..:*:..Sat Night..:*:..
OK so... How are we doing today lady and gents? What we have to look forward to so far is a 3 day weekend. Yay! Give me a cheer. Felt good right? I knew it.
I went to the movies last night. (finally) I saw Paycheck. Not so good.It's like Minority report. I had a dandy time though.
I got hit one while I was there. The guy wasn't hot though. Yea, I know it sux. He passed by me first & said I was pretty and he liked my hat and I said thanks, you know trying to be nice. He walked back to me and we talked for a bit. He was nice. Never got a name though. O well. His pick up line was "Haven't I met you before?" I laughed at him. But he was actually serious. He thought he really did. LOL.
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OK, I wanna know what you think about what's the gayist )(not a oword but w/evas)( way of breaking up w/ someone to the best way )(if there is such a thing)(.

Here's what I think:
Gayist: Using a friend to do the dirrty job.
Email
Note
AIM
Phone
Best: Face to face

Sooo speak your neato mind that you have and tell me what you think the order should be!!


AndI

...:Fun!:..
I went to Rich's last night. Mike was there and of course ms. anne. We hanged around and played video games and watched movies. Mike, anne, and I kept screaming at the wrong parts on a scary movie. hehe. it was fun and Rich kept running around the living room acting like an idiot. It was funny.
Later Nick came over and we started to watch VH1's 100 hotties. The guys liked it a lil too much. Well Anne and I did too. lol. After a bit Kyle came over too.
After the shows and all we all went in Anne's room and we wreseled and stuff and the guys got anne and smacked her bum really hard! It hurt soo much. Then they came after me and did it. I was like noooo! I punched and tried to squrim away, but there was no way of doing it. SO my bum got hit. it hurt forever. Then nick and Mike did it again to me. Gr!
Around 9:30 we went to Bruster's and got ice cream. it was fun. After that we went to Kyle's so he cna get his shoes and to anne's mom's house to let the dogs out. I played w/ Rich's drums when we were there and Mike was flirten w/ me a lot. I didn't like it too much. When we were heading back to their dad's house there was a big bang! Something hit the car. we couldn't figure out what it was until we saw slime coming down the window. We got egged!!!!! LOL! MIke and Kyle were like turn back, we're gonna fight 'em. But we never turned back. it was great.
Then we just hanged around the house and had some more fun. then I went home.

I needed that fun to forget a certain someone who is being a gay person right now. I just give up about it. She (you) won. I don't wanna mess w/ this no more. It's stupid. Get over yourself. OK I am done now.

AndI

the last 24 hours
OK soooo... a lot has happened over the last 24 hours or so i guess. Well...I didn't go to the movies and that really bummed me out for the rest of the night b/c I really need to get outta this house.

BL is annoying the crap outta me and he has only called 2 times. I don't get it. He's not doing anything wrong, but he's really pissing me off.

My family and I are going through yet another money crisis. we might have to sell a car if it gets any worse. I dunno....I hate it when this happens and this one is the worst of them all too. My mom is all moody b/c of what's happening w/ the money thing and the stuff about my grandpa's will and so is my dad w/ all that and that he may loose his job. Soooo when this all happens it means to me that I have to lay back and not go anywhere for a while that has to deal w/ money unless I pay for it myself, but I don't have money...at least not a lot.

Alan kinda got mad at me b/c I told him I was trying to go to the movies and i ended up not being able to. I forgot to call him and tell him, so he spent the night there waiting for me, but he wasn't alone. He had his friend w/ him. I didn't know he was gonna go anyways, that's why I didn't call in the first place.

Today I did the Spanish extra credit. Damn, it was confusing. Making Churros is messy and kinda complicating if you don't have the picture. O well...i made them and hope that they don't taste too nasty.


I gotta practice my drums now. I'm getting bored of it. But hey I might have to quit that for a while too, so that my family can save money. Lata

AndI

Holla!
My vacation was the best yet. Snowboarding is sooo easy. I'm in love w/ it. My knee is all bruised though from falling and my face is scraped from doin tricks. I love it though....

Haven't had this feeling in a long time. The longing, teh wanting, the needing. It's been a while. *You* brought it all back. I have the joy again. Could this be it though?? Are you the thing that has been missing? Are you the beholder?

This feeling, it's great. It's been a while. 4 yrs ago this feeling grasped me. Your smile, your lips, your thoughts, your touch, your everything...I love it. I love you. Holy mother of pearl. You made my break. You made my life.

That one last night though, that was a killer. what you did geez....pleasure?? Hell no it wasn't. More like pain thank you. Some of it was enjoyable though.
What I really loved was the night before that. That was memerable (sp?). I felt actually loved and it felt right. Having a feeling taht feels right is not normal for me.

