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2002 13 October :: 2.11pm
Gypsy10071: you should've run for homecoming court
picsxstarsxdream: lol why?
Gypsy10071: then you and john could be king and queen
picsxstarsxdream: kill me.
Gypsy10071: it's be cute
Gypsy10071: *it'd
Gypsy10071: lol
picsxstarsxdream: wow. you're a bitch
Wow. I should kill her... first i'm guna go and cut off her hair then i'll use it to make a noose and we'll bring back public executions in the middle of Dr.Baum's class!!!
haha. Marching competition. We did better then we'd previously done but still not good enough. We just didn't prepare enough for competition. I hope people start to work harder for the sake of the band... Thats what I've begun to realize. You know, you never realize how much you love something until it starts to fall apart and you feel utterly helpless and that you can't fix anything or what not. This year we may not be able to do anything but I promise next year is going to a gazillion times better. It has to be or thats the end of the band.
I have a discrepancy. Buttt I really can't post it... well I suppose I could but it probably wouldn't be a good idea. Maybe if you ask I'll tell you. Have a good day everybody :0)
Bandos ~ don't be discouraged by last night... now we know what we need to do and hey, lets do it!
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2002 12 October :: 3.18pm
how pimp. woohu shirt w/my name on it... i think i'm guna make my own cuz i'm poor.... www.woohu.com/plainmornings... what a way to pick up guys haha
Marching competition tonight. We're competing agains INCREDIBLE bands ::cough STONEMAN DOUGLAScough:: yeah. Well wish us luck anyways :0) Actually I'm guna leave in a sec soooooooooooo yippy!
Biology can kiss my ass. Bleh.
Oh yeah we beat Southfork 48-6 last night it was fun.. i saw my bassoon chics Genevive and Kristen! yay!
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2002 10 October :: 10.22pm
:: Mood: excited
:: Music: trick daddy - i'm a thug
1. Name your favorite T.V. show in middle school: simpsons
2. What is the best way to prepare potatoes? Mmm my mom makes these potatoes with mozzarella cheese on them for thanksgiving. Those kill me. mmmmm
3. Describe your eating habits towards meat? mmmmmm
4. Be honest : messy, neatnik, or just cluttered? Mm I am pretty neat a little.
5. Many friends, or a few close friends? A few close friends.
6. Did you do horrible things to your braincells as a teenager? They loved it !
7. Did your braincells do horrible things to you? I loved it too.
8. Beach or pool? ... beach I guess.
9. Sun or shade? Shade, unless I am trying to tan.
10. Favorite book now? “I Know This Much is True” – Wally Lamb
11. Favorite tv show now? simpsons
13. Strawberry or chocolate? chocolate
14. Do lollipops last long with you or are they gone in two chomps? You don’t bite, you suck. Hahahaha .
15. Wood or carpet? carpet
16. Does the prospect of mice severely limit your sleep? Uhh what a gay question. I would erase it but then I would have to fix all the numbers. Yeaaa right.
17. Is sleep just about the most important thing? Pretty much.
18. Green thumb or black thumb of death? Black thumb of death because I am the suicidal girl from my writing class.
Have you ever...
{x} Fallen for your best friend? yes
{x} Made out with JUST a friend? yes
{x} Been rejected? yes
{x} Been in love? yes
{x} Been in lust? I always am
{x} Used someone? I try not to, but everybody has people that your whole relationship is based on using each other. So yea.
{x} Been used? yea
{x} Cheated on someone? No.
{x} Been cheated on? Not to my knowledge.
{x} Done something you regret? Walked out of a show without talking to the guy I was checking out all night. But now I know not to do that.
Who was the last person...
{x} You touched? My mother
{x} You talked to? andrea
{x} You hugged? My mother
{x} You instant messaged? chippy
{x} You kissed? I guess c.j.
{x} You yelled at? Lauren jaramayo for hitting me today at lunch.
{x} You laughed with? andrea
Have you/are you/do you....
