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2004 6 July :: 4.29pm
a long ass survey because i was bored....
| Basics | | Name:: | Luan | | Birthdate:: | May 25th and dont you forget it | | Age:: | 16 | | Birthplace:: | montreal | | Eldest, Middle, Youngest, Only Kid?: | i'm the eldest child | | Family:: | i dont get the question... yes i have a family? | | Pets:: | i dont have any | | Life | | Do you go to school:: | everyday | | What is your highest level achieved?: | finished sophomore year | | Religion:: | i believe in God. "life with Jesus is an adventure" -Jose | | Do you have friends?: | i'd be lonely without them | | Do you like to be lonely?: | no | | Appearences | | What color are your eyes?: | brown | | Do you like it?: | yeah | | What color eyes do you want?: | a lighter brown maybe, but i'm happy | | What color is your hair?: | black | | Do you like it?: | yes | | What color do you want?: | this is color is fine any other color would look unnatural and weird | | Do you dye your hair?: | no | | If yes, how regularly?: | i dont | | Do you wear glasses?: | yep | | Do you have a trademark?: | i dont think so | | How tall are you?: | 5'5'' i think | | What's your heritage/nationality?: | vietnamese | | Do you have the same hairstyle everyday?: | not really. its summer and i never fix my hair anymore (you dont need to impress your family) | | Do you think you look exciting?: | what does looking exciting look like exactly? | | Are you self concious?: | to a certain point | | Do you obsess over your looks?: | i dont cross any lines | | Do you even care about your appearences?: | yes i do | | How long do you spend in the bathroom?: | depends on the bathroom activity, my showers are super long though | | About life... again | | Punk/Goth/Ghetto/Prep/Jock/Nerd/Other (list)? stereotype?: | i dont think i can fall under any of those | | Do you pick your nose? In secret?: | oh all the time (sarcasm) | | Do you like yourself? Life?: | yep, and i enjoy life | | Are you liked by people?: | i hope so | | Do you want to become famous?: | but not as an actor or artist | | Do you want to make a difference in this big world?: | i'd like to, yeah | | Why?: | idk.... to give something back to a world thats been pretty much good to me | | Fun Stuff | | Which celebrities do you worship in secret?: | worship? none. i'm a fan of a lot of people | | Blues/Rock/Jazz/Classical/Pop/Urban/Country?: | i can listen to all of them. except maybe hardcore country | | Are you one of those people who diss fans of a music genre you don't like?: | no. its their opinion | | Which pop princess shits you?: | none | | Can you sing?: | you know it | | Can you act?: | i taught Charlize Theron how to act | | Who is your fave actor?: | there are many | | Fave movie?: | definitely remember the titans | | Backstreet Boys or Nsync?: | the BSB! | | Good Charlotte or Blink 182?: | Blink | | Christina Aguilera or Britney Spears?: | hmm i like both | | Slayer or Black Sabbath?: | i have no clue | | The Beatles or The Monkees?: | the Beatles | | ABBA or the A Teens?: | ABBA | | Guilty pleasure?: | ice cream? | | The Simpsons or Family Guy?: | i cant decide | | MTV... yeah or neah?: | yeah | | Friends | | Do you have a group of friends?: | sure | | How many?: | who keeps track? | | To an onlooker, what would your group be viewed as?: | those are nice people right there! | | Who are you closest to?: | my best friends | | Who is your best friend?: | the people i am closest with | | Are any of them bad influences?: | probably | | Who are you in your group? The leader? The leader's bitch? The follower?: | thats not a group... its a gang | | Are you dirty minded?: | hey man, its the hormones | | Do you have any sexual feelings towards friends?: | sexual is such a vague term.... i'm kidding | | Generally, how are you viewed in your group?: | as a hot piece of ass | | Do your friends know you?: | some of them | | Relationships: | | Are you single or taken?: | i'm single | | If single: | | Do you