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crazy.. omg.. i kno i havent written in here in like... FOREVER... but between school work and sleeping.. there isnt much time for any thing.. but thats kewl.. i havent even turned the computer in like ever.. i didnt go to school today coz im sick.. its that just great?.. i hate being sick.. and im hott and any thing.. i think im going to a COLD shower.. my mom said that andrew came up last nite.. at like 1120.. what the hell.. i dnt kno what that boy was thing.. well im a go.. more tomorrow, maybe
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people.. yea.. i HATE ppl.. they get on my fucking nerves So0o0o much... i wish i could just kill them all.. my god.. allright.. everything was goin pretty good today till lunch time.. thats when all i did was mention to mellissa that tina had a gumby shirt on and that i liked it, so she tells tina her shirts cute and then looks away and i see tina give her this look.. and i kno tina was lookin at mellissa.. so i told melliss and shes like "no, she gave that look at you coz she dont like you" so i was like "yea, well i didnt mean to hit her with that shit yesterday and i told ppl that after they told me shes pissed at me" and then mel started flippin out! and we got into a little argument and she was like "well whatever i dont like you either" so i was like "good, that adds you to everyone else".. so then like a minute later shes like "oh, and whats this i hear your tellin people that you hang out with my brothers band and everything?" and im like "who heard that? when did i say that?!?" and shes like "thats what i heard" and she stopped it there. so 5 minutes later her and brittany are doin somethin and she does this really high pitched thing and i go "damn.." and shes like "dont talk to me" which i wasnt anyway, i was commenting on the high pitch.. and i was lookin at britt when i said it.. so later i hadnt taken my tray up yet and savannahs like "yo, would take ur tray up already? its startin to smell bad" and she was all gettin attitude with it so i was like "o, just for that, im gonna let it sit there for a few minutes" and then mellissa jumps in and is like "dont you get attitude with one of my friends!" so i just rolled my eyes and left it at that.. i need to talk to kevin about that whole comment about the band thing.. hopefully my grandmom will let me be on at like.. 9 o'clock.. if not, ill sneak on.. i can get on her computer quietly.. Julies not here so our 8th period is sucking.. thats why im in here in the library typing this.. and i guess i wont talk to her on the bus.. hopefully ill talk to jack.. hes cool, hopefully he dont start hating me.. that would suck. well i think im gonna go.. life sucks.. and since no one will let me kill myself, i might as well kill everybody else.. -x-
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wtf.. i can never think of a damn subject... omfg, yesterdaay at lunch was so fun.. me and brittany were flinging onions over at shannons table.. but then the shitty part.. beans got mixed in with the onions and hit the preps behind us (in front of if u were in my seat) and it got all over their white shirts.. so they blamed it on me and greg threw his bottle of water on me.. woohoo, wow its water.. i should have cried over it *sarcasim*.. but yea, so he got taken out right away and was suspended.. and then some how beans got over to shannons table and hit miranda.. so miranda comes over and starts flippin out on heather.. and they're just yellin back and forth so mr. mantsanka came over and told heather to go.. so i think she might have gotten suspended.. but then we had to tell mr. mantsanka every thing, so i told him that i was flinging onions over to shannons table as a joke and they knew it was a joke coz they were laughing with us but that i didnt throw the beans.. so he told me that if he saw me throwing anything again, ill get suspended.. and yea.. Mr. Beinkowski wasnt kiddin bout that detention.. so he told me i had to come yesterday or ill get written up.. so i told him i cant come and that i cant come untill next week.. so hes letting me come next week on tuesday.. and like i told my mom about this.. HA! lol.. i just told her im goin to the SEV which i AM goin to go after the detention like i did for that gym detention.. but yea.. so then this morning my mom starts flippin out on me just coz i asked where something was.. and omfg.. then 10 minutes later shes all nice to me and shit.. cant she make up her mind? being mad at me of being nice to me.. coz im fucking hateing it.. and its making me start hating her more even tho i already hate her and wish that pot head would fuckin die.. well whatev... im out -x-
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errm ya.. being grounded sucks balls dude.. i have no ocmputer for god knows how long.. and yea, i was supposed to have a detention for screaming BITCH in social studies class.. i didnt go.. who cares! ya kno? fuck mr. b. he can kiss my ass.. and the only reason i screamed bitch was coz i was flipping out on alex.. hes derserved it to, but then at gym he thinks he can just go and be all friendly again.. whatev.. o0o yea, i saw my buddy Josh F. at gym.. he was cutting thru the school to go over someones house and i told him he should come back on thursday around that same time and chill wit me.. and THEN Dorothy and Sokan (Shorty) got into a fight.. idk what about but i kno dey was fightin!! lol iight i think im gonna go.. -x-
If I'm just bad news..