{x} Considered a life of crime? yes
{x} Considered being a hooker? yes
{x} Considered being a pimp? You mean am I ? haha
{x} Are you psycho? Not really
{x} Schizophrenic? Not really
{x} Obsessive? With boys, but not really.
{x} Obsessive compulsive? Haha, if one hand gets wet, I have to wet the other … and shit like that. Oh well.
{x} Anxiety? Everybody does
{x} Depressed? Everybody does
{x} Suicidal? Everybody thinks about it.
{x} Obsessed with hate? Uhh no unless you count that stupid all-talk-and-no-action suicidal girl from my writing class.
{x} Understanding: I try to be
{x} Open-minded: my mother tells me I’m not, but I try to be.
{x} Arrogant: I AM THE CENTER OF THE UNIVERSE. HELLO ?!!?!
{x} Insecure: everybody is.
{x} Interesting: uhh not really .
{x} Hungry: I just ate but I am going to eat some cake hopefully later unless that stupid cunt friend of my brother’s took the whole cake home. Stupid slut. Hahaha. I mean, fuck the fact that it’s her birthday. Share your cake, fatass.
{x} Friendly: maybe if I ever talked to anybody I would be.
{x} Smart: yes, I am very smart.
{x} Moody: all the time, it is so horrible. OH WELL.
{x} Childish: yea. Like way too much. Hahaha if your fingers are one key off, you type ;ole instead of like. OLE !
{x} Independent: once I start driving I will be.
{x} Hard working: in the right conditions
{x} Organized: a little … enough.
{x} Healthy: yea. Knock on wood.
{x} Emotionally Stable: yeaa right. I am so moody that emotionally stable would be impossible.
{x} Shy: not really
{x} Difficult: no, not really.
{x} Attractive: it is a matter of opinion and I would rather not put “no” and have everybody comment because everybody comments, even to the ugly people, and I do not want to put “yes” for obvious reasons.
{x} Bored Easily: not as much as andrea haha
{x} Responsible: if I need to be.
Currents
{x} Current Clothes: black dickies, black underwear with bows (hahahahaha I put” boys” … ) on it mm, my totally pushup bra from victoria’s secret, my see-through skin-colored shirt, and andrea’s see through yellow with white stripes shirt
{x} Current Mood: I am SO EXCITED !!!!!!!!!!
{x} Current Taste: chocolate …
{x} Current Hair: long and flowing haha
{x} Current Annoyance: tomorrow after school is so far away
{x} Current Smell: actually, none.
{x} Current thing you ought to be doing: shit checking my mail for jenn’s research paper.
{x} Current Desktop Picture: haha my family’s old school family portrait with my braces and really really fat face and I am like 12 but getting a new one is worthless because my family is not much of a family anymore.
{x} Current Favorite Group: sublime, maybe ?
{x} Current Book: “blood sugar” by Nicole Blackman
{x} Current DVD In Player: yea right. We just got a betamax. You think we have a DVD player ?
{x} Current Refreshment: water
{x} Current Worry: haha I’d rather not say but andrea knows, and so does that random guy from online that is like my new best friend … kyle ?
{x} Current Crush: hot hot hot hot travis.
{x} Current Favorite Celebrity: Claudio of Coheed and Cambria … and Giancarlo Aservi of Fallen From the Sky hahaha
Favorite...
{x} Food: chocolate
{x} Drink: I do not drink, but … water is good and non-alcoholic.
{x} Color: black … and no, I am not suicidal like that girl from writing . gnfdjgnsdfjd
{x} Shoes: mmmm my excellent etnies
{x} Candy: world’s finest chocolate
{x} Movie: bio-dome or fantastia :)
{x} Dance: wanna dance ?? yea ? wanna dance ???
{x} Vegetable: lettuce is a vegetable right ?
{x} Fruit: mangoes mmmm. If you ever want to seduce me, bring me mangoes and I am yours. Mangoes PLURAL. No cheapskates.
On Dating....
{x} Long or short hair? Short hair
{x} Dark or light hair? It doesn’t make a different. I kind of like dark hair more maybe ?