want to stay single?: | i'm not sure about that one | | Why are you single?: | no one likes me? | | Do you date around?: | not really | | When was the last time you have a bf/gf?: | geez umm 10 months ago | | If taken: | | Boyfriend/Girlfriend?: | i'm not taken | | How long have you been together?: | again i'm not taken | | How serious are you?: | serious about what? | | How many exes have you had?: | --- | | How exes has your partner had?: | what partner? | | Are you physically attracted to your bf/gf?: | if i had one then yes i would be | | Why?: | because thats how it works | | When was the first kiss?: | btwn who n who? | | First date?: | i dont get it | | Do you love him/her?: | with all my heart | | Does their family adore or hate you?: | they love me (whos family??) | | How far have you gone with your bf/gf?: | if i had one it would be personal | | Does your family hate or adore him/her?: | they havent met her because she doesnt exist! | | What do you think of his/her mother?: | ---- | | How did you meet?... have I asked this already?: | if you dont know then how would i? | | Straight/Bisexual/Homosexual?: | i'm straight | | Life... yet again. | | Are you bored?: | why am i doing this survey? | | Can you play any instruments? Which ones?: | i used to play the flute and i was so good at it... whyd i quit? | | Math or English?: | english | | The Arts or Sciences?: | idk | | Technical or Creative?: | a miz of both | | Are you poetic?: | i wish i was | | How many babies do you want?: | thats to be decided | | Do you spend most of your time on the net?: | i dont thinkso | | What do you think of your country's leader?: | hes kinda fat | | Do you love me?: | i dont even know you | | Why?: | becuase i dont know you | | What kind of meat do you like to eat?: | chicken | | What's your favourite food?: | i'm indecisive, idk | | Drink?: | l'eau | | I'm bored now. Wanna stop?: | maybe | | Because I am. |
A long survey to do when you are bored brought to you by BZOINK!
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2004 6 July :: 2.14pm
:: Mood: optimistic
:: Music: ashlee simpson - pieces of me
i can hardly catch my breath, i hope it lasts
it's good.
crushes die hard, but i've learned to get over them.
you guys are going to hate me i have a feeling, but you should be happy for me.
i might keep this one.
north carolina was wonderful. i love my dad's family more than anything in the world.
i hate trying to find a job. no one wants to hire a teenage white girl. only if my parents would understand that and just let me get my license, so i can drive and see all you people, because i miss you, you and you.
<3 that's all for now.
rbf thursday night.
danielle crowd surfing.
be there, ashley cline will be.
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2004 5 July :: 9.12pm
:: Mood: anxious
:: Music: You Got iT Bad // Usher
you're drunk & now you wish you're sober.
g0od day.
woke up early. was gonna lay out, but it rained. crazy motherf$%*er. um... s0o i helped mommy clean the house & watched my soaps (PASSiONS). then i g0t up & g0t ready for mommy to take me to Sports Authority to pick shit up for cheerleading. only, she handed me the keys. haha. baller. maybe she is sticking to her promise about getting my license super soon. s0o we ran to Old Navy ---> gotta few tank tops & some flip flops. Went to Sports Authority ---> got some bloomers, & soffees. went to publix ---> g0t everything i needed. when i got home... i took a shower, now jonah just IMed me & i'm talking to Groton. <3
i gotta figure out the deal with what's goin' on for thursday... cause if we go... i gotta see if ellen can sleep over.. but i got cheerleading @ 8a.m. the next morning s0o... lalala.
for now though... i'm waiting for jackie to pick me up cause i'm staying over there for the night & 2morrow... then we are gonna spend tuesday on the waverunner & in the sun. then when Brittany gets home 2morrow.. we're gonna head to the tanning salon... if she is up 2 it? idk we'll see what g0es on.