1 week and 2 days. that's all it has been. Seems like I'm on cloud 9. You brought more smiles to me than I could ever think of. You have me feel needed and loved w/out having it seem weird for me to reject you. No guy has ever really done that.
But who should I reveal my "dreamweaver" to? All me friends can't keep secrets. One of my friends went through the same thing. My perspective on her has changed.

I can't get him out of my mind. He's on my mind and my mind is on him. Hasn't been like this in a long time. I've waited for so long to have you. Now I do. Your all mine to have to enjoy. I'm scared it will end. I shudder of teh thought. I'm afraid my life will shadder when it ends. 7 yrs I've wanted you to notice me and you do an dyou want me. It's lovely.

Where out thou Romeo?Is no longer a question . I have found my Romeo....



AndI

..::Fun My ass!..:
OK I've been working my bum off on my x-mas gift casandra got me... auntie anne's prestezls (sp??, don't care). It's a kit that you can make at home. If ur ever in the mall w/ me i love to go to the store and buying and eating them soo much! It says It's fun..yea, fun my ass! It's hard! I hate it. I can't make the preztel shape dude! O well. I gave up on it. I'm gonna try it later. I put it in the fridge.

Jeremy came over. He surprised me w/ a gift. he made my day. that kid is awesome sometimes. His mom and I talked forever. It was great.

That's my day..I'm gonna go and get outta this dump. I'm gone. Gone on a plane to somewhere w/ *Alan* ;) hehe...i'll be good i promise! Well...maybe for a lil bit! lol. Lata!

AndI

Dude!!!!
OK Friday totally sucked. Jeremy and Gin bailed on me like a sack of potatoes. Grr!!! My mom kinda saved my night. Her and I went to the movies and saw Stuck on You, then we went to Gin's to surprise her w/ her gift. Yay! That was my Friday.

On saturday I went to my aunt's house to go horseback riding. It was sssooo much fun. She got a new horse, so now she has 4 horses. Dang! It doesn't like turning left. lol. So 3 rights make a left. hehe We had a bombfire going and I did the marshmellow thang. I came home around 11 pm. I felt really sick when I got home though. I have food poisining! eekk! I threw up all night and never fell asleep. I talked to Josh that night though. I love that kid to death. He's soo great dude. I'm glad we're talking now.

This morning i was too sick to go to church, so i slept in. Then BL and I went to dragon mart, the mall, wendy's, and then to my grandma's house b/c she was having a party for the boat parade which is annual. BL didnt stay. I didn't want him too n e ways b/c *alan* was there. He and I talked and shizznit. He still likes me. He's soo great. I love him to death too. He's gonna go to Virginia w/ me this weekend. yaya! He's a good fighter. We watched his tape. woo!

well I feel better now. I have 3 guys that I can have, but there's reason's why I wont follow threw. W/ BL..well I don't really like him n e more. W/ Josh..well he lives in Fortlauderdale. I'll never c the dude. With Alan..well I dunno. We wont really c eachother either, but There is more of a chance that i'll go out him. I wanna. I always have. Ok..Jess and Davy are sleepin over! So I g2g goes. lata balla.

..:What People Think:..
OK..so, people think that when their in doo-doo that they can rely on a Church. Well, truthfully..you can. It's ok. A church will be there for you, as long as you let them know that your in doo-doo.
Other people think that a church will be there for you and give them money if they need it. The hell?? It's not a hollywood movie that shows that. This ain't Hollywood!There may be churches that will do that but most of them do something else that is more powerful in many ways. You may not think it's powerful, but it is. They pray. They pray for everyone who needs help and some who don't ask for it.
Praying is more powerful than money. You may not understand that, but it's ok. Someday you might.

AndI

..:*:..SMILE..:*:..
Ok..so I finally did it! I accomplished something that I thought I would never do. It took four years of my life to do it, but keep in mind I didn't do it for 4 straight years. I, me, not you, AndI have no more braces. Golly gee-wiz, I know, it's an amazing thing.
My teeth are huge though. Not actually huge but I have the allusion. Their soo pretty! lol ok enough w/ my teeth...

BL and I finally talked today! It was lovely. (like my loverly..hehe) He seems cool about what happened. That's all gravy.

On friday I am going to try to go to the movies. Maybe see cat in the hat.. honey?? just not lord of the ringlings. (sorry gin).

Exams: So far I have had web, spanish, and gov't. All were pretty easy. I had about 200 questions for spanish..gr! Web was about 25..(peice of cake) that actually sounds good right now..n e ways, gov't was about 150.
I'm only really worried about english. eek! What a nasty word. It should never be in my vocabualry. I spit on it..patuuy! there I spit in disgust.

AndI