but my god, it's so beautiful when the boy smiles {v.29}

but my god, it's so beautiful when the boy smiles {v.29}

:: 2003 22 December :: 8.04pm
:: Mood: crawling like a snail

Can break start yet?
So I'm back. A drive saturday morning up and a drive back now. Around 4ish hours each.

My grandparents on my mom's side just moved... again.. I dunna like it but I got the stuff from their house I wanted so I guess I can live.. (That includes some magnets and an old iron cat doorstopper... things I grew up seeing there. Muah!)

I had a very... dazing dream this night. Won't go into detail but... 'I have to give out 100,000 of these to kill 100,000 Arabs.' Mhmm. Take no offense by that, it was from the dream. One of those dreams... where you wake up and your heart is racing. Powerful?

The second day we were to see our cousins and I was told a little before we got there that the eldest, one year younger than me, wouldn't be there. Not really a shock but I wasn't happy. It's often that he's not there when we come so we miss him, I especially. Well we got there and when we walked in it took me a few minutes to register that he was in the room! Lots of awkward silence and glances his way.. But when they were leaving I stood up and gave him a hug like I always try to do and said, 'I really miss you' and he actually gave a real hug! Like an arm on the back and prolonged and everything! And he gave Katie a hug without any push! Course I had to force a hug on my 2 younger cousins but they're guys, what can ya do?

Is it not a little freaky to know your Great-Aunt drove 80 miles an hour on the Interstate (or was it the Turnpike..)?? It's freaky to me!

So both sets of my grandparents are doing pretty well. I pray for them.

With love..
~*~

QOTD
How many cousins do you have? Do you have good/close relations with them?

Side notes:
KICKS computer for not loading the SAT page!
Something Has Happened! You are now eligible to use 'I Love My Rock!' as an avatar on the NeoBoards!

2 lovers | just breathe

SeraphimRhapsody

:: 2003 19 December :: 11.50pm
:: Mood: exhilarated
:: Music: quite the variety

Local Bands Have All The Fun
A downsized version...

So it was my first concert. Yes, Ataris was my first real concert but this was my first concert concert.

It was at the Pompano Indoor Skatepark. The first skatepark I'd ever been to so we're just racking in the firsts! Amanda and I got there a bit before everyone else so we looked around. Sharif came in later and was quite surprised to see us, very happy. Chris came in and talked to us a bit, also surprised and happy. Ian was next and gave a surprised 'Hi!' in return to a greeting. Paul, Matt, and JT also came in but none of them saw us. Devin was about that time and he came right over and talked to us for a bit until Krystle called me. Seems she needed convincing to come. We convinced her. HEHEHE Yeah, so I was feeling oddly very friendly and talkative and finally Paul saw us and came over. (and and and and, shhh it's late) He was happy/surprised also.

A bit more ramblings with people. Krystle comes. An hour or so later the bands finally start up.

'S.K.A.' went first unexpectedly. That's Silly Kids on Acid with Ian as improv vocalist, Paul on set, Matt on trumpet, and Chris on sax. Paul ripped up the set, was really quite good of course. Ian was very funny though the crowd didn't seem to respond to him warmly. It was their first gig and all.. I thought they did very well.

A few of the other bands went and this is where the tragic event occured. Me, Amanda, and Krystle were sitting against the wall when a kid above and behind us hits the rail hard, causing a can of orange soda to tip over and spill right on my head. Boy was I thrilled. My first concert concert with these kids and I get doused in orange soda. Go me. So I run off to the bathroom. Washing off my hair, jacket, sorta trying to help my pants, and I'm thinking: 'I'm not going to let this get to me. I'm going to think positive, put my hair up, and go out there again. I've still got to see Andrew's and Sharif's bands.' So I became positive and came out with a soaking wet white jacket and wet hair along with a (in my mind less than a tank top) small shirt. I wasn't really bothered by the shirt.. until I got into the other room.

Krystle and Amanda were great, backing me all the way and sharing their jackets as best they could, but it wasn't enough... Paul was kind enough to lend me his jacket. So sweet.

Had a little fun nixing JT's things... What do you expect? ^____^

Next up was Andrew. I was really anxious to hear his new band since Adastra and Drowning Ophelia were beyond awesome. This time they were 'Jigsaw Jones and the Electric Cowboys' and once again him, Keith, Noah, and Jake replacing Nick (Jake also rocked the set) completely tore the place down. Everyone was rocking. They were so great. I got pictures. ^.^ Have you any idea how hard it is to get a picture of Keith playing?!

Sharif with 'Miles to Go' took his turn after another band and wow they were good. He had great vocals and I can't wait to get hold of his cd.

Most of the people we knew left after Sharif played but the last band, Anytime in July were very good.

You know, I'm pretty sure that if I had worn any other shirt but that less-than-a-tank-top one it would've been soaked in soda just because. I bet it would've been...

So I had a great night. Must go to more of these..

With love...
~*~

Question of the Day!
What kind of music do you like?
(Yeah yeah, so I couldn't think of anything else.)

4 lovers | just breathe

TheGirlWhoHasNoDreams

:: 2003 21 December :: 12.26pm
:: Mood: happy
:: Music: AFI

We held hands on the last night on earth. Our mouths filled with dust, we kissed in the fields and under the trees, screaming like dogs, bleeding dark into the leaves. It was empty on the edge of town but we knew everyone floated along the bottom of the river. So we walked through the waste where the road curved into the sea and the shattered seasons lay, and the bitter smell of burning was on you like a disease. In our cancer of passion you said, "Death is a midnight runner." The sky had come crashing down like the news of an intimate suicide. We picked up the shards and formed them into shapes of stars that wore like an antique wedding dress. The echoes of the past broek the hearts of the unborn as the ferris wheel silently slowed to a stop. The few insects skitterd away in hopes of a better pastime. I kissed you at the apex of the maelstrom and asked if you would accompany me in a quick fall, but you made me realize that my ticket wasn't good for two. I rode alone. You said, "The cinders are falling like snow." There is poetry in despair, and we sang with unrivaled beauty, bitter elegies of savagery and eloquence. Of blue and grey. Strange, we ran down desperate streets and carved our names in the flesh of the city. The sun has stagnated somewhere beyond the rim of the horizon and the darkness is a mystery of curves and lines. Still, we lay under the emptiness and drifted slowly outward and somewhere in the wilderness we found salvation scratched into the earth like a message.

just breathe

SeraphimRhapsody

:: 2003 18 December :: 8.26pm
:: Mood: dizzy

hitting your head really really hurts... even after a while

-deleted-

With love...
~*~

Question of the Day
Would you ever make one of Barbie's possessions life size? Her clothes, her dream house, her car, what? What if you had to keep it that hot pink color? MUAHAHAHA
This post's Question of the Day brought to you unknowningly by Natalia

2 lovers | just breathe

SeraphimRhapsody

:: 2003 17 December :: 9.32pm
:: Mood: fearful
:: Music: blast the music so you block the world

keep the offense to yourself
Forget my day, I'm writing the things in my head. I don't really care if you people get ideas from this stuff. If you do, forget them because they're probably wrong.

