that is so retro

:: 2004 25 April :: 4.27pm
:: Mood: crazy
:: Music: Don't Tell Me // Avril Lavigne

work was pleasant.

i worked with walter all day today, fun! thank god he was there because it was s0o damn slow. we were picking on tom & pissing him off, making fun of kevin's hair, making fun of steven, & i was picking on walter for the wet spot he left on his butt.... eye level lol. hell yea it is.

anyways... idk why i'm s0o pissy. maybe its cause my dad is offering to pay for my phone bill this week which means i could have spent another $60 at the mall but instead i decided to save it for my bill... which i now... don't have to pay. or maybe its because my mom borrowed $100 off me... for her trip to chicago... which she claims to pay back on thursday. maybe its because i have all this money and because i want a car, i have to spend it on car insurance rather than new clothes. or maybe its because erica jipped me an hour of work today because she knew i am making $7 an hour, and didn't want me making more than i usually do.

o how i love the real world and the money.

perhaps i'm going to go out to dinner with daddy & my brother to a mexican resturant 2night. hehe.

did i mention... i love being able to spend my money... i haven't done it in so long, and i love having someone to shop with- who doesn't care about how much she spends or how long we stay in the mall, and i love being able to talk to someone who is so much older than i am about life, because her advice helps.

i love having my boyfriend, and the love. the feeling of being strong even though we rarely get together... but those butterflies that i get in my tummy every time i see him.... it just makes this world feel great. i miss hema. i love danielle & the friendship we have.

peace 0ut. A-Town Down.

P.S // thank u 4 the compliments on my journal. <3

2 . | <3

:: 2004 25 April :: 12.15pm
:: Mood: lonely... yeah yeah yeah so is everyone.
:: Music: billy joel - "she's got a way"

it's my turn.
watching disney movie, "ring of endless light". i guess mischa barton was always good at getting mad at the boys she likes. i see why she was casted for OC. she's great at being emotional. this movie even makes me cry too.

so that part when she and that guy were on the beach, dancing, and they kissed. and then later, she went inside and said "... wow."

yeah... i.
i miss that feeling.

i have nothing to do today. my parents are going to some friends party and i am left home alone with leftover chinese and no one to talk to. oh well. i could start on long-term homework. but will i?... not unless i'm SO bored that i can't stand it.

i wish i knew that someone felt about me like how the lyrics in this song are.

she's got a way about her.
don't know what it is, but i know that i can't live without her.
she's got a way of pleasing.
don't know what it is, but there doesnt have to be a reason anyway.
she's got a smile that heals me,
i don't know what it is, but i have to laugh when she reveals me.
she's got a way of talking,
don't know what it is, but it lifts me up when we are walking anywhere.
she comes to me when i'm feeling down, inspires me.
without a sound, she touches me, and i get turned around.
she's got a way of showing me,
how i make her feel and i find the strength to keep on going.
she's got a light around her,
and everywhere she goes a million rings of love surround her everywhere.
she comes to me when i'm feeling down, inspires me.
without a sound, she touches me, i get turned around.
she's got a smile that heals me,
i don't know what it is, but i have to laugh when she reveals me.
she's got a way about her, don't know what it is.
but i know that i can't live without her.

4 . | <3

:: 2004 25 April :: 10.26am
:: Mood: tired as hell
:: Music: shhh quiet please

so much for being good...
Still a bit drunk from last night...I had fun while I was concious. Last party before all my seniors leave (unless her parents go out of town over the summer) but still it was sad.

Joey Gomez was there b4 it got started dropping sum1 off it was weird. Ashley's cousin Zach was also there...He's cool so that wasn't weird but still it was weird.

Steve went out and got us plenty of stuff the twins were there. lol I had so much trouble keeping track of which was Alejandro and which was Alberto. Elon came he's hilarious...almost ended up sleeping with **NOBODY**apparantly. Chris was there for a bit I was so mean to him I was like get drunk or get out.

I stuck with Jose all night (lol no not another spanish guy just my bf jose cuervo <3) after about 10 tequila shots I was dead to the world I blacked out on the couch and woke up in the same position the next morning...I'm such a light weight.

Zach and that guy Gary were playing guitar and every1 was singing it was fun. Elon dancing on the patio was hilarious...me and alejandro having balancing competitions very amusing I think he let me win once out of pity cuz I didn't see him drinking at all.