my sister was looking at my dad's keychain today, and on it there was a keychain that was for my car. and my sister goes, "daddy, who's car keys are these?" and he goes, "not for briana's car, they're a customer's keys." but why would he have the keys for a customer when he didn't bring their car home? haha.... my car is at his work. hehehehe. the excitement. i want the f%*$ing car lol <333
anyways, i'm out... gotta get my stuff together before jackie gets here. xoxo
o btw, i was listening to my Usher CD - 8701. the old one... & there was this song on there, "Twork it out" & it reminded me of jonah. *shrug* hehe
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2004 5 July :: 4.32pm
:: Mood: bouncy
:: Music: I'll make love to you-Boyz II Men
I'm backkkkk..::evil laugh::
hey guys..havent written in a while..friday my dad picked us up..we went to boomers cuz datz where jon wanted to go..hung out there..a fight broke out in boomers..omg..it wuz tha funniest thing..deez ghetto white gurls..u kno how derz alot of em in boca..lol..they started bitchin at each other n den started a cat fight..it was funny.. den me n my aunt left my brother and my dad at boomers while we went to muvico so she cudd get him some movie passes..thats wen mel called us..she got into another car accident..she was all worked up..i can imagine..damn..she prolly wont ever wanna drive agen..den we got the movie passes..i saw marcus fraiser..woo..sexiness..lol..then i saw meli..wid ricarda n omar..im so happy for u gurl..lol..keep it going wid eric!!..hopefully things will happen wid me n emir..saturday we went to the marlins game..I GOT TO MEET MIGUEL CABRERA..wow..we got autographs n everything..he signed a ball..lol..n i was der all excited..wid his number written on my face..i think he was scared of me..lolol..the game was alotta fun..marlins lost to the devil rays 6-1..lol..my brother was happy he was going for the other team..every1 around us was gettin pissed at him..i thot we were gonna get jumped..lol..after the game they had a really pretty fireworks show..then after that wen we were gonna go home and we cuddnt find tha car..funny stuff..lol..yesterday we left n went camping..it wuz fun..kinda scary after emir told me all about jason..lol..there were soo many bugs tho..n u all kno how i do wid bugs..i got bit up so bad..ugh..we went canoeing..and jon was saying he was gonna tip tha boat over..kidsss..but yea we went camping boca style..lmao..we had tha RV..jon made us bring his tv and ps2..we had tha grill..lol..it was funny..me n my mom kept crackin on jon and pat for it..lol..and we had no marshmallows..:(..and no s'mores..so still havent tasted one guys!!..lol..we got back a lil while ago..today's jon's bday..happy 12th to him..we got ice cream cake!!..looking foward to it..yumm..lol..guess thats it for now..back to work 2moro..gotta make that paper!!
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2004 5 July :: 1.14am
:: Mood: sad
:: Music: its over // mest
but if you play them, they will stay with you.
its around 1a.m.
s0o i woke up for work early today. joy. got in at 9 & listened to Winona lol. she's insane & like 42. damn. all the medicine she takes, i swear. & Carol kept making fun of her. but anyways.. Cory was there... the dude kettly kept telling me about... he is kinda annoying, but he means well. s0o thats that. i don't mind him, its someone to converse with. but Michael came in. yay! unfortunately he came in @ 3pm though, and i clocked out @ 4pm. but the first time i saw him we argued lol, which was because he didn't directly say hi to me or give me a hug yesterday, just gave me a dirrty look & walked off. but... he was c0ol the rest of the day. after i clocked out he sat and talked to me while i waited for my mommy.
mommy & i left.. around 4:30... got wendys, & did some errands. then she dropped me off & i called jackie. we ended up hanging out 'til 1am. went to super walmart. cinderella shoes. rain shoes. kenny chesney. etc. we were being stupid lol. 14'' fake spinning mexican rims lol. but yeah... came back to my house... played with silly beads & looked up words in the dictionary... for a reason, not cause we were bored... well we were... but there was a purpose to it. but... she left. i'm supposed to sleep over her house 2morrow night. hopefully, then we are gonna g0o on the waverunner on tuesday & hang out. lalala. we'll see what g0es down.
neil called. i wanted to g0o hang with them tonight... but it was late & jackie has to work & it just wasn't a smart idea. besides... the drive was long... speaking of driving...
mom's plan ---> use dad's car all this week. on friday she makes an appointment for my license... who knows if i will get it. who knows if it will even happen & i didn't even wanna say anything about it because most of the shit that my mom says.... is meaningless. however... we'll see. i'd like it a lot. <33 i want to believe it.
this week is gonna g0o by fast... i have so much to do.
monday ---> errands with mommy. sports authority & contacts, tanning... hopefully. sleeping over jackie's house.
tuesday ---> waverunner with jackie... maybe i'll be able to see jonah? idk its been awhile.
wednesday ---> sleep in... cheer practice from 4-6:30pm. might be able to see groton & brittany. =)
thursday ---> reel big fish concert... that doesn't seem like it will be happening though? who knows. ashley c would come down...! score!
friday ---> cheer practice 8-11am. UCT concert @ Spankys with Jackie & Groton... that's gonna g0o down for sure. <33
saturday & sunday ---> i am probably working my lil' ass off again... but i can use the money.