There hasn't been a moment of peace here since sunday. Sunday was the celebration of dad's birthday. I wrote on that already. You know what's fun? Jumping out of your chair when the door flies open. You fear that door opening. You fear the sounds downstairs. You fear the sounds coming up the stairs.

You know what else is fun? Getting yelled at every fucking night before an exam. I think it happened last year.. and maybe the year before.. I've forgotten on purpose. You'd think: "Leave me alone this week. Just don't bother me. You don't even have to talk to me." would be straightforward enough... okay, I didn't actually say that but it was the point always given for this week.

It's a freaking survey!! If it makes me happy and it's not hurting anyone then don't freaking kill me over it!

The thing I fear the most is what keeps me here. Naive attempts to dissuage an event perhaps destined to occur. Minor similar events have already taken place with me here though... so what would be the difference? Yes, I have a car. And past wishes, prayers, and hopes put pointless dreams in my head. Who can get away..?

I've come to notice that everyone has some kind of problem. Mental, behavioral, social. No one is without something wrong... well. Fine. Maybe someone is. Which makes me so mad... never had anything wrong in their life... they have a great life now... AND THEY THINK THEY UNDERSTAND?! Ahem.

I feel comfortable driving now..
And I know why..

My left seems stronger at driving than my right.. the only thing it's stronger at. (This isn't related to the above though.)

hear the screams
see the blood
give the girl a rose..

I hesitate to call anything love.
Stolen. Do you see this? Do you know? I'll give props to you, Amanda. Sums things beautifully. Some things.

Why is it that no one ever says congratulations on your loss? I mean.. we congratulate winnings and good tidings and happy events. But why is losing something always bad? We could lose a cold.. or lose a bad report card.. or.. or..
Congratulations on my losses.

shades of mediocrity..
what's wrong with everyone?
there's a panic in their eyes.

Try and give a hug..
They shrink away in fear.
I'm not always violent..
Not always defensive..
Walking by they give her a hug
What does she do different?

Get the hell away from me.
I can't get close to anything.

With love.................
~*~

QOTD
You expect one after this post?
Read the post now, I guarantee it won't be there once I update my personal journal.

It's always my fault... I start it and it goes from there. What do you tell a child who grows up knowing this? The poor child..
Where have all the people gone?

Forget what you hear
Forget what you see
Forget what you read.

1 love | just breathe

SeraphimRhapsody

:: 2003 16 December :: 5.39pm

Don't tug on my heartstrings, they're stretched too thin that they'll break.
I swear they freaking enjoy messing with me.

Kai updated. No mention of me which is odd. Maybe cause I haven't updated my journal there in... 20ish days? I'm waiting to add the Japan stuff. And yeah.

I'll.. write about my day... later.....
And yeah, there'll be a QOTD later.. so you don't have to post now.

With love..
~*~

Alright so I lied. I don't even feel like writing the QOTD, that's how bad it is.

just breathe

SeraphimRhapsody

:: 2003 15 December :: 11.04pm
:: Mood: aggravated
:: Music: crinkling of papers

Back the Hell Out of My Space
Today was even more hellish than I imagined. And believe me I can come up with pretty good stuff.

Math test..... was okay. Only okay. The exam I'll fail but that's alright! Like I'd expect getting an A, A, and A.

Spanish was a waste but I got my very first christmas present! It was so pretty. Was. It broke. Gotta try and fix... it... (It was a necklace.)

Health I have an 88. Shut the freak up, you didn't deal with Fochtman. She assures me it'll be an A. 28 days looks like a good movie. We should've studied it earlier.

Lunch was spent practicing with Leah. Sometimes I just feel so stupid since I pressure myself and then can't get the stuff quickly and Leah can. That's one reason why I get edgy when people are around me watching me try and learn the music. Lerner didn't have time to pass us off at lunch.

Ierace wouldn't let Leah leave class so I was sent to face Lerner. If he fucking messes with me again like this I swear things will get broken. Heh. So he gave me more than a hard time. Went back to chem where I ignored certain people, got over other things, and got hurt again. Over all I think I'm closer to some people.. unless I'm just being used. Back to the bathroom in the bandroom to call mom and see what I should do.

Mom doesn't understand and it's not like I can explain it. She tells me to put Lerner on. On my cell. Give my cell to Lerner. So I walk out of the restroom and give it to Lerner. They converse and once again Lerner makes it look like I'm the stupid unresponsible one. It's decided that I'll have till 3:15 at which time mom has to leave so Katie can get to piano.

Of course I couldn't get off the phone without a good amount of yelling and being told it's my fault. What else is new?

Back to chem.. here is where the hurt comes in. And I have an 80. Technically 79.6. I can't do very well in that class.

After school is a dash to tell Leah then a dash to the bandroom. Have you any idea how much unnecessary stress I have right now? I tossed people out of my way with my words. I played horribly of course. But he had no choice but to sign us off.

WAS THAT SO FREAKING HARD?! Like he couldn't sign us off and save us stress and pain and all that. I was willing to pay the stupid fees.. anything. It doesn't reflect him anyway.

Yelled at on the way home. They finally leave and I turn the radio up really really really loud.

HAHAHAHA No, there was no studying. I found an even better way to spend time!

Some random person IMed me saying I was on their list.. So I made a new friend! oO;;
They claim to be a drill seargent and we had a 4 hour chat about the military and politics.
Yes I was careful.

I think I've concluded he is not what he says.. but it's difficult due to his vast military knowledge. I think HE is the 17 year old son he claims to have.

There's some other stuff but I guess I forgot it.

Oh, news has circulated about the concert friday. I am going. I don't care about what's happening on the weekend... I'll be at that concert.

I find it funny how it's impossible for either someone who does nothing all day to go buy food or for someone to get something on their way home. Hmm.. What's that grumbling sound?

You know what else is fun? No freaking consideration. Just leave me alone for this week. Besides the fact that it's that time of month. You know what? I think the parents have it timed every half year that on this week they'll start... Such stress that leads to lethargy.

Gifts should be brought in slowly this week. They're mainly what I got from Japan so... be happy? I did the best I could. Maybe they'll be belated gifts when we come back from break like I sometimes do.