Well I'm meeting heather and danielle at the mall in a few hrs...must sober up...take a shower take a nap...I'm exhausted

~have a good weekend~

:: 2004 24 April :: 9.18pm
:: Mood: lovable.
:: Music: Turn Me On // Kevin Lyttle

today was deliciously lovely.
it's days like today that i love.

woke up at 1:30pm. found all my clothes lying around the house. here's the reason:

Daddy got home from Marlins game with Tim & my bro around 12am. Daddy & Tim hung out in my garage until about 5am this morning. Carol came here after work around 2:30am. They all went out & since she didn't wanna wear her work clothes, she grabbed some of mine.

anyways, after i woke up... Carol called & asked to go hang out at the pool with her. which i did. then around 4:30pm:

CAROL: "i REALLY want those green capris that u bought, & i have to go get my ring from the boynton mall sometime."
ME: "Let's go!"
CAROL: "Alright, let's go."
ME: "...i was only kidding."
CAROL: "o. let's go."

so we went home, got dressed, & buzzed off in the escalade lookin' all pimp. got to boynton, parked in B.F.E. & went into American Eagle. Bought a new outfit. she bought the outfit i already had cause she was dying for my pants & she bought the outfit i bought today... only in a different color & size.

got home. called jonah. went out to dinner with daddy. that chinese place had me laughing for hours. old people. old people with big white beards. chinese people with funny accents. lobster bibs. lotsa food. lotsa laughs.

now, i'm calling it a night. i might get ready for bed... do some hw. idk. we'll see.

1o.12.o3 x`o
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3 . | <3

:: 2004 24 April :: 6.53pm
:: Mood: happy

yes sirry... this is what i bought this week <3
yoel put his AE wish list up, so i put up my list of what i bought this week. <3 take a lookie... x`o`x`o

AMERiCAN EAGLE

AMERiCAN EAGLE

AMERiCAN EAGLE

AMERiCAN EAGLE

AMERiCAN EAGLE

AMERiCAN EAGLE

HOLLiSTER

HOLLiSTER

HOLLiSTER

boricuababy

:: 2004 24 April :: 10.29am
:: Mood: aggravated
:: Music: bling bling

ugh..
yea my dad didnt show up last nite to pick us up..itz nutten new..but i wuz countin on him to take us out somewhere..i havent done nething in like forevvverrr..cuz im still grounded and all..blahhh..so dat made me kinda pissed..so im home..bored..he sed he wuz gonna pick us up today wen he getz off from work which is aroun 4-ish..so itz juss me n jon..mom n pat had to work overtime today..bcuz the company is movin into another building and they hafta help..sucks for them..i can tell already that 2day is gonna be a lazy bum day..watchin tv in shit.. ehh..oh well..x0x0

3 . | <3

Lizzy

:: 2004 23 April :: 11.40pm
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: Sweet dreams are made of these

pics :)
i have a cameraaaaa. so happy :) note to self :mustnotbreakit!

today: hard to remember! afternoon- natalia drove me and kat to dq. yum. people from loggers worked there. then hung out at her house for a bit....(this is the pic part) then christine rach and i went out to tj maxx and spent a loong time there got some stuff tho so its all good...<3 busy wknd ahead..a performacne and 2 parties...whopee. it should be fun!

omg today in kickball..so funnyyy...we were running around the bases and so this kid with me on my base (haitian) goes "l.skdnf;slkdgnj ya know what i'm saying?" and i was like..."umm..actually. i don't lol"

4 . | <3

:: 2004 22 April :: 9.21pm
:: Mood: happy

Half day today, turned out pretty good. !st hr was...well english who cares about english. The government test actually didn't seem that bad considering all I did was read the outline 5 minutes before the test we'll see. Health we had a sub and she left no work. I was NOT in the mood to sit in a room with those people for an hour so I got out an old pass told the guy sum shit about a rehersal and headed for the dance room.

On the way there I heard the familiar sound of "Jessica Brandi is such a skank" from somethere above. lol I looked up and saw alicia and hillary and some other seniors I kinda knew just chillin outside of their english class. They were supposed to be doing work or something but they were'nt so I went up there and sat and chilled with them until they had to go in. Jimmy had been a skank and left me messages from home laughing at me for being in school so I called him and talked to him for a bit. lol I love how when your in the annex you can do whatever you want. When they had to go in I did make my way over to the dance room and watched a few minutes of Chorus Line with the class in there until the bell rang.

Went to stats...actually pulled an 81 on the AP mock...couldnt have done it without logan but eh what can ya do. lol spent a lot fo time making fun of Dave's soccer trophy considering half of my dance ones are big enough to eat it.

