wow...I have been neglecting you poor woohu I think I am outgrowing this childish phase....perhaps not I'm sure I have a lot to say let us begin...

My new mental/physical health regime....see livejournal for details on that but I think it is a genuinely good idea and I would like to reiterate that I am a fucking genius. I realized today how much I really do think about him and how hard it is to control your thoughts. And the knowledge that I would have to do many crunches and push ups as a result of such thoughts made me really fight hard to drown them out of my head....I think I started singing Beat It in my head on the bus ride home just to be ridiculous and block everything else out. But the mental struggle actually kind of wore me out Anand said I ended up passed out for half of the ride home.

let's see what else have I been up to....saw the notebook this weekend with michelle and lauren after becomming devirginized to cold stones....it was long overdue that place is fucking awesome. Earlier that day lauren and I decided to see what the whole spray tan thing was about....kind of a waste of $25 but it was an experience. I was actually really dark for like a day but if you don't have a base tan to start off with it fades pretty quickly. Afterwards we went back to laurens house to play with the puppies. I want to steal them so bad they're adorable.

SAturday went with my parents to cityplace to see spiderman 2 I thought ti was good but my mom was being such a pain in the ass in the movie because she was bored...such a child

4th of july sat on my ass watching movies no fire works for me....seen em once you've seen em all. Plus I had no1 to go watch them with it's kind of depressing with ur parents and no friends or guy...idk.

Monday I drove us all to boca to meet me family for lunch as PF changs my aunt brought the baby so my mom was happy. I don't understand ppl who like babies....OMG he shut his eyes its so amazing its a fuckign miracle....who cares? When he's old enough to cure cancer I'll be impressed.

Today was the LAST day of summer school WOOOHOOOO. I'm going to miss it a bit I always end up making really good friendships in summer school every year it never fails. It's just a different atmosphere it's nice. They really should let us have breaks during the school year again it's so great. But yeah people like Ashley Treu and Rich (tho he is leaving now isnt he) who I never really talked to before and especially Amy and Christine I was never really close with but I really enjoyed their company and hopefully we will continue the friendship next year. And then there was people I was already pretty good friends with like Liz and Janyll and Adam. I'm going to miss the endless card games and the silliness. lol sharks in the forest....lord farquar....90's pop notebook etc etc...telling embarassing middle school stories and the uncontrollable laughing. lol how did we ever fit biology into these few weeks all I seem to remember is the free time. I feel so safe with all of my fellow IB losers we can all be in our own little world together.

We did have our exam today it was really easy we played biology jeopardy before lunch cuz we are gay like that and the rest of the day was just chillin in the room. I gave adam some real honest advice because it's just what I do and he got a little upset but hopefully not too much. I hope he sees that I'm right somewhere down the road. lol we did have a lot of fun today tho he tried to carry me down the hallway (at his own risk i mind u i warned him) and almost got a hernia. Janyll Amy and Adam locked me in the physics room and I was mad scared then we we were all running through the rooms like little kids. German was chasing someone down the hall it was just altogether immature craziness. So yup back to conditioning and dance tomorrow then it's GAINSVILLE! yup I'm still super excited to go away away away....bah I def have mroe to say but this is getting ridiculous. I guess I havnt grown out of it yet...

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