With love..
~*~

QOTD
Can you touch your tongue to your nose? Tongue to elbow?

just breathe

SeraphimRhapsody

:: 2003 14 December :: 11.41pm
:: Mood: ho hum
:: Music: my sister's explanation of sharps and flats to someone

secrets, secrets, are no fun, secrets are for everyone
Saddam Hussein was captured today.
I guess everyone forgot Osama Bin Ladin. Or that's what the government wants us to think. And please don't attack me. I understand how important this capture was also, for the Iraqi people.

Kai's alive. After 20 days of no knowledge about her she's been spotted at the moment of signing offline. Impressive she actually came online on a name I'd recognize. I'll bet my being on scared her off as well.

I thoroughly do not have a will to do math. I paid attention in all but vectors which was in one class and now I can't understand vectors. Thus I fail it all. Stupid sin and cos that aren't much on the test.

Mom went off on me because I want to do an Angel (think the tree in the mall for the less fortunate kids). Is it so bad to want to get my own gift for once? You know, she gets the gifts for friends. She makes me take them to them. And it hurts. Yeah, 'nough of that. I'm getting something this time. Just gotta figure out how..

Dad's birthday is tomorrow. Celebrated today. Found out yesterday night. I have nothing for him.

I'll be failing exams also. Specifically history and chemistry.
I wonder about band... Think he'll take my grade down for not being able to keep up with his elongated measures? Watch him. Then he won't let me in Wind Symphony because I had Leah try and help me keep up with him while I look at what chime I'm hitting (something you can't do without looking, thank you). And I swear if he doesn't let me.. next year.. all hell'll break loose. The seniors have my back though, so it should be good. I'm glad I have them all on my side.

What else to blab about? Oh.
No, I will not be talking about friday or those classes. I said that in here before didn't I?

It's late once again. Don't you love not eating dinner? At least I can say there was a late dinner and a snack of cake..

With love..
~*~

Think carefully now...
Who do you think is the most popular girl in the junior class? What about boy?

1 love | just breathe

SeraphimRhapsody

:: 2003 13 December :: 11.58am
:: Mood: exhausted
:: Music: Santa's Parade

Spin the Bottle
Keiko (aka Willy) died today from pneumonia. It's so sad. He was 27, older than most captives but younger than most free by about 8 years. He was in captivity having not adjusted to freedom and the people there say he passed on quickly.

Throw a rose to the waves in tribute..
Tribute..
Why does that work awkwardly?

Santa's Parade today.. It went well I guess. I had a good time. Lot's of compliments, some missed opportunities, bit of dizziness. If only the others would learn their parts... -.- And decorate their drums! Hmph. It'll be a requirement next year.

Melissa's 18th birthday today. Had fun their too but we were all soo tired.

With love..
~*~

Question ot Day
Do you play an instrument? What and why did you choose to play it? If not, what do you want to play and why?

5 lovers | just breathe

SeraphimRhapsody

:: 2003 10 December :: 12.40am
:: Mood: crying.. if I felt like letting the rivers flow
:: Music: the lost song on the oldest cd

picking up the shattered pieces
Shattered fragments of the days gone by reveal only those left most intact. I forget things easily nowadays. Emotons, feelings, and other rememberings of the day:

Spanish until we get to school
Dad took us.
Won my first bet- against Richard
$1 for me!
Help from Danny
Math at a distance
Spanish test..
Taking test..
Moving on to part 2: Album
Doing Album...
'Kristen, stop right there and you can do your presentation.'
'We're... taking a test.'
'I put myself down as the third person for a reason......'
'You can go now, come on.'
Scrambled and mumbled and shaking.
Breast Cancer with only girls
Reviewing chem all class
Lunch lady searched special for the last sandwich left
Helping a friend all lunch
She's not worthless
Good at lots of stuff
Chem test to be easy
Chem test impossible
Dazed and blanking
Some say easy
Some say hard
As always
Run home
Get ready
Face burns, stupid dry skin
Can't find anything to wear
Take time to look nice.. no one really cares though.
Pop new CD into car radio
5:20
Stupid Lerner kept basses locked in room and yells at us
Against marching.. kids outside simply a bit late
Only kids.
Out of place
Chat with Leah about injustice
Story of Lerner and someone's dad
I'd be happy.. some people scared
'Symphonic sounds like beginner.. they're better than that.'
Chimes won't play when hit
Solo during Lerner's speech
'Don't get any ideas.'
'I already got my class switched.'
Stunned as hope drains
Intense sadness.. why? Many reasons.
Lost opportunities.
Missed parts in Sleigh Ride
Dances with Leah
Overwhelmed and grief stricken
Magda being nice, knew she was
Special invitation.. I'm special..
Hard drive home
Speeding
Passing accident.. death? Interesting..
Telling story
'Pushed' mom
Leave me alone then
Kay
Blaring music
Unnerving calm
Helping

sillygrl4256
Status: 1 Month
I said- YA PATHULA! WELL, IM GONNA GO REQUEST U GUYS AND PLAY SOME GAMES SO I CAN EARN THINGS! BIBI! U GUYS BE PROUD! U MADE A GOOD INFLUENCE ON A LIL KID TODAY! - and a merry christmas to ya!

Who would've expected? I calmed an entire chat. Got them to exchange apologies. Continued peaceful chat between once warring groups. Taught a little kid something.

The night draws close. Sleep beckons but knows it is not near me.

With love..
~*~

QotD
Have you ever listened to a CD you haven't listened to in a long time, then find a song you've forgotten about that meant a lot to you and has always been only on that CD? Which song?

Cry Me A River

4 lovers | just breathe

SeraphimRhapsody

:: 2003 8 December :: 10.59pm
:: Mood: mixed emotions according to Mer's mood ring
:: Music: The Ataris

Dancing with Shadows
A looooong day today.
Mrs. Schilit is really nice! She believes I don't feel well.. which I guess I don't.. but I get to sleep and be lazy and all that without getting yelled at by her. It helps.

Band was grand. Eagles for Excellence. Actually, he didn't know why he got the award, it was a complete surprise to him. Yay for him!
I bet you're right Lauren.

Well I walked back with the award winner and I was quite hyper after that donut! The guys don't usually see my so hyper. We moved stuff over to the auditorium and.. oh you've got to hear this.

So we're sitting on the floor cause there's no chairs and Lerner's listing what big stuff only should be taken over. So then he starts to group us to get stuff over.. and he does all the guys, then stops at the girls. He says, "You three can work on getting the mallet instruments ready to be taken down and wait for some of the guys to come back." I was like heeeeeeeell no. -.- A girl can carry just as much as the guy.. at least if they have to. I mean, getting the guys to do is naturally what we'd do. But the fact that he flat out said we weren't capable of doing it... I don't think so. Next year is definitely going to be interesting.