i hate my mom yes i hate my mom... i wish that fucking pot head would fucking die.. and this morning, she startes flippin on me for stupid little shit and she knows not to slip out on me when im PMSin, but i think she does that on purpose so i can yell back and then she can ground me off the computer con she hates when im on there.. so now i wont get to talk to Ryan all week.. or Kari, or Michelle.. or anyone else.. this fuckin sucks.. they need to get on at the time i have second period so i can talk to them.. and yea. the computer i picked happened to have the good keyboard but the shitty mouse.. o0o well.. -out- -x-
my weekend.. wow, what a fucking boring ass weekend.. good storm last night tho.. man i just wish someone would have called or came over or something.. the only thing this weekend was good for was meeting Ryan online ((look down to see what he looks like)) and i have a fuckin speech to write today.. a persuasive speech and i totally SUCK at writing persuasively.. ghaa.. and it so0o fucking hot.. good tihng theres a fan in this damned library.. and i had to pick the most randomest computer to get on ad i feel lonley over here with like, 5 empty computers on each side of me.. o0o well.. i think im gonna go.. i think the teacher's here so im gonna go to class and find out of we had homework in there.. -x-
guys.. well lemme put up these last 2 pics of billys nightmare tattoos iight.. now to the guys part of this.. i always meet these guys online.. and i show them to my firend and she (and me) swears they are so0o hot.. so i wanted to share some of them with you.. Jake: Derek: Ryan: ((my fave)) AJ: and last but not least.. Matt: leave ur comments!! lol
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bored.. im so0o bored.. bree aint gettin fez tix.. and idk what im doin tonight.. i wanna chill with kevin but i have No0o0o clue when he gets off work.. o0o well.. and he prolly goin to the show tomorrow and my mom said i cant go.. so theres ANOTHER night alone all by myself.. hey, i figured out how to get pics up in here!! w00t.. idk what to put up.. ima go search my computer and put a pretty good one up.. iight.. im gonna put up billys two nightmare tattoos.. weeee
there is no subject.. lol so0o yea.. cable was out this mornin.. so i didnt get to watch videos.. so instead i turned on my computer and burned myself a few of the incubus cds that i got off of briana.. im also tryin to get on aol.com from this stupid school computer and its taking wayy too fuckin long to load.. ill go check it again.. juniour prom is tonight.. a lot of my friends are goin.. i envy kelly for havin an 11th grade b/f.. if tony was still around and we were still together and we had money.. we'd prolly be goin too.. but No0o0o.. he had to.. uhh.. nvm i dont feel like talkin shit on him.. blahh.. Van Helsing opens tonight.. i should go see it but Amanda wants to see Mean Girls.. o0o well.. ill figure sumthin out.. itll prolly be VERY crowded coz its gonna be a good movie and its opening tonight.. i gotta find briana and see if shes gettin Y100 Feztival tix.. coz she said b4 that she could prlly get the tix but had no ride.. and i told her that if she got the tix, i could provide a ride.. and the tix go on sale today at 4.. so i gotta find her and find out if shes gettin tix.. i wanna go so0o bad since im not allowed to go to warped tour.. i wonder if kevin is seriously gonna buy my warped tix from me.. ttyl -x-