{x} Tall or short? Taller boys
{x} Mr. Sensitive or Mr. Funny? Mr. Funny, so I can be susan funny instead of susan civilized.
{x} Good boy or bad boy? bad boy. I am so tired of good boys.
{x} Dark or light eyes? Either way
{x} Hat or no hat? Mmm it depends on the guy
{x} Pierced or no? oh man, if you have your lip pierced, I would date you regardless of any other factors.
{x} Freckles or none? Eh. Whatever.
{x} Stubble or neatly shaved? stubble itches, but it looks cute.
{x} Rugged outdoorsy type or sporty type? Sk8tr boi … even though it is not a choice.
On preferences....
{x} Chocolate milk or hot chocolate? Hot chocolate
{x} McDonalds or Burger King? Burger king
{x} Marry the perfect lover or the perfect friend? Friend, even though they better be a good lover.
{x} Sweet or sour? sweet
{x} Root Beer or Dr. Pepper? Dr. pepper
{x} Sappy/action/comedy/horror? Comedy
{x} Cool Ranch or Nacho Cheese? Neither. Maybe nacho cheese.
{x} Mud or Jell-O wrestling? Jello is more delicious.
{x} With or without ice-cubes? Hahaha, cinnabon crew ? definitely ice cubes
{x} Shine or rain? rain
{x} Winter/Summer/Fall/Spring? winter
{x} Vanilla or Chocolate? chocolate
{x} Eyes open or closed? Closed
{x} Fly or breathe under water? fly
{x} Bunk-bed or waterbed? Waterbed
{x} Chewing gum or hard candy? gum
{x} Motor boat or sailboat? Motor boats
{x} Lights on or off? Uhh off
{x} Chicken or fish? Mmmmm
What's your favorite:
{x} Number? 420 hahaha I am so predictable
{x} Holiday? halloween
{x} Place? I like going to shows
{x} Flower? lilies
{x} Scent? Happy by clinique
???
{x} If you could be anywhere, where would you be? Lake Okeechobee with andrea
{x} What are you listening to? Trick daddy – I’m a thug
{x} Can you do anything freakish with your body? I can do that thing with my lips. That is it. No sexy maneuvers.
{x} Do you have a favorite animal, no matter how lame it may be? Mmm baby skunks.
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2002 8 October :: 6.15pm
I really don't like reading long updates so I don't. I made the Festival of Winds!!! Soooo Dec 5-9 i'm going to be up in Tampa! yay for Vivi!
Heidi flabbergasted (sp?)
pinkwombat13: vivi! it's heidi.
picsxstarsxdream: Heidi!
pinkwombat13: i can't believe you!
picsxstarsxdream: ?
pinkwombat13: you've never had an orgasm?!!?!?
picsxstarsxdream: lol
pinkwombat13: you need an orgasm.
picsxstarsxdream: um
pinkwombat13: seriously.
pinkwombat13: you are the last person i would expect.
picsxstarsxdream: why?
pinkwombat13: because
pinkwombat13: youre not one of those freaks who have no interest in sex
picsxstarsxdream: lol
pinkwombat13: ok promise me you'll have an orgasm.
pinkwombat13: i'm worried about you
picsxstarsxdream: lol and how exactly am I going to do this?
pinkwombat13: shower heads, masturbate, whatever. you can figure it out
picsxstarsxdream: think about it
picsxstarsxdream: if i haven't been able to achieve this by now then i obviously have no idea how lol
pinkwombat13: youre not trying hard enough.
pinkwombat13: i dont know
pinkwombat13: oh whatever. you can do whatever you want.
pinkwombat13: i just feel bad for people who havent had orgasms.
picsxstarsxdream: i'm sorry.
pinkwombat13: it can't be healthy!
picsxstarsxdream: probably not. Would you like to give me an orgasm Heidi?
picsxstarsxdream: lol
pinkwombat13: youre so gay, vivi.