So all the stuff gets done and that takes a good while.. so me, Leah, and Jenn are coming back over and we pass by Paul.. standing outside the band room.. so we step inside to see what he was hiding from and it was an all out improv. SO GREAT! I love those moments. The guys just pick up any instrument, wall, or door and start making a beat. It was definitely an Indian-ish (from India people!) sound and was totally awesome. So we listened to that for a while, then got another 10 minute lecture. He wastes so much time.

Got some chem help....
Maybe I should've forced myself to learn it instead of enlisting help as an incentive... I wasted a good few hours of his time from which he got nothing.. and I upset him a lot. Oo;; 10 minutes on one problem. That's really sad Kristen. Just that mood where it won't click. GRRR
So I feel bad and it'll probably be a while till I ask for that kind of help again. Joyous.

Oh, and the molar mass of hydrogen is not even 1.

Parents pissed me off not too long after I get home. Too much fun.

I've too much homework.. it'll be a late night. But hey, I didn't do anything over the weekend so this is what I get.

Oh, I got the Bilge Dice and Let It Snow avatars recently. Great fun.

OH!! And I know you all went back to that link and clicked those 5 buttons today RIGHT????!?

With love..
~*~

Question of the Day
Do you make online friends that you've never met? Would you meet them in real life after say... a year of talking to them?

1 love | just breathe

SeraphimRhapsody

:: 2003 7 December :: 3.44pm
:: Mood: contemplative

Reach Out to the World
I'm actually quite happy with how I've spent my last hour or so.. created a new and very important page on my site. Site? I have a site? YES! Geez don't you people stay up with my news? MUAH! Yeah, I'll be linking things together over the course of eternity so I'll update here.

So, I created this page here and you all better go and check it out!
(Amanda gave me some help of course. Once again. ^.^)

It is also muy imperative that you click the 5 buttons toward the bottom and click on that new page's button to help out each respective thing. IT ONLY TAKES A FEW MINTUES! Hmph.

With love...
~*~

Question of this Post and Possibly Day!!
To live in a world only of your house or city, state or country, or to get involved with the entire world that you live in and see what other people/creatures (Yes they count!) live with?

2 lovers | just breathe

SeraphimRhapsody

:: 2003 6 December :: 11.18pm
:: Mood: drained
:: Music: Something Corporate

Reach Out and Touch Someone
Got up at an ungodly hour but that's okay cause it was with Krystle and for the children.

Some of the kids from the Caridad were there. I love them. So sweet! And they do like us beyond like, putting up with us. We're really a good influence and presence for them and it's amazing. Nancy just like, clung to me when I spotted them. And Eliana is not as shy though she still doesn't talk much.. you can see she likes you. Even Ronald and Aldo said hi and gave us hugs! Getting guys to give you hugs.. that's often a feat in itself! And Krystle met the third brother. Too funny. What was his name?

I drove to the haircut. Mom still makes me nervous and feel incapable because she's afraid. Can't parents realize that's not what we need? Geez.

It's a long wait at the salon.. an hour per. Picked up a random magazine and read through it. It was Marie Claire. There's acutally a lot of awesome articles in it. One on the daughters of actual dictators. Another on the widows of an African country split by 2 warring divergences.. but they've banded together to rebuild and are adopting as many war orphans as possible... from either side. So there's kids from both sides of the now over civil war living together. Quite impressive. Another on Angelina Jolee (sp?) whom I didn't really know much about except she was quite good in Tomb Raider. She had one impressive goal I liked: to adopt orphans from around the world and have a big family while teaching each their own culture and background. Then the kids can teach and share with each other and there would be World Peace within that family. An example of unending possibility. Simply amazing. Fell asleep a couple times during the hair cut.. the half asleep type state.

The fireplace was lit while we were at a haircut. That'd be like the 2nd time in 5 years. I always ask if we can light the fireplace... It's gas so it's not as cool as Colorado used to be but still. Mom always said no.

I dunno.. getting lathargic again. I really end up not liking weekends.

Lord of the Rings: The King Returns comes out the 17th. I WILL see it in the theaters this time. Several times.

It's late again tonight. How do I do this?

'If I am a nobody and nobody is perfect, does that mean I am perfect?'

With love...
~*~

Question of the Day
If you had the power to keep in touch with someone whom you had been good friends with... would you? Take the effort and risk and all.. Or leave it as unraveling string that would have to happen anyway whether then or later on?
(Brought to you in part by Lauren)

just breathe

SeraphimRhapsody

:: 2003 5 December :: 11.06pm
:: Mood: lost
:: Music: Here I Am (?) ~Something Corporate

detachment of love?
Finally the week of feeling ungood is over. However you'll notice the time. That's right. In my mind I've been in bed for -55 minutes. Mmmm That real annoyed mood is back. Pissed off. This stuff'll be all out of order:

White Oleander is an awesome movie. One day after school I found it and my sister came up stairs and we just watched a bit... then got fixed. It was captivating and we watched it entirely without doing anything else. When it was over... it was like 2 and a half hours later. Man, everyone should see that movie.

FINALLY GOT THE NAME!!! MUAHAHAHAHA!!
The movie is Titan A. E. Found it today like I knew I would eventually. It's animated and amazingly cool. I wanted to buy that DVD. Hmmm.

Power totally ignored me in class today. I was annoyed and just about to throw paper balls at him... However when he found out he was ignoring me he was very apologetic and sincere about helping me. It was funny to say the least.

Chemistry was not a fave of mine today. No Swanson like I predicted. Sub was.. yeah he was stupid. About being a sub. Other than that he was... interesting. Did I write about last class? I didn't?! Well then!

Of course I missed it, but it being my class, being filled in, and seeing the aftermath counts just as much. So I left for the bathroom since I didn't feel well and it seems the sub found the shower. You know.. the science shower. So... he walked over to it... and pulled the handle. Yep. You read right. He pulled it. So the water trickled then ran like faucet. He couldn't stop it. Called in a janitor and they couldn't stop it until the pushed up really hard. But when they did... something like clanked and the water gushed like it was broken. Course this is splashing the floor and puddling instead of going down the drain. The janitor finally got it off. But it was still trickling when I came back.

Other things about chem today upset me I guess. That or it's manipulation and confusion. Quite possible with this strange headache type thing I've got going on

You know what's fun? Selling chocolate with the jerks on this campus. You know what's even more fun? Finding a counterfeit bill in your envelope of cash. Yeah, that's what I said. Someone is so dead. You SO do not play me like that. I know it was some black girl who gave it to me when I was in a rush of course between classes with books and whatnot.
So I was standing in line at lunch before going to Power and I listen in on convo's and one proved muy interesante. This black kid had the same counterfeit bills I had been given and was showing them off to his friends saying "I'm using them for chocolates." I memorized that jerk's face.
Right so I take Katie to get her box of chocolate and tell Power I've got a problem. Tell him about the bill. Follow him in and and talk to the head of police on campus. Yeah.
You know what? I can't wait for the next counterfeit bill I'm given. Ripped to shreds... that person had so better hope there's an AP around. Heh, fine I'm not that violent. Nor do I want to be suspended during exams. But they'll be getting it. A warning to all chcocolate sellers.