glasses.. w00t.. i got mah new glasses yesterday.. no ones noticed i got new ones yet! lol.. but hey, its only second period so i got all day to see if someone notices.. and im not saying anything till tomrrow about me havin them.. and ill be like "you didnt notice yesterday" so0o yea.. kevin went to band practice and lena was home sick all day.. i hope she feels better.. Briana came over and i finally got the Incubus cds from her.. and she also brought over 2 offspring cds so i have to burn them soon.. coz all i did was copy them into my computer.. iight.. well.. im out.. -x-
ehh >_< ehh.. i woke up at 6:20 this morning.. grr.. i hate being tired!!! lmao.. uhh.. yea.. my mom made me take the earring out of my lip.. and it was a lil swollen.. and now she has to be a fuckin bitch and tell me im not allowed to get anything peircing/tattoo related untill im 18 and i move out.. i fuckin hate that pot head who calls herself a mom. o0o and last night, this girl Lena that ive known for a while randomly ims me.. hopefully we'll chill today.. i just talked to Kevin like.. 15 minutes ago and he said he might have band practice.. i told him that i wrote him a note asking what he was doin after i told him what the note said so hes like "well, give it to me anyway" so i will at the end of this period when i see him.. blahh.. heres a few quotes: "Kill me while i still beleive that you were meant for me" -Yellowcard "They say dreams are real as long as they last... couldnt we say the same about life?" "I Kepp my scars from prying eyes, incapable of ever knowing why... Somebody breath, I've got to have an answer, why am i so facinated by bigger pictures, better things? But i dont care what you think, you'll never understand me!" -Slipknot "The truth is... You could slit my throat and with my one last gasping breath, i'd apologize for bleeding on your shirt"
ehh.. hey guess what i peirced my lip last night, finally!! lol my mom is gonna kill me tho when she gets home from work!! heh ^_^ but oh well, shes the one that smokes weed so i should be able to do something too.. but then again.. she is the parent so yea.. im gonna be dead but oh well.. and i cant stop playing with it and its starting to hurt now.. o0o and i asked that person out and he said that he likes me as a friend and i seem like a nice person and that hed like to hang out with me.. XD but yea.. im not puttin any names coz i dont want ppl bothering me or him about it even tho a few know already by accident Ghaa, i gotta stop playin with the damn earring in my lip.. STOP IT!! damn.. i cant.. heh ^_^ well.. ima go.. -x-
carnival.. b.j... kevin.. sean.. iight.. right now, im talkin to jess so its gonna be a lil hard to update this but ill try.. iight so0o yeah.. ill just tell about last night coz i 4got what all happened on friday.. so0o yeah, i called B.J. and got him to come down.. i took my break when he came down and i told him my answer would be yes.. so we started making out on the logs.. 3 times.. then i was like "lets walk around" and hes like "uhh.. i can't" and points down.. dude i gave him a fuckin hard on! lmao.. so then later (after i told a few ppl that i was just meesin wit him and was actually tryin to get wit someone else..) hes talkin to some of my friends and the one comes over and is like "he broke up with you" and you kno what, i dont really care coz im plannin on askin sum1 out tonight.. and i wont say who coz they'll prolly come here and read this.. but if all goes well, then ill say who.. if it dont.. then idk..but yeah.. thats basically it!! o0o, i got kevins s/n and seans #!! w00t! lol i had to give sean my #'s coz if he couldnt walk me home, he had to call me and tell me, and when he called my cell, i got his number! lol, so then i couldnt find amanda to walk home with so i asked kevin and he did.. we even talked a lil at me house till my mom got a little pissed that it was midnight AND that she couldnt hear the tv coz we were talkin.. lol but i think ill go.. ill write later!