picsxstarsxdream: haha i know
picsxstarsxdream: only with Josephine and Ashley though. You do have very nice breasts though
pinkwombat13: thank you.
pinkwombat13: breasts are so much fun to tlak about.
picsxstarsxdream: indeed. I think Jessica feels left out though
pinkwombat13: yea
pinkwombat13: i try to make her feel better
picsxstarsxdream: yeps. boobs aren't everything'
pinkwombat13: and big boobs can suck just as much as small ones
picsxstarsxdream: i wouldn't know. mine are pretty much middle of the road
pinkwombat13: lucky bitch
picsxstarsxdream: nah. I think i'd rather have your boobs
pinkwombat13: we seriously need to have a boob exchange
picsxstarsxdream: indeed
picsxstarsxdream: so...
picsxstarsxdream: Alans guna come show up at your house naked huh?
pinkwombat13: thatd be funny as hell
picsxstarsxdream: would you do him?
pinkwombat13: yea sure why not?
picsxstarsxdream: haha awesome!
picsxstarsxdream: i'll be sure to tell him that :0)
pinkwombat13: :-)lol. mattera's gonna tell him that i want him to touch my boobs
picsxstarsxdream: i bet you do
pinkwombat13: becuase i told mattera that alan was allowed but he wasnt
picsxstarsxdream: ??
pinkwombat13: on the bus
pinkwombat13: mattera said he would
pinkwombat13: and i said he wasn't allowed
picsxstarsxdream: who alan?
pinkwombat13: but that alan was.
picsxstarsxdream: i'm confused.
picsxstarsxdream: thats okay though. my natural state.
picsxstarsxdream: okay Miss Heidi, mental break time is over. i'l ttyl :0)
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2002 7 October :: 5.37pm
Update time!
Saturday night was scary... saw a car lose control on 95 and hit the wall, flipped over 3 lanes and landed on its side w/the person half hanging out... ::shudders:: i called 911 but the gas was dripping so we got out of there ::wonders what happened:: Welll... yeah.
On to more plesant thoughts... school sucked .. okay i lied, not more plesant thoughts. I sucked at my playing test.. blanked & forgot half of the last song . o well.
Bah I'm tired :0(
Oh. (you) i'm not going to be on tonight... well not supposed to be.. i'll try to get on to say hello around 9:45 - 10:00 pm or so but i'm sorry if i can't...
That is it for now. Oh. let it be known. (his) naiveness <- yes its a word haha (not exactly used in the right context but i though it was cool) is going to be the root of his downfall. I hope so anyways...
Band politics, schmolitics urghhh!
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2002 6 October :: 9.30pm
:: Mood: thoughtful
:: Music: bright eyes - a perfect sonnet
i don’t know why i brought this up, especially with you. i doubt you’d understand anything about feelings, really, especially mine. you’ve gotten your hundred or so angst-filled poems, and smiled through every one of them, then come to me with open arms to apologize or cry with me and tell me it will be alright. but you never hugged me tight enough. there was always that persistent doubt, that unforgiving voice, telling me that the space between us was more than just a weak hug, and that it rivaled the oceans in its vastness and the sky in its infiniteness, and that one day we would be that distant. our bonds were so strong. how did they ever fall apart ? i guess i was mistaken when i thought that you loved me and that our feelings were mutual and that i saw love in your clear blue eyes with that everlasting sparkle. it was just me reflected ... my looking into a mirror, convincing myself that it was more than a one-sided thing. but mirrors are always one-sided (unless they are like trick mirrors. those mirrors own. rock.) and i still looked past that. i looked past a lot of things, and continue to. no matter how much i convince myself that i am stupid for thinking of you at all, and no matter how many sad poems i write to try and outdo the happy ones, you will always be the one i think of when somebody else’s lips brush mine. or when i remember how we used to stare in each other’s eyes and be content with just being there with each other, for hours and hours. i know i will never have that connection with anybody again, and that is when the longing hits me and i start to write incoherent ramblings pieced together with memories and fantasy. but it’s over, no matter how much i convince myself it’s not, or you lead me on. i wish i could tell everybody what i really thought. but then i’d have no friends except andrea. OH WELL ...