Note to self: Have Katie count money and make sure Cody didn't short change me when breaking his 20. I counted 20.. or 19.. he said I gave him 16.. The headache thing again? Or I lost it today.

7th Heaven and Degrassi both had segments on self-mutilation and cutters today. They are both very good. The 7th Heaven deals more with the 'why' of the issue and explains it very well. Degrassi showed it's prominence in teens. This is an important issue and it doesn't get the attention it needs. It's nearing anorexia and bulemia for problems with teens yet it's never talked about. I think I'll petition for it to be added to Health class. Hmmm..

I really wanted to go to the Buzz Bake Sale today.. see all the cool bands. Wasn't going to happen but I can dream.

I also want to go to the Battle of the Bands of the local bands. And see Ian, Sharif, and Josh's bands play somewhere. I really really want to see these bands. Hmm.. gotta find good connections.

Oh yeah, and 3 good timings today. I was quite happy with that.

Now I'm at -85 minutes. Night.

"You don't get to know [my] secrets." ~Guess.

With love..
~*~

Question of the Day
What do you know of the topics never talked about? Self-Injury, suicide, depression, all very important issues but things aren't ever addressed. I'd expect at least depression to be hit on stronger due to the knowledge of the IB kids who take it hard.

"At Cavanague Park..
Where you used to take me to play in the sand
And said to me son one day you'll be a man
And man can do terrible things yes they can."
Cavanague Park ~Something Corporate

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If you've noticed I added the missing Questions of the Day, edited some day, and added a few missing days. Have fun.

5 lovers | just breathe

SeraphimRhapsody

:: 2003 2 December :: 9.34pm
:: Mood: ill

life ebbs away from you
Today was not a happy day. In fact I was quite pissed. I was going to do the Safe School Ambassador's training thing but no.. Shilit had to pretty much not sign it. However she signed Max's.

So what did I do on this should-be-productive day?
Math was half a test I easily could've taken later.

English BS in the slowest form. We did nothing.

History there were about 8 of us. Just notes. Could've got copies like the others who missed.

Band.. kay fine, you guys get to be right this time, we did nothing here too.. but I'll explain.

Math I was cold and had some hunger cramps (I hope) so that was a fun test.

English.. I didn't want my food anymore but seemed still hungry. Then I got rather tired. And my legs started to hurt like they did in the airport. The random spasm-type cramps due to like.. lack of moving around I think. Which of course can not be taken care of in class.

History was an interesting stage of developements. Very small shakings and my pencil was really hard to control.. I felt it when I wrote the notes. And there was this majorly painful throbbing in the back of my head. Owie. More leg spasms. Great fun.

Band... band was the killer. I developed a cough. Became beyond exhausted. Lightheaded and dizzy. Leah and Jenn and Matt were also sick. So we seperate for Santa's Parade practice and I'm a bit pissed that Ian overrode me. However thanks to Shane for asking me what to do. My choice would've worked better. So we're in the hall and Ian's bein' loud.. least it sounds loud to me. We only get 3/4 through.. then Ian started an improv. I wasn't feeling up to standing up to it so I just enjoyed it. Snares and tenors came out to join us and it got too loud for me. So I went back to the main to find two playing the set. o.o I had the headache block it out. Had a nice chat with Jenn.. then Matt came to join us. So sweet. The conversation took a shift to stuff I won't mention but:

I am completely disappointed. What's more is you tried to get me to believe it didn't matter and talk me out of my lecturing you. Please, don't scare me.. make me worry more. Even if it was just for 20 minutes.. it was 20 minutes too long! Like Hannah said: "I love you Matt, and I hate you." Grrrr. -.-

Right! Back to band. So by now I'm laying across three chairs and shaking subtly but uncontrollably. Not really cold.. I guess more hot and my whole body's sore. It was interesting. I got sympathetic looks from some though so that was nice. Steven came and joined the convo. Turns out Matt's birthday was the 27.. I'll have to add that to my list.
So yeah, I couldn't get up.. Steven called me a grandma. -.- So painful. Yeah. Jenn gave me carrots after it was concluded to be a lack of eating. Not to mention the lack of sleep.. This is the time some of you then saw me.... though by then I was a bit better. Then off to band practice.

And to think I could be in SSA and have that on my transcript by now.

Hmm, I'm sure all of you wanted to know this stuff.... I'll probably tone it down when I read back through it later..

With love...
~*~

The Question of the Day
How much sleep do you get on average?

4 lovers | just breathe

SeraphimRhapsody

:: 2003 1 December :: 8.29pm
:: Mood: cold

BRRRRRR
First day back to school from break... I'm exhausted. It's quite cold.. didn't really expect it. To people's questions: It's not as cold as Tokyo, but close.

Kristina lent me her jacket for first period. It was so sweet of her! She's sick and I was getting sick and we were both outside Power's portable cramming for the make-up test. She put on her Pooh one. LOL But it was so nice! And warm too. I felt much better after having it on. Thanks Kristina!!

Foctman is a witch. Don't talk to me about her, health, or Siccard or I'll rip out your throat.
*Chants* Two more weeks.. two more weeks.. two more weeks..

Thank goodness I didn't miss the chem quiz. However I did miss something really difficult I don't quite understand and neither does anyone else... Oye.

Things drifted... ungood a little while ago but it's been beyond solved.
I got... the Malevolent Sentient Poogle Plushie (TCG) Avatar!!!! You have no idea how much this made my day!!!!!! Wow it was like I huge elevation. And my Evil Av is so pretty! ^_________^

After that I actually caught a Jetsam in adoptions and got the Chomp! Avatar too! Wow it was so great. On a roll!

With love...
~*~

Question of the Day!
When was it that you had your first real [best] friend and what do you remember about that beginning? What happened to that friendship?

2 lovers | just breathe

SeraphimRhapsody

:: 2003 31 November :: 6.33pm
:: Mood: content

Recouperation Takes A Lot Out of You
Daddy went to bring Dusty home today. I really missed him.. poor baby. Not to worry though, he stays up with the breeders (whom we bought him from) where he visits with his sweet mother and scaredy-cat sister and a bunch of other relatives and old family friends.

Sometimes I'm afraid for Dusty since we're gone so long and he doesn't really understand... but Dad just had to say something over the edge: "He's probably there wondering what he did that was so bad." Or something like that. Sorta hurt.