I had caught michelle in the hallway earlier and asked her for a ride so I met her in the annex after school and we made r way over to her car. Hillary was parked next to her so we decided to go out to lunch. We got a lil held up though because Hillary decided to be nice and give this girl in the parking lot a jump when her car wouldnt start. lol I was a little scared they were going to blow sumthing up since no1 knew what they were doing. We ended up getting like 5 people to help. After a wonderful meal at burger king (lol I only had $5) we went to michelle's house to chill. Finally got to see her brother even though it was only for a few minutes. We sat around and looked at pictures for the eagle ette slide show messed with the computer a lil...it was good times. I came home and fell asleep for about 4 hours then woke up for dinner. Now I'm talkin to CHUB and co.

I want to go to prom so bad!!!!! I'm so jealous they are all getting a room at embassy suites where shariffs party and sum other ones I think are going on. They all wanted me to go but going home after (which I would have had to do) would have been pointless plus I'm broke, dresses and updo's are expensive. eh Next year...to bad they will all be gone : (

I'm going to cry at banquet....

I'm not going to get captain or co- captain I know it I'm so nervous about my audition and my interview whichis on monday eeekkkk!!

ok well that was pretty damn boring for you all I'm sure....again fuck you no one makes you read it. : )

~Jess~

3 . | <3

:: 2004 22 April :: 7.55pm

shopping til' ur dropping.

Carol :
+$200 in Hollister.
+$160 on a D & B bag.
+$ 50 on Makeup.
---------------------------
=$410 total.

Booty Girl :
+$150 on Coach shoes.
+$100 on Makeup.
+$ 80 in Hollister.
+$ 50 on a Coach Wallet.
---------------------------
=$380 total.

Me :
+$ 68 in Hollister.
+$ 95 in American Eagle.
---------------------------
=$163 total.

spending g's.

i haven't eaten anything but two candy bars today. i'm so scared.

what i've tried to do isn't right... and i can't succeed... but i'm not going to give up trying. i need to feel good again. really good. not even shopping does me anything any more... maybe because.... yeah. i'm done. i'm going to do homework.

<3 Carol & Booty. i've found new people to shop with, and talk with. that's that. i don't need anybody else anymore. i've tried getting together with people & doing those girly things with someone for too long. i'm sick of searching. i don't care how old these two are. Carol = 36 & Booty = 22. they both look 19 yrs old & some guy thought we were all sisters. so i'm done.

"this doesn't do anything for me."
"b, u wanna sign?" +in front of the Coach Manager+ haha, <3

:: 2004 22 April :: 5.51pm
:: Music: konstantine

just doing the daily past time
=*(

i'm sooo tired and i'm so fucking pissed. and crying. and i feel like shit because i wanted sleep but every single time i was going to fall asleep, my mom calls me to go downstairs and do something.

it was a nice day with adam and danielle though. they make me smile a lot.

i'm soooo... it hurts so much. the tears just wont stop running down my face because my eyes and body are so tired.

tripping. hyperventilating.

i don't wanna be here in the future.
i don't wanna look much closer.
all this hope i sent into the sky had crashed.

2 . | <3

sammibaby

:: 2004 22 April :: 5.33pm
:: Mood: rise-N-shine

today was a half day! got to sleep n rest! ahh..felt good!!

boricuababy

:: 2004 22 April :: 1.54pm
:: Mood: pain
:: Music: where tha party at??

ouchhhh..it hurtssss..:(
i got a major fuckin beat down in P.E today..lol..carlos hit me wid tha basketball twice..he sed sorry but i got really mad..not at him tho..juss because of tha fact that i got hit and because i got hit in tha face..u guyz kno how i am bout stuff like dat..well tha first time it hit me like on my neck/ear/jaw area and i heard a snap in my jaw..wooo..dat freaked me out..i thot like i broke my jaw or sum shit like dat..lol..den i checked my earring and it got dented!!! omg..dat pissed me off..der my NAME EARRINGS!! i wear em all tha time..hopefully i can get it fixed..but dat got me more mad..and den i got hit on my back..lol..but yea..datz wha happened 2day..