Carnival! Weeeee IIght.. well first off... im gonna tell you about B.J... yea.. my ex.. well, he tried getting back wit me last night.. so yeah.. here we go: i show up at the carnival and see him standing somewhere.. i go over and say hi, and we start talking then we walk down to where im working at and i was like "Will, you need me yet?" and hes like "not really.. not untill business gets heavy" so i was like "ok, so we can walk around a bit i guess" pointing to B.J. So we go over and sit on the log that me, fee and steve sat on yesterday and omfg he was flirting like hell and using some lines on me.. and he tried to get me to kiss him!!!!! i was like 'wtf' ya kno? well i talked to him, i was like "what happened last time.. wont happen again right?" and he was like "what happened last time?" and i was like "you dont remember??" hes like "idk.. was it the whole cheating thing?" and i was like "yeah sorta.." so he goes "well, it wont happen again.. i promise" and ya kno, im not gonna trust him right away so i told him to let me think about it. so we decide to get up and hes like "do u wanna walk around.. hold hands or sumthin?" and i was like "im good... lets go check and see if Will needs me yet" so we walk over and i see business is starting to get busy.. so i told him "bye" and went in to work. Later on, like a half hour to an hour, i see him walkin around holdin some other chicks hand!! so like, wtf, does he want to get back wit me or not? ya kno.. and the reason i said no right away was coz i was tryin to get with Will & Sean.. who btw didnt show up last night so i had to walk BY MYSELF to my grandmoms.. i shouldve gotten his # yesterday so i couldve called him.. so0o yeah, the FUNNY part of last night (yes there was a funny part) was that my boss didnt kno my name so he kept callin me "girl" lol and the one girl that works at the poster place told me i wont get paid untill closing night so yea.. i go in today at 5 till 10 or 11 and saturday and sunday from 1-11.. i better be gettin paid good!!!
Bam / Carnival ok, well yea.. this dude claims to be bam who imed me yesterday.. ya kno, gotta let the poseurs have their fun (if this IS a poseur) but o0o well.. lol so yea, me and felicia go to walk up to the carnival and we stop at wendys to get fries. we see steve inside so we stay for a bit and chill.. this dude sean comes in (HOTT!!) and he chills with us.. jeff comes in and him and felicia ignor each other the whole time.. but oh well.. ! lol and the whole walk up we were talkin about jeff and steve. so anyway, me, fee, steve, sean and that brandon kid all walk over to the carnival from wendys.. fee was messin around sayin steve was her date so i was like "well whos my date?" and she points over to seana nd i was like "Oh, ok!" lol so yea, we get there and me, fee and steve walk around, sean kinda ditched us.. we saw different ppl there and we went over to the fishy stand and we talked to Will.. i had mentioned Mat (yes, one "t"!) who worked at that very stand last year.. Will said Mat was a close friend of his and had actually got him that job there.. and i was like, yeah, i liked mat.. so will had to go and break the news.. he was like "yeah.. Mat passed 6 days ago" i was like "whu?" he goes "yea, he overdosed" i was like "omg! no!" i waited a WHOLE year to see him again and chill with him and he had to go and overdose.. but o0 well.. so yea, me and fee get bored and she wants to leave and i dont, so i asked Will if i could help him and he said ok, so i go in and pick up the balls on the ground. i had won a fishy prior to that, i named him "puffles".. i wanted to name it Will, coz i named my fish from last year Mat, but Alex already named hers Will.. so i was like fine! and lindsay named hers wiggles so i said, well, mines puffles.. and anthony called puffles a crack head!! i cant beleive him! lol j/m.. so yea, at the end, ashley was askin Will about a job, and Wills boss comes over and was like "whos lookin for a job?" and me and ashley were like "we are!" and he asked ashley how old she was and she said 15. hes like "well, u gotta be 16 to work here" and i was like "i turn 16 in november!" and hes like "hmm, close enuff!" so i got a job! coz he said to come back tomorrow, so im comin back for the rest of the nights and im workin the fishy stand will hottie Will, then hottie Sean is walkin home (well to my grandmoms) with me coz he lives in willowbrook and my grandmom live right down the street that the carnival is on. o0o, the other things i got there were i won a gc poster and framed gc picture! >.< weee lol.. umm.. yea, i cant wait till tonight.. dude, its hard tryin to flirt with 2 guys at one time.. and ill probably never see Will after this... he said he lives in Wilks-Barre which is where Tony told me he was livin at.. so i was like, "do you kno tony burch?" and hes like "huh? probably not, i dont know anyone up there" so i was like "o0o ok.. nvm then" my friend called me a "fuckin carny" coz im workin at the carnival, lol.. o0o well, im the one workin with a hot guy!!! ^_^ jay, if you ever read this.. HI!!! *waves* lmao o0o and this dude derek imed me yesterday.. he saw my s/n in a chat room and imed me.. OMG!! hes So0o0o fuckin hot! but ya kno, i think ive bored you all with talkin about hot guys! lol ttyl
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