Well he went to get him and then stopped by the mall for actual food. Dusty stayed in the crate in the car of course. When they got home he seemed disorganized and confused, like he didn't know where he was. He didn't really recognize or greet mom but came around a bit quicker when me and Katie came down. My baby.. He seems okay now.. but must've been really scared..

It's odd though cause we used to take trips like this before.. around 10 or 12, sometimes 14 days.

He's such a sweet heart. I'll have to share pictures when I can.

With love..
~*~

The Question of the Day!
What pets do you have and why did you get them? or What pet do you want to have?

4 lovers | just breathe

SeraphimRhapsody

:: 2003 30 November :: 9.23pm

Japan

just breathe

SeraphimRhapsody

:: 2003 19 November :: 11.25pm
:: Mood: exhausted
:: Music: Less Than Jake!! My new cd!!

Cause I'm leeeeaaaavin' on a jet plane!
So tomorrow morning I'll be off on a plane to Japan. I've never been out of the country except for like 2 trips to Canadia which doesn't count. Though I love Canadia.

I've always wanted to go to Japan... Wow I'm so excited!! Expect a full report on the goings on, but expect it late. Of course.

Yes, this is cheating. It's IB's fault. ^.^

About yesterday: Overall I felt more connections with people I haven't felt close to in a long time. I'm quite happy about that. There are other people I really want to get close to... hmm.

Oh, Sleigh Ride is very cool. Someone should not be in that band and we are all quite annoyed that she is there. The other songs... didn't sound too well but hopefully they'll get better. I was proud! Perc sight read all of their parts (like usual) and did a more than decent job!

With love..
~*~

THE QUESTION OF THE DAY!!
(This question of the day brought to you unknowingly by Krystle)

What is the most important word to know in a foreign language and why?

2 lovers | just breathe

SeraphimRhapsody

:: 2003 17 November :: 11.51pm
:: Mood: hungry
:: Music: "Sheets of Egyptian Cotton" ~Uptown Girls Movie

Tip the Scale
Well. I'm the 'Evil Junior' but apparently I have a tiny shred of niceness that comes out every once in a while. I'm also in charge of the balance of good and evil of the whole world. Awesome huh? Guess which freshman has concluded this stuff!

Yesterday I was in a cynical, outspoken, quick-comeback, bitter mood according to Erik. The thing with Kai is still getting to me. But I do not blame her. Or Kyo I guess. Today I'm back in monosyllabic answers and a listlessness. Though not as lacking in willpower as yesterday. (And I'm sure you all followed that. ^.~)

I need more cds for my trip. I'm hoping to ask Kyu and Allison if I can get my first taste of Reliant K.. but I don't like to put people out.

Since I haven't lots to post, would you people like a Question of the Day? No doubt that would keep you guys entertained, commenting, and starting war- I mean discussions.

With love..
~*~

6 lovers | just breathe

SeraphimRhapsody

:: 2003 15 November :: 11.50pm
:: Mood: restless
:: Music: Les Miserables

Paul. Ian. Jake. Andrew. Noah (yeah he counts too). Leah.
It's fun to be called a senior. I got that from 2 more people today.. and senior night was great. Jeanatte actually gave me a rose! ^.^ Yeah, yeah, I gave it back.

So, skipping school since I don't remember what happened, I moved my car and ran into the parking lot, trying to figure out where we were going to eat. Awesome plan guys. Trip to publix then out to Veteran's Park. Karen took me and I got food then Amy took me to the park with her and Lauren and Gabe and Meredith and Krystle and Adam and lots of others. It was great fun and quite relaxing.

The ride back ended in the best ever. [Complete docs from Lauren start here (Hey! I'm lazy!)] a whole bunch of underclassmen were playing hacky sack baseball in the parking lot. So you know Amy. She drove right through them and went "Steven! I love Steven! He's so cute! Let's run him over." We drove right up behind him, and then krystle beeped the horn and he got SO SCARED! He jumped like 2 feet in the air. It was hilarious. And then he got mad because we had embarassed him, and he sat on the hood. So we kept driving and he jumped off. It was really funny though.

Then we went into the band room and Gabe came in complaining that Kyle had drunk all of his green tea, so we poured a mix of all of our drinks into Gabe's empty tea thing and tricked kyle into drinking that. It was a good face. [docs end] Later he came up to me again asking me to make more. That kid is... interesting. He tries to challenge me just because he's taller than me and I find it hilarous. One because I always win (what would you expect? ^.^) and two cause of the comments other people make when he tries it.

Sat with Leah on the bus in the beginning but.. she talked mostly with other seniors. So I gave AJ my seat and moved back with Matt. I came it at a really weird time when he was talking to Brian and there was a lot of awkwardness. Had some fun when things picked up though.

Stands time was a bit slow. Early on we knew we'd loose, so we were playing as much as possible. Our show went poorly.. but compared to the other school we were spectacular! Only their officers came over to mingle later and one girl was on snare. Coolness.

The end was most special to me. We ended with the Mule of course and I was watching each one. The Mule now starts with me and the first time I got freaked.. but the last 2 times I've done pretty nice solos. This one was decent too. It's a good feeling when people cheer for you after your solo.

I'm going to miss you all so much. And all the other seniors in band... you were the ones I was closest to outside of my own grade these past years and I really will miss you all. People just don't know how important they are to me... even if I've never really talked to them ever.
o.O;;

Shut out. 35-0. Yeah. Marching season's over. The next time I'm in those stands I'll be a senior. Each time will be that much closer to the end.

With love..
~*~

just breathe

SeraphimRhapsody

:: 2003 13 November :: 10.41pm
:: Mood: tired once again

Sing the birds a lullaby
The only thing I have to write about today is that I love little kids and wednesdays are great days once school is over. Most of the time.

So. I've decided to post this story a dear friend of mine just emailed me. Yes, I've read it before. But what does it matter? Things that hold great meaning or importance should be read more than once. And, everytime you read it, you may get another aspect out of it. Different people will understand different things when they read this relating to what's going on in their own lives. It showed me something it didn't show me last time.

Also, I don't want to hear any technicalities of the story.

The Window

Two men, both seriously ill, occupied the same hospital room. One man was allowed to sit up in his bed for an hour each afternoon to help drain the fluid from his lungs. His bed was next to the room's only window. The other man had to spend all his time flat on his back.

The men talked for hours on end. They spoke of their wives and families, their homes, their jobs, their involvement in the military service, where they had been on vacation.

Every afternoon when the man in the bed by the window could sit up, he would pass the time by describing to his roommate all the things he could see outside the window.

The man in the other bed began to live for those one-hour periods where his world would be broadened and enlivened by all the activity and color of the world outside.