ahhh organized my weekend. awesomeness. <33 goodnight. i hope everyone enjoyed their 4th of July. xoxo
leaving you with some lyrics from IT's OVER BY MEST.... <3333
But this keeps happening
Time and time again
You're thinkin' to yourself
She was your only friend
But you're so fucking wrong
That you're so fucking lame
You realize you're all the same
She looked at you and she said to your face
It's over, it's over
She's got a new man and it's time for you
To move over, move over
You're drunk and mad you wish that you
Were sober, were sober
Cause now you can't get it out of your head
That it's over, that it's over, that it's over
Cause it's over, it's over, it's over
And it's over, it's over, it's over
Tell them lies and they will believe you
When you're honest they will deceive you
If you love them they will just leave you
But if you play them they will stay with you
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2004 3 July :: 11.08pm
:: Mood: cold
:: Music: LoNeLY // Britney Spears
n now u're lonely, yet u still want me // Britney Spears
today ---> take a breath.
CrOss PoSTin' @ LJ CHEcK iT HuRR
... woke up @ 6:30a.m & dragged my happy self to work. its nice being up early f0r a change, juSs' goTz no1 ta talk ta.
w0rked 'til 3. mR. mIke didn't work 2day s0o he stopped in 2 say "hEy fucKerz". TheN i totally wenT t0 get carts. i took in a d0nut Load of carts. there was 8 of them... & showin' off my skillz ta the hot m0f0's that passed by... i pushed them all in. but the 0ld people that i passed were like, "little girl, that's too many." n i juSs smiled & continued pushing... fuckerz. lol. come on. stop underestimating my abilities as a midget. 4'11 & 3/4" grr. lol
i came home & napped big time. not used to being up early. but i woke up & called mr. j0nah cause he is a demanding guy & insisted that i find the phone a little faster. lol, uM... we taLked & then enDed up watcHin' "DRiVE ME CRAZY" w/ Melissa Joan Hart. c0ol beans. then.. the phone died, lmao AGAiN... like right before the movie ended. then i gotta call from jackie, talked to her for a bit, & then Alex called. was g0nna g0 out with her, but jb's lazy bum didn't wanna drive. grr. anyways...
i g0t ashley p's LetTer in THe mAiL 2day! hehe 2 stamps & a pointless letter lol. <333 i love u mucho. plus i'm forced t0 put this in here by her lol j/k ur the best. s0rta.. i top u. then uR 2nd haha. <333
here's 2 self expression. <------
i wanna like... idk, just change. i need change s0o badly... whether its a new desk cause i desperately need it... whether its new green contacts that i am supposed to get monday, whether its new clothes, a darker tan, another ear piercing, another collage, a new cd, a fudgin' car... ((which daddy PURCHASED, friday july 2nd *i'm scared its nothing special, but fuck, its a car)), a new diet idea, new comforter, new cheerleading clothes ((goin' 2 sports authority on Monday, but i waNNa look online)), etc... i just need change.
i'm in dying need of new color eyes & perfect skin. i'm working out more. 15o crunches, 5o leg lifts & 5o glute thingy ma bobbers, um.. 25 push ups (KiLLA! lol), & 2 routines 0f cheer legs (Kaila knows, but no1 else). plus i drink nothing but water... & sadly have two meals a day, followed by my one choice of a junky snack. but that's my routine. sickening if u ask me... but i am happy with my body, just not the peeling from tanning & the fuckin' face i have. lol sry. that's the reason f0r all the water. who knows what's gonna happen hoez!
anyways... i've gotta d0o laundry & head ta bed cuz i've gotta work @ 9a.m. <33
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2004 2 July :: 10.05pm
:: Mood: emotional
And they never gave up once....
they never fucking gave up and they grew old and died together and they were in love why can't that exist? The question isn't where are the prince charmings it is where are the love stories. Where is the devotion and the passion that makes people twist circumstance to make it through the hard times and reach the happy endings. The stories aren't perfect...they are perfectly sad and real and painful but beautiful all the same. I dont even know if I have teh capacity for such things but I'm now sure I believe that they exist somewhere in some willing hearts. I also believe it to be perfectly unattainable....I feel so lonely I just wish I had someone to scream at in the rain just scream and cry all the way into his arms where it can be all better again. I want to lie down and dance in the middle of the street I want someone who loves me enough to tell me i'm a big pain in the ass 99% of the time which I know I am and want me all the same....god it was just a movie but still.....just *sigh*
Catch me if I fall
I'm losing hold
I can't just carry on this way
And every time
I turn away
Lose another blind game
The idea of perfection holds me
Suddenly I see you change
Everything at once
The same
But the mountain never moves
Rape me like a child
Christened in blood
Painted like an unknown saint
There's nothing left but hope
Your voice is dead
And old
And always empty
Trust in me through closing years
Perfect moments wait
If only we could stay
Please
Say the right words
Or cry like the stone white clown
And stand forever
Lost forever in a happy crowd....