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2002 5 October :: 12.21am
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANDY!!!!!!!!!!! you're wonderful and now my secret lover :0) i hope all of your plans work out <3
Quote of the day: " Wow I have this image of Kevin with tits..." ~ AJ "aka" ORF
That quote was classic.. we were at Bostons on the beach today before the game and it was lots of band kids. Some reason I started talking bout Amanda (Kev's sister) and AJ asked if she was pretty, I responded with yeah, shes cute and has big boobs to which i later added that she kinda looked like Kevin to which AJ responded with that wonderful quote. Good times.
The game was okay. 35-0 I think.. Boynton High, no big deal.. knew we'd win that one. Their band is kinda sad but then again who am I to talk... yeah.
Speaking of band I'm going to be slaving tomorrow from 8-12am on the football field probably in scorching heat. Fun.
Things have been really weird lately.... with ALL the "guy" situations.. I don't know.
History test - 89 on test & 73 on DBQ... despite my crappy DBQ score I still have a B ;) gooooo Vivi! Biology's the next challenge.. i need a REALLY damn good grade.. i'm sooooo screwed :0( Screw school.
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2002 3 October :: 6.47pm
This is for (you) and for AJ because Orf, you're right.. no reason why I should sell out.
I really have nothing to say. The past week has kind of blurred into a few days so yeah. My parents bought me a car, 2002 Camry but now my mom likes it so they're buying me another car. I think as of now a Toyota Solara so yeah. Thats all I think.
I'm really pissed at band people... 20 freaking holes on Saturday... how are we supposed to rehearse with freaking 20 holes?!? irresponsible bastards.. they've known bout this rehearsal since freakin August...grr.
I had a dream last night.. it was quite weird... Andy.. I dreamt of you lol its kinda creepy... Andy's been popping up in a lot of my dreams lately.. maybe i'm secretly in love with him? haha The dream was kinda weird.. Sara B and Abby D and Brittany were there too and I was in Detroit, Michigan for a second then in Ft.Lauderdale, Fl... yeah. ask and i'll explain
thats it. I hope you're happy.
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2002 3 October :: 4.09pm
:: Mood: crushed
:: Music: coheed and cambria - delirium trigger
searing stars slipping silently
through a black velvet blanket
(angels with scorched wings)
burning through heads and hearts
knowingly but uncaring
disregarding the fallen and inflicted
(fiery demons, once beautiful, now beautifully dark)
corrupting the weak-willed
conquering the strong
(so strong but so helpless, painstakingly dangerous)
reflected in lovely sad eyes
of lovers scorned
(magnificent crimes, glorious flames)
breaking others, planned mistakes,
executed flawlessly, not unlike
these stars, flying through the night.
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2002 28 September :: 8.29pm
tonight you killed me.
you never loved me. you couldn't have the way you hurt me. i loved you so much and for what Troy, for what? How could I be so naive.. hopes and dreams are only for the ignorant. Tonight reality slapped me in the face and I refuse to be hurt like this again. You killed me Troy. This.. now this is the end.
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2002 28 September :: 12.44pm
i am exhausted. its after noon and i just want to go back to sleep :0(
We played Boca High last night... supposedly they were really good and we weren't expected to win but we shut them out 20-0 asshole haha The game didn't really interest me much.. their band consisted of a mere 50 people of which weren't very friendly .. go figure, Boca people.. I should know.. We marched terribly... its really frustrating.. its seems as if we make soooo much progress and then we go to the games and just absolutely bomb... i just don't get it. After the game I went out with Chris and Stephy. We ended up leaving really late so we didnt' have that much time. ehhh I miss him ::sniff:: hes in Ft.Myers now visiting grandparents sooo that means i'm here all alone this weekend. Poopy.
a boy emailed me and told me i was pretty :0) that made me mucho hapiness cept lying isn't very nice haha j/k or ehh.. yeah.
shower time... maybe then i'll feel better.