The window overlooked a park with a lovely lake. Ducks and swans played on the water while children sailed their model boats. Young lovers walked arm in arm amidst flowers of every color and a fine view of the city skyline could be seen in the distance.

As the man by the window described all this in exquisite detail, the man on the other side of the room would close his eyes and imagine the picturesque scene.

One warm afternoon the man by the window described a parade passing by. Although the other man couldn't hear the band - he could see it. In his mind's eye as the gentleman by the window portrayed it with descriptive words.

Days and weeks passed. One morning, the day nurse arrived to bring water for their baths only to find the lifeless body of the man by the window, who had died peacefully in his sleep. She was saddened and called the hospital attendants to take the body away.

As soon as it seemed appropriate, the other man asked if he could be moved next to the window. The nurse was happy to make the switch, and after making sure he was comfortable, she left him alone.

Slowly, painfully, he propped himself up on one elbow to take his first look at the real world outside. He strained to slowly turn to look out the window beside the bed. It faced a blank wall.

The man asked the nurse what could have compelled his deceased roommate who had described such wonderful things outside this window. The nurse responded that the man was blind and could not even see the wall. She said, "Perhaps he just wanted to encourage you."

Epilogue: There is tremendous happiness in making others happy, despite our own situations.
Shared grief is half the sorrow, but happiness when shared, is doubled.

If you want to feel rich, just count all the things you have that money can't buy.

With love...
~*~

6 lovers | just breathe

SeraphimRhapsody

:: 2003 10 November :: 11.29pm
:: Mood: sleepy
:: Music: "Unwell" ~Matchbox 20

Unraveled into Randomness
Today was sorta strange... Argh I hate roller coasters.

To start I'll say.. things with Kai were where I tried to avoid. I told Kyo not to tell her I asked about her... but he didn't listen apparently. And.. I told myself people have a reason for doing stuff like posting where they are or saying something about my birthday.. like their mom having multiple possibilities of cancer. See? So I tell myself: 'Don't blame her for not being around, something must've happened. Just get over it and wait for her to get back but keep the relationship distant.' Easy. Just not think about it right? Damnit Kyo I didn't need to know why she'd been away. I didn't need her to feel more pressure presumed to be from me when she's dealing with that. She can come back when she wants.
Yes, I know all of you know what I'm talking about here. Just ignore this.

So. Thinking about that stuff throughout the day.
Math: Test back, not bad. Guess I'll stick it out it calc. *sigh* If Krystle and Leah can muddle through it then I can.

English: Told myself last night that I had better finally run through my oral.... Guess what? My group, last one left, had room for one to go before class ended. Gabe was no where near ready. Shelly wasn't mentally ready to give it. Dorjan stole my idea of being a grader. Yes, yes. I volunteered to go and save everyone's asses. You guys so owe me.
So it went well I think.. Of course I was nervous, and not as prepared as I would have liked.. and missed some stuff I wanted to say.. but ah well. I loved Natalia's score for me! 5, 9, 8, 5! What's better than that huh? Schilit gipped me on her grade. Got a 21 overall. The whole class I think was just like: "What in the world is she saying? Kristen's oral was great!" MUAHAHA

History: 84, 87, 74. That DBQ was just to screw us into the ground. I'll live. Hall actually didn't bite my head off when I showed him the note to excuse me 4 extra days before Thanksgiving! I was happy.

Band: Watched Blast for 2 hours. That is such an awesome show!! Even better live! ^____^ Substitutes are awesome. Though I wish I could've worked on the duet I have to play for Lerner next class... Ah well.

Went up to the mall with mom and Katie after school. Pretty good. Some jackets, a shirt, and finally a pair of shoes. However, this is where the really freaky scary thing happened.

We were in Journey's and mom saw this shirt with the Orange City Choppers on it and nearly flipped. She went off on what a great show it was and was soon chatting with the young punk sales kid about it. HAHA It was SO scary! Small bit of shameless flirting on my part as I was trying on said shirt which we eventually bought. But.. she had a whole conversation with this guy! And they were laughing and reminiscing and all that and wow, me and Katie just looked at each other and blinked. Freaky man.

Tomorrow should be fun. Hopefully back up to the mall for supplies for the trip. Then a visit to Shelly to see Matrix 2. So awesome that she lives only 5 minutes from me!!! ^_____^

With love....
~*~

1 love | just breathe

SeraphimRhapsody

:: 2003 5 November :: 9.05pm
:: Mood: amused

RunRunRun Around
Had such a good day I had to write about it! Don't get too excited though.. there were downfalls.

Math test.
Spanish was torture.
Health! That was were the fun came in.

We walked in and there he was. Yes he. Not Fochtman. A sub. Our favorite class to have a sub. The beginning of my good day was here: before the bell had rung and I was cold so I said, "I'm cold." There's this senior who's all quiet and everything and he actually went up to the sub and asked if he could turn the air of for a while since I was cold. I was just like 'AWWWW!' Now this sub was quite laid back and we all got a packet for the test review. I was so not gonna spend my time doing that, so first I got a pass to the IBO. Took care of my stuff in a surprise meeting with Ms. Kelly then back to class. Waited a while for 2nd lunch and did a bit of the packet.

I really did think Katie had 2nd lunch... so I went to go give her 7 of the copies of stuff from the IBO. Stopped by part of the group.. said hi. Moved down the stairs and right here was the highlight of the day: Thiago gets up and runs over and gives me a hug! (It's the first lunch we've ever [sorta] had at the same time.) Went over to visit him and Erik (who also wanted a hug), Tom, and some others I didn't really know. Talked to them a bit. Left to hunt for my sister. Returned to the girls from the group. Talked to them for a while. Back to health. The rest of the birthing movie was playing so I pulled out my cd player and the Squall and listened to Joseph mess with people and the other random convos. Quite funny. Bell rang and lunch.

Lunch was uneventful.
Chem was harsh. Pop quiz just because we were stressing over the surprise possibility of a pop and us not knowing the stuff that would be on it. Bad scores on my test. Erik dared to bring up that topic again. Such an insult. I swear if you want to know why that kind of thing can't happen some days then CALL ME otherwise I told you not to bring it up.

After school was fun too.
Chat with John and Nick. John's really cool and quite cute. Very polite and smart I hear. (Side note: He has a girlfriend. I'm not saying anything here.) That was a fun convo. Stop by Key Club, no packet to pick up, make fun of Danny and Erik. Off to SNHS for a waste of my time meeting in which I'm very unhappy to hear of someone else involved in Caridad and chat a bit with Allison (BTW Bravo to Allison to going to a meeting! ^.^). Run over to MAO for the end, grab a lollipop, do a bit of math, discuss the math test, and get some advice from Power.

At the moment there is no studying going on. Don't wanna! ARGH. Stupid history that keeps coming back! Oral better not be tomorrow as well... GRRR

With love...