~The Cure~
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2004 2 July :: 11.25am
:: Mood: smiley
:: Music: 99 problems-Jay Z
wha do u think??
i re-did my woohu!!! i got bored..lol..as always..well my dadz gonna pick me up in awhile..so imma chill wid him and jon for tha weekend..i guess he wants to do a lil party for my brother's bday or sumthin..i havent really been gettin along wid him agen..wha elz is new??..den on sunday we leave..going camping..yesterday tha funniest thing happened to me..lol..at around 10-sh last nite..i went to tha back yard to take roxy out before i put her to bed and all..so yea..i was really dark..n she started barkin..so since it was kinda late i didnt want her making noise..ya kno??..so then stupid me..i went into tha grass to go get her..and by the way..im barefoot and in pjz..cuz i was juss bummin out and chillan..den a frog jumped on me..not those lil frogs that im scared of..but the freakin big ass frogs..toads..or wutever..lol..ok..yea so i freaked out..n screamed..lol..yea im deathly afraid of frogs..not kermit tho..lol meli..
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2004 2 July :: 10.13am
:: Mood: awake
:: Music: All I Need-Mary J Blige f/ Method Man
wha to do..wha to do??
well letz see..last nite i went to mary ellen's house for that meeting..i went ok..we're gonna start going to the Boca Cheer Center on wednesdays and saturdays of july..wednesdays from 3:30-5:00 and on saturdays from 11:00-1:00..they aren't mandatory tho..but we all gotta start going..we are soo behind on everything..chudnei's the only one who went to camp..she bought the dvd wid tha dances and the cd wid the music and all..so she's gonna be captain since she knowz everything..and we're gonna have sleepovers and stuff so we can learn it..that shudd be fun..and these sleep overs shudd bring us all together..camp usually does that but since we couldnt go..yea..lol..meli and emir confused tha hell outta me yesterday..wow..lol..they we're im-ing me from the same screenname..i dunno wha they were doing but i wuz definately confused..lol..meli..call me wen u get a chance i wanna kno wha happened last nite after i signed off!!..lol
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2004 1 July :: 11.36pm
:: Mood: independent
:: Music: Cinderella // Britney Spears
i used to be your girlfriend & u know i did it well // britney spears.
hmm.. woke up at 1:30.
talked to jonah online, and got ready for the doctor for my fooooot.
he checked it out. thats about it.
got home, brittany called me & picked me up & we went to the mall. i found a dress i want for kaila's party at the Paladium Night Club. its super cute. btw, i hafta RSVP her for me & danielle. idk if ur reading this girl.. but yeah me & danielle r going =)
ummm... on the flip side... i bought a shirt.. from the mall... there were 2 skirts that i wanted... but i didn't get either of them because i put most of my money in the bank earlier today. ahhh fuck they were cute too. o well.
brittany and her... whatever u want to clarify him as... are off. s0o she is drivin' to GA this weekend to see Brandon, which is awesome for her. however, i'm spending as much time as possible with her before she leaves, which means i can't go to the UCT concert with jackie like i planned. i really wanna go, but i need to be here for brittany... and sometimes there are just choices that people have to make.
hmm. thats about it though. ummm PJ & Daniel called me.. i was like what the fuck man.. they are in the middle of watching Spiderman 2 and they are calling me... and then i told PJ to call me 2morrow... cause he wants to do something this weekend & i was gonna g0o to best buy with him while he got his "system" hooked up... but then daniel wants us to go to his house... i was just thinking... hell no... pj is cool, but daniel can kiss my asssssss. just because i'm single... doesn't mean anyone is getting me though. all i need is time alone i guess & to be independent... and lately... i've been doing a good job. i'm pretty much over everything... clarified a lot of things with myself & have really just become... stronger. well... if there is any possiblity of that considering that jonah thinks i'mma "pussy scared little bitch" for not turning down pj & daniel... like i should have. but hey he was right... i should turn them down cause i wouldnt be rude, they would be... after what they said. it was rude... s0o if i had bitched them out right there... its not necessarily my fault. but w/e. n i tend to forget that if i bitch someone out & they wanna hurt me... i have friends that got my back... like jonah, neil, carlos, pretam, avi, camilo, robert, jb, ryan, britt... etc. s0o i'm safe.
yuh i'm bored July 9th there is a UCT concert.. groton wants to go, and i wanna go cause i wanna go with jackie too... so we'll see how that works out. awesome-ness. xoxo <3 i'm out to chat with people on AIM for the night. holler.