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2002 25 September :: 10.57pm
:: Mood: grateful
:: Music: desaparecidos - what's new for fall
I explained to you how it was going to be.
You just laughed it off.
Don’t you get it ? We’re so different, this is impossible, and you don’t care.
You’re such an asshole ...
But you’re wonderful. My best friend. Didn’t I call you my best friend ?
You explained to me that this is what best friends do.
I just brushed it off.
But now I get it. I don’t know why, this is so contradictory, but you do care.
You’re my guardian angel.
You’re the only one who does care. Who hears the pain in my voice when I choke back tears and somehow wrestles it out of me until I am pouring out my heart in a flood of tears and tissues. And you just smile and tell me it will be alright.
And I know it will. Because I know
I
have
you.
And I know that even if I don’t have anybody else ... and I never do ... you are all I need.
And you will hang up with anybody else ... even if you know you will have to explain yourself later ... because that’s what best friends do.
I’m like “marry me”.
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2002 25 September :: 9.53pm
umm okay. Its Wed night. Nothing worthwhile has happened within the past 4 days so yeah. less to write.
umm tomorrow is a half day yay! I believe we're going surfing (we being me, Jenn , Steph & Devin) yeah. I blew off Chris and lunch lol and he says he crying. Yes. hes on the phone and I don't think too happy. He claims that footballs making him brain dead but then again we all knew that before he started playing haha. j/k hes a bit slow tonight.. its okay a nice change from his usual braininess. :0) he says hes not brainy, a stupid jock but everyone knows he isn't.
Um tomorrow is the Mr./Ms. Atlantic pageant. Good luck 2 my friendos that are in it i'll be there to support ya :0) <3 umm we play Boca High on Friday. It should be a good game... they're a good team.. Chris says that they suck and they're a bunch of pussies. I think hes just in denial. Can't face the fact that they're guna lose haha no.. our team is decent and I'm sorry Chris since I'm hurting your feelings and all.
Thats all for now. Lover me & say hello.
yes. I also have a new email addy and sn umm email: picturesxstarsxdreams@yahoo.com and AIM: picsxstarsxdream
yay for Vivi!
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2002 23 September :: 7.50pm
:: Mood: nostalgic
:: Music: jennifer lopez and marc anthony - no me ames
Cuándo miro afuera y veo la lluvia callendo, me recuerda de ese noche que salí a despedírte y nos paramos junto a tu caro, mojándonos sin que nos importara, sin pensar en nade mas que el momento en que estábamos. Esa fue una de nuestras últimas noches feliz, juntos, desesperadamente enamorados. Y cuando terminamos yo no pense que todavía estubiera pensándote. Pero asi pasan las cosas y no puedo dejar de pensarte, y no se si mirar al futuro o quedarme en el pasado con mis fotos y las llamadas que no te aféctan a ti pero me dejan temblando y lista para llorar. Entonces quemare tus fotos con tus memorias y mirare aver quien mas podre encontrar con quien enamorarme esta vez, porque aunque termine asi, no quiero vivir sin sentir otra vez lo que sentí por ti.
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2002 22 September :: 7.58pm
:: Mood: lethargic
:: Music: further seems forever - wearing thin
And she stared relentlessly at the blank screen and blinking cursor, closing her eyes periodically, thinking of him for inspiration, And nothing came. And the background noises offered nothing to write about, And she had nobody to write for. And as she typed the words “i hate you forever” over and over on the white screen, she knew she would. And he knew she would, And he said nothing. And he stepped away from her And her life And her heart And he would never again be her everything, And she cried. And she felt like she would never be anybody’s everything again, And she felt the crushing taste of defeat in her mouth. And she spit violently at him as he moved forward And she was held back, to get rid of his taste, And she never really would. And she looked at her watch And not even a minute had passed in this lifetime that had just occurred, And she wondered how long she would really feel like this, And how long it would feel like. And she wrote.
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