2 lovers | just breathe

Seraphimrhapsody

:: 2003 4 November :: 9.32pm
:: Mood: contemplative
:: Music: Goo Goo Dolls

I Love You
Just watched 8 Simple Rules for Dating my Teenage Daughter, the episode where John Ritter's character dies. Teared (that's tear-ed) toward the end.. not much in the mood to fight tears and it was very well done. I.. hadn't known of the actor or that he died, I don't pay much attention to those kinds of things. But.. I do enjoy the series and how it displays things.. and I did love how the dad acted and responded.. such love came from that family.

[tangent] Anyone ever noticed those families on tv that always end on a happy note? Where everyone loves the others and you can just tell everything is really great. And after the show you have to smile cause you actually felt some sense of togetherness, even if it was all fake.
Well, I would sometimes wish for a family like that. Why can't my parents be like that? Why can't my family have that kind of relationship? And all of that. Kay, enough of this stuff.
[/end tangent] (<~parenthetical docs to Amanda for now and future use)

'..love how the dad acted.' 'Love those guys.' 'Love him too.' The last two were from convos with people. So.. yeah. I've been saying things along the lines of 'love you' a lot lately. Now's a good time to ask 'why' eh? Read Amanda's post and I was like 'Hey, it means a lot to me and I don't say it unless I really mean it. I really dislike the people who throw it around too.' Then I'm like.. 'Wait.. didn't I just say "I love that kid!" at least once today?' So. I thought some more on it. (Yeah, a lot more since her post was a few days ago.)

I've known for a while how much I care for things and people.. but a lot of the time I have a hard time figuring out how to show it. I used to just say "I love you" to my family.. when going to bed or leaving or something. And some times I know I'd say it partly because I was afraid of the things that might happen between then and the next time I saw them.. (ie death, people) but still always because I did love them.

It's only been lately that I've said it of people... not to them exactly.. maybe to one or two.. but of people. "I love my section." I really do love them. The kids. It's how I am I guess. I actually mean it when I say it... So I think maybe Amanda's post doesn't relate to me... since she said 'most'.. but...... I dunno.

I also noted the impulse to end the posts with 'With love..' I'm thinking of stopping that and just putting in '~*~'. Any comments on that?

?????

~~Forgot to add this:
The reason I started out with the show.. was cause you never know when will be the last moment you'll spend with someone you care about. So.. saying "I love you" everytime you see someone you feel deserves it... isn't really over using it or being insincere. In fact it's almost the opposite..

2 lovers | just breathe

Seraphimrhapsody

:: 2003 4 November :: 9.08pm
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: In My Mind ~Ataris

Jumble of threads tied tightly still does not make a bow.
Hooray for Ruth!! Today is her 15th birthday! YAY!!

Kudos to Kyu for the donuts. Definitely grand.

Math test... I think I did.. okay. But.. I really don't like it when I have to ask Power questions. I know he hates answering but then feels bad and gives people hints so they'll get it...... Yeah. So on that note I had worked out about 4 different answers for 6 and 7 when I had to ask him to better clarify. Therefore I think I got what they wanted for those... whether or not they're right.

I.. felt dizzy in that class. It was weird. I sat there.. and suddenly the room was shifting, literaly. Going back and forth and I was just like 'Stop!! AHHH!' So I was pretty sure I'd collapse sometime soon.. hoped it was before the history test.

I know why I was so dizzy too... I didn't eat much yesterday. Like.. less than usual. Not my fault! Dad's away. Which means mom's here.... and she... yeah. So there's no food here. And, we all feel asleep after the alarm got us up yesterday morning... Katie got up at 6:58 and is like.. 'Oops.' So I got to get ready in 5 minutes! Definitely a record for school-readiness. First time I haven't eatten breakfast as well. Grapes and chex mix for snacks. Ice cream for lunch. Not much for after school snacks. Dinner... was like a bowl of popcorn. Yummy eh? And don't anyone dare post comments satirizing this section of this post.

Back to today...
English we got a lecture on doing other hw in her [Shilit's] class.. then I went back to reviewing history. I really wasn't ready for that.. I was also pretty sure I'd be doing my oral today.. Thank you God I was wrong!

History test... horrid IDs.. not sure.. but eh.

Band.. painful. Yeahyeah but a half hour lecture on how we'll be graded on how well we play a level 5 snare solo (There were grumbles from musically-oriented seniors on that piece!! It really is impossible for all but Paul, who spent the whole class teaching people.) then 2ish hours on the vibes. Playing little. Half the class was on mallets. The other half was drumming away on chairs. oO;; Wow we were going nuts.

Dad drove all the way back here for something that didn't happen and we are all pissed at (however no one more than me and him). So he's left again. Grand.

What else?
Eh, haven't done any work. Still sorta dizzy... But dad went out special and got us dinner. So I had something.

Other news!
Yesterday, instead of studying history and math, I fell back into Neopets (of which I'm an elder! : P!!!) and got caught up in the avatar craze. It was awesome!! I got 15 avatars in one day! So proud! Stayed up till 12 to get this one... bed at 1.. OH! That would be why I'm tired!

I am also now the proud owner of the following:

MUAHAHAHA *Steals bandwidth*

To see more pretties along with my pride and joy (Shal) go here.

??????

P.S. Up next is a special post about deep stuff. MUAH! Have fun.

Oh and yes, this is how I work. Massive late posts and editing old ones and all that complicated stuff. Greatness.
^.^

4 lovers | just breathe

Seraphimrhapsody

:: 2003 25 October :: 9.07pm

~~Reserved in update of FBA~~

1 love | just breathe

Seraphimrhapsody

:: 2003 24 October :: 9.00pm

~Reserved in update of my birthday~~

just breathe

seraphimrhapsody

:: 2003 1 November :: 11.29pm
:: Music: "In My Diary" The Ataris

User# 15843
Quite impressive. Number 15,843.

Alright! Yeah, so you guys (prominent credit to Amanda) wanted a journal you could all post comments on.. So here ya go!

Make a note this is my.. fourth? Yeah, fourth journal in existance. *Shifty eyes* I had woohu before all of you!! *evil cackle* [MUAH! Don't start with me on this..] ^.^

So it being the fourth... yeah, it may not have as many updates as frequently as some may like. But now that I've said that it'll be the second most frequent. People from xanga will be directed here in copy of Amanda since xanga hates me and causes my computer to crash.

On another note.. comments that I make on other people's journals still might be under ~*~ if I don't feel like switching into this one. And anyone who tries to track down certain other things have no decency and will be destroyed.

Everyone happy with my new journal? It'll be pretty-fied eventually... Really it will be..

With Love..

6 lovers | just breathe