** you don't have to depend on others to survive. **
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2004 1 July :: 10.42pm
:: Mood: anxious
:: Music: cassidy- get no better
leavin tomorrow
hey guys,
what's up?? i'm leavin 4 bangladesh tomorrow. excited. the plane ride there will be long. about 2 days. at least i don't have 2 travel alone tho.. don't know whether that's a good thing or a bad thing lol. we'll c. i have 2 take my summer assignments tho [ the bio packet and the eng book- it's not that bad, but it seems like it's gonna move really slow. we learned about the author in spanish- isabel allende. i think that's her name at least--- don't quote me on it. so i did all my packing today. had 2 go run errands 4 my mom. the whole excitement of driving independently has worn off. i had 2 pump gas, which i don't like doing. the gas nozzle is broke so it takes two ppl 2 open it lol. one person 2 hold the button and the other 2 get it 2 open. how annoying. o well- there r worse things in life. packing's crazy tho. goin so far away and everything. it costs a lotta money too.
well im gonna go now. i dunno when i'll get a change 2 update.. so we'll c.
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2004 1 July :: 7.22pm
:: Mood: cold
:: Music: switchfoot
ive decided to start alternating between here and eljay now, it seems like less people read up here. i like that its more.. hidden, i guess.
things have been really weird lately, i feel something else everyday. no consistency whatsoever.
emy and i broke things off i suppose, im happy/sad about it ,
happy cause, well, all we do is fight anymore, and it seems as if lately all hes been doing is provoking me and TRYING to make me mad, and just been getting on my nerves and hurting me left and right, and i just need the break.
sad , cause, well, as much as i dont want to, i do love him. and whenever i get lonely all i want is to be in his arms again. and, thats always gonna be there. until i have him back or until i fall for someone else. thats just.. how it works i guess.
it seems to be a mutual decision now, cause we've gotten to the point where its not really anything but a physical relationship now, and well, it used to be so much more. we used to be best friends.. and now, i feel like we dont know the first thing about eachtoher. and that only makes it that much easier to fight, when you dont know someone . so, maybe since we have that whole, physical aspect down pat, if we swerve away from that for a while and just not allow it, and work on the friendship we once had so well, maybe one day things will turn out the way ive wanted them. but maybe not. who knows. maybe one day we'll be such good friends that we wont want to ruin it again. maybe we'll get back together. maybe he'll fall in love and ill be heart broken. maybe we'll drift apart even more. maybe we'll hate eachother. i really dont know anymore. but im just , sick of hoping and dreaming and wishing on stars for him. whatever happens, happens from here. im done planning it out. cause that leads to nothing but disappointments and feeling of failure. and im really sick of that.
all i can hope for is the best. and that one day ill truely be happy.
hey, it could happen.
i just really want to get away for now. even if its just a sunny getaway with my parents. itd be nice to just go someplace i dont know and lay in the sun and listen to music and read books all day. i havent had time to read a book ive wanted to read in, ages. i never have time for me anymore. and from now on, thats my first priority. cause before i can find what i want in someone else i have to find it in myself. hopefully that getaway will come soon enough.
summer school may be over today for me, idk yet. cause even if i get an A, it might drop my hpa as it is, cause i think this class is only on a 4.0 scale. so it wouldnt make sense. plus i dont want to wake up early anymore. and i dont pay attention anymore, so , there really is no point. shrug. i guess i'll just decide by monday night.
someone wanna take me in for the fourth of july? i dont really wanna stay here. but dont really wanna impose upon people. maybe ill light some sparklers and just dance around my room. but then again that could be a fire hazard. we'll see. :/
now on to that me time.
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2004 30 June :: 11.53pm
i feel like writing but i feel like dancing... which 2 do... that is THY ¿question?