1 . | <3

:: 2004 21 April :: 10.13pm
:: Music: listening to michael jackson sing on south park lmao

chemistry: did our lab write up. i nailed that. it was so easy. gotta have a good grade.

stats: 74% on the mock AP test. awesome. nooo cheating at all. <3

economics: listened to epstein lecture, & took the practice test 29/60. yikes.

art hist: passed notes all over. nothing special.

bus ride home: hadda boy talk between me, danielle, ashley c, and ashley t. nice stuff. i loved that.

came home, typed up all epstein's notes. now i'm stuck with writing morone's paper... which i don't want to. damn.

what to do, what to do?

:: 2004 21 April :: 9.54pm
:: Mood: grateful

An Email ThaT a FrienD sEnT me.
TO REALIZE

To realize
The value of a sister
Ask someone
Who doesn't have one.
To realize
The value of ten years:
Ask a newly
Divorced couple.
To realize
The value of four years:
Ask a graduate.
To realize
The value of one year:
Ask a student who
Has failed a final exam.
To realize
The value of nine months:
Ask a mother who gave birth to a still born.
To realize
The value of one month:
Ask a mother who has
Given birth to a premature baby.
To realize
The value of one week:
Ask an editor of a weekly newspaper.
To realize
The value of one hour:
Ask the lovers who are waiting to Meet.
To realize
The value of one minute:
Ask a person
Who has missed the train, bus or plane.
To realize
The value of one-second:
Ask a person
Who has survived an accident.
To realize
The value of one millisecond:
Ask the person who has
Won a silver medal in the Olympics.
To realize the value of a friend:
Lose one.
Time waits For no one.
Treasure every moment you have.
You will treasure it even more when
you can share it with someone special.

bocaheath05

:: 2004 21 April :: 9.16pm

i forgot to add that my quarter was stolen by this black girl in the lunchline. she came up and asked if her taco could be rang up with my chips, and i gave a dollar ( the chips were $0.75). never got my quarter back.

fucker

:: 2004 21 April :: 6.21pm
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: seether f/ amy lee - "broken"

tiredness.
i just feel tired of life in general. i don't feel like i really have anything to live for. well, maybe my weekends. yeah, i love those. but regular life, in school, no. frustration? ... not cool. i have lots to say and i have no idea what to say.

____ is the bane of my existence.
everything else, i feel so secure with. i just... i'm gonna be so happy when i know i'll never have to set foot in that classroom ever again. although i feel a little better lately about it cuz now all we do is dbqs and as long as i dont have to listen to him lecture about stuff i dont understand, i'm good. that movie we watched last class made me emotional, i was gonna cry when the soldier shot the vietnamese man. it just reminds me of my grandpa or something. (he fought in the war... not for the north though.) i just hope that i can raise it to an A. and pass the AP exam. i gotta start studying. sometime.

social life? eh, let's ignore that for a while.
wish list = win a date with tad hamilton, chasing liberty
may 1 = happiness (hopefully) for kat, sunfest with gavin and michelle

after school is done on friday, i am OUT. to texas. just living until that day comes.

i like this song.
i wanna hold you high and steal your pain away.
i kept your photograph and i know it serves me well.
i'm broken when i'm lonesome and i don't feel right when you're gone away.
the worst is over now. and we can breathe again.
i wanna hold you high and steal your pain away.
there's so much left to learn and no one left to find.
cuz i'm broken when i'm open and i don't feel like i am strong enough.
i am broken when i'm lonesome and i don't feel right when you're gone away.

bocaheath05

:: 2004 21 April :: 5.24pm

just saw christina's journal and noticed she said she was watching cluless last night....HAHA i was too, i totally love that movie.

i think that i am like cher because we both have guy problems and stuff. i so want to be her. clueless has seriously changed my life.

last night i tried to help alex with his algebra, i forgot it. he was so stoned, maybe i knew this because he kept saying "heather, i'm so stoned"

oh, how i can love certain people and hate certain people at the same time

boricuababy

:: 2004 21 April :: 5.19pm
:: Mood: blahh

i am so0o confused and i dont like it..anyways

"i exist in the depths of solitude pondering my true goal trying to find peace of mind and still preserve my soul..constantly yearning to be accepted and from all receive respect never comprising but sometimes risky and that is my only regret a young heart with an old soul how can there be peace..how can i be in the depths of solitude when there are two inside me..this duo within me causes the perfect opportunity to learn and live twice as fast as those who accept simplicity.."

sammibaby

:: 2004 21 April :: 4.26pm
:: Mood: i have a headache

summary of emotions...
i just want everything to go away. i want to just start the week over. get off on the right foot. have things like they were. but i can't do that, it's impossible. so what i really want to do is just forget EVERYTHING. