybody unanimously hated voldemort. Now, on top of a few other rifts, we have the director rift. Some people hate lerner and love markgraf (*raises hand*), others hate markgraf and love lerner (o.O) and still others are what I like to call "floaters." These are the people who when you ask "Do you hate lerner as much as I do?" they answer with "that depends...what day is it?" Simple. Although I must say, this is now the biggest rift I feel personally in band. But maybe that's because I've committed the immortal sin and am a percussion player and a clarinet player at the same time. There's another funny thing. Every day I get someone new saying ...you're in pit?!! haha. People at ATL are slow. Although people in pit constantly forget that I play clarinet in the stands and for concert and are always asking me why I am not in seventh hour. But let me tell you, we set a record time for getting all that crap back up there. Although, (and this is for Kristen) there ARE 10 of us. o.~ We made it our mission to get all the crap up before the band got in, and we so did. I think honestly that pit has a better sense of unity than most of the rest of the band. (MOST) We all help each other out. We have to. Have you ever tried to carry a marimba up those rafters by yourself?? Well? Have you?? It's cool though. Not many people realize it, or think about it. I know I didnt until...last week. Just, I have finally found a silver lining. Today was the worst day ever. Nothing made me feel better. Until like 3:10. I guess it's just good to accomplish something that no one ever would have guessed I could. I've written this in my journal like every tuesday and thursday. lol. Anywho..sorry to those of you guys who are not accomplishing things in band, or feel like you are not. I know that this year will be tough, and we probably won't get a superior, but if I stuck with marching band and joined PIT to do so, then you have to stay too. You will find your silver lining too. Don't worry about it.
I won't be in school tomorrow or at the game or online for a few days. I'm going to Gainesville to see the boy. Krystle and Adam, HAVE FUN TOMORROW NIGHT. Just do. Trust me, forget about band for the night, forget about whether or not the show is awful, or thinking that you may never get the marching right. (doodoodoodoo doodoodoodoo ...that was from Wayne's World.) Just have a good time no matter what. Well that's about it I guess. If you're wondering about the song choice, there was a point at practice today when lerner was sitting up on his pedestal, oh, sorry...bleachers, screaming at you guys to run, he's like "you should look like little ants scurrying around down there." It's also a good song. Listen to it. Oh, and just a word of advice to all you "marchers" out there, either memorize the fight song, or STRONGLY talk to lerner about not doing it in the future. It sounds so crappy and it's pointless to even play it in the first place. Don't talk to markgraf about it. He knows. But I do doubt that lerner will actually take into consideration what you have to say. So..uhh...yea. See you guys monday.
"Welcome to the real world she said to me
Condescendingly
Take a seat
Take your life
Plot it out in black and white
Well I never lived the dream of the prom kings
And the drama queens
I'd like to think the best of me
Is still hiding up my sleeve
They love to tell you Stay inside the lines
But something's better on the other side
I want to run through the halls of my high school
I want to scream at the top of my lungs
I just found out there's no such thing as the real world
Just a lie you've got to rise above
So the good boys and girls take the so-called right track
Faded white hat grabbing credits, maybe transfers
They read all the books but they can't find the answers
All of our parents, they're getting older
I wonder if they've wished for anything better
While in their memories, tiny tragedies
They love to tell you Stay inside the lines
But something's better on the other side
I want to run through the halls of my high school
I want to scream at the top of my lungs
I just found out there's no such thing as the real world
Just a lie you've got to rise above
I am invincible
I am invincible
I am invincible
As long as I'm alive
I want to run through the halls of my high school
I want to scream at the top of my lungs
I just found out there's no such thing as the real world
Just a lie you've got to rise above
I just can't wait for my ten year reunion
I'm gonna bust down the double doors
And when I stand on these tables before you
You will know what all this time was for"
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2003 9 September :: 7.02pm
:: Mood: ecstatic
:: Music: "Master of the House"
Today for the first time since...whenever I posted about it, my day was good, BECAUSE OF BAND. I know, it's hard to believe, but it does happen occaisionally. I am really actually glad that I'm in pit. I'm having a really good time now, and it actually feels like I'm accomplishing something since I can now play more than heart and soul on the marimba. Today I got the second song for the first time at practice, and in two and a half hours, I CAN PLAY THE WHOLE THING!!! =-O All you music people, shut up. This is huge for me. I know the part is rediculously easy, but it's still good for me. And I have a "pit solo." Or rather, I'm the only one who plays it in pit, but I have no idea what the rest of the band is doing. It's really not that big, since it's just 3 notes, but I didnt miss it all practice! :-) Wow, you know, it's nice to use happy emoticons for a change.. Anyway, while I know that I am one of the very VERY few pro-Markgraf people out there, this is my journal, so :-P. I like his teaching better then Lerner's. I know that he can be taken as rude, and sometimes probably is, but it doesn't bother me, because I'm rude too and you