<33 just forgot 2 add that in the previous entry... s0o read that one too lol <33
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2004 30 June :: 11.11pm
:: Music: 0verProTecTed // BriTney SpeArS
i did everything. but u still don't want it. s0 i'm s0rry, but i'm not returning //.britney.//
i can'T explain how g00d i feel?!
i s0o wanna be frickin' famous. g0sh i would pay. hottttttttt!
when i woke up this morning, cause i g0t neil's phone call. i played s0me serious GTA ViCE CiTY on PS2. i was 0nly in it ta steaL aLL the HOTT frickin' cars.
mommy came home from sh0ppin' f0r sum new shizzLes f0r theE kiTchen CauSe we juST g0t it aLL redone. buT yeah, i haD heR dYin' 0n the fLo0r, laughiN' @ mE. i haD BAD A.D.D. 2day, geesh! and then, 0n top 0f thaT... i'M bLonDe w/ a ReTarDed BraiN! but thAt's N0T the PoinTs guys.
yup... jonah rang 2day! yay! um.. we switched thru a buncha channels on the television like uh... oprah w/ marykate & ashley, tennis, baseball, & pokemon... then he found my absolute favorite movie on channel 66 which would be "DON'T SAY A WORD" yuh... and then my phone battery died on him lmao. i found it hilarious. *shrug* but he put up with my frickin' stupid/ A.D.D. self =)
s0o i watched that... & did some Exercise. wonderful. i was gonna g0o runnin' with Carol, but my f0ot isn't COMPLETELY healed yet. but i d0o g0 to the doctor 2morrow.
took a nice shower & um.. felt really g0od about myself. i think its cause i'm listening to the britney spears cd... the 3rd one, "BRITNEY". yup yup.
ummm i was impressed by the Simple Life 2 show 2nite. but i will NEVER again eat sausage.. & "the lesson we learned today: don't fuck with me."
ashlee simpson was a g0od episode 2. i love the new s0ng surrender... n her album is g0nna be absolutely AWESOME. can't wait. & her & ryan are HOTTTT together. xoxo
ashley e ---> thanx 4 the text babe. we hafta hang out this weekend. <33
ashley p ---> yuh i got ur letter.. but the purpose 0f sending the letter... wasn't in there lmao.
cinderella has got 2 g0. <33
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2004 30 June :: 6.42pm
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these are my confessions.
wow, havent posted in so long.
summer school is like almost over. sort of bitter sweet. this friday i have to clean the house majorly for anne (my moms best friend)+ her family are staying at our house. friday night is steph wu's birthday dinner party. still have to get a card/present.
but anyways. what was i getting to... i think the purpose to this entry in my woohu to get out the way i feel lately. only like in the past few days. i haven't gotten an email reply from altan since last friday, and feels like forever since then. i take naps after school very often so i dont just sit there and start thinking about how empty i feel right now. without any of his words, the love slowly fades. yeah thats not supposed to happen. thoughts dont hold up much lately though. especially when i'm surrounded by such sweet boys in school. i swear, i have mini crushes on every guy friend i have. like... is that wrong? its definitely wrong. definitely definitely wrong. i dont like leading on people, but it seems like it just happens naturally. i dont know. i need therapy.
i was reading the notebook last night before i went to bed and i read until they finally gave in to each other and made love again. then i set down the book, turned off the light and cried one tear before i fell asleep. i always go to bed hoping that in the dream world, something i want to happen will happen. but nothing really exciting happens. i just remember one dream, it was the first day of junior year. and altan was in the class but i wasnt aware. and then he walks up to me and hands me this long (like 2 pages) note and he just holds my hand. weird thing was, it wasnt altan, it was some kid i knew from middle school. very weird. but ... i dunno.
i dont know anything.
someone please hug me and never let go.
dammit where the hell is danielle when i need her. oh yeah. nc. frickin family and frickin vacation. i need her HERE.
BiGmAc daDdy y13: u know what i have noticed about u
FallenNGAngel: what
BiGmAc daDdy y13: u have three guys wraped around ur fingers and u have no idea what to do about it
BiGmAc daDdy y13: its great
excerpt from altan's most recent email.
i miss you a lot. today he took me to a cafe on top of this mountain that over looked the city. it was beautiful. i wish you could be here with me. i wanted to hold you and watch the sun set with you. i miss you terribly. i love you so much, i think of you day and night.
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