guys still love me or you would not be reading this. Or so I tell myself. Granted, he does cross a few more lines than I would, and I am not under any circumstances asking you to love Markgraf, I'm just kind of justifying I guess why I still like him. This is mostly in response to Amy's entry about Amazing Grace. Not that I dont think what he said/did was totally out of line, but I dunno... It just doesnt change my opinion of the guy. But he's not totally rude and stuff. It was great watching him try to build my confidence in my marimba playing though. Funny thing is it actually worked come to think of it. By the end of today's practice I was playing atleast half of the volume that he wanted it. lol. Only pit people would probably understand this I guess. He like came over to the marimba and was like ok, Lauren, give me the sticks. He played a few measures of what we were currently working on in the drum break REALLY LOUD and said that's how I want it. Can you do that? I kinda looked at him and was like uhhhhhhh....(it was at this point that I thought of my personal hero paragraph)...sure! Mind you, I did not/could not play that loud, but I was louder than I think I ever had been. And I'm actually hitting a majority of the notes now! I know that to most of you guys, this sounds like psh! I could probably play most of those notes now! And I have no doubt that you could. Only people probably who saw that first time leah was trying to teach me to play could understand the improvement on this one. It's just a really great feeling for me to go from absolutely not believing at all that I would be able to play anything ever to playing a whole song (however easy it may be, it's still a song) by the end of the practice that I got the music. It's nuts. But see, this is what I'm saying. Markgraf had a lot to do with this. The whole entire time if I would go up to him and be like Mr. Markgraf I suck at marimba and I cant do this he'd just go sure you can! Which, as I'm typing it, sounds like nothing, but can any of you imagine kayla (voldemort) ever having any faith in her students at all? I think it's just this great leap in directors that makes me like him so much. I was the one who all last year said that it did not matter who came, it would always beat the alternative. I came into this year ready to like the director, because remember, I did not have Mrs. C or Mr. Saint. This is pretty much my first opportunity to actually like a director; all you SRCS alums, you know what I mean here. It's just....I guess I've rambled enough...if you dont get it by now, just like post questions in the comments.
On a much less....happy note, I am so nervous about French club!!!! That is the most nervous I think I have ever been for a speech, and the nerves have not gone away, because I wasnt nervous about the speech, I was nervous about the outcome of the election! grr! But, oh here's something many of you can relate to: My happiness from practice today has surpassed my nervousness about French club elections! I know how hard that is to believe, but that's how happy band made me today!!!
Also, for those of you who did not give me a beagle with a big head this morning, yesterday was my 17th birthday. :-) I got tickets to the eagles game!! :-D It's on a day before an exam, but....oh well. It's the eagles. I also got the special edition lion king preordered, which is something I knew I would get, but it's like this deal you get the dvd, 4 lithographs, and a "plushie" when you preorder it. AND when my mom called to order that, she preordered finding nemo too! YAY!!!! That means that as soon as it comes out, I get the nemo dvd, the lithographs and the plushie! FINDING NEMO LITHOGRAPHS!!!! WOOT! (parenthetical documentation to kristen) But that's about all.. I'll try to update more often, just for you kristen. Kristen: lol woohu! I've been wondering when you'd update again.
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2003 9 September :: 7.00pm
i think of how frustrated i've become with everything. Today just pulled my last string with band. After class I went in to tell Mr.Lerner that I was going to miss the Sept 19th gamve vs. Martin County because I am going to be going to Gainesville to meet with the music school up there... Lerner breaks out with "well, you have a commitment to the band, you made a commitment to tuesdays, thursdays and fridays" to which I responded "I understand but that was the only date that I could get a meeting with the administration and I could go up to gainesville" to which hes like "well you have to stick to your commitments" & I said "Well I also have a commitment to myself to go to COLLEGE!" to which he responds "well maybe you shouldn't pick conflicting commitments" and at that point i just kind of blew up saying "If i have to choose between band and going to college, i'm going to college" and dashed out.
Its funny... something i used to love so much has become the bane of my existence. I truly despise what this organization has become. I can honestly say that i am ashamed of meeting other band members after they have seen our show (or lack there of) ... I am co captain of this band, whatever that happens out there is a direct reflectiono n my leadership skills (or lack thereof)...
if things get worse (and i thought i'd NEVER be saying this) then chorus & Mr.Houchins aren't looking too bad...
::sigh::
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2003 8 September :: 11.18pm
Do you hear the people sing?
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2003 4 September :: 2.37am
fuck european history.
i didn't even want to take the bullshit class.
ANGRY!
1,175 words... thats as good as its getting.
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I'm going to UF the 18th-20th or 21st... anyone care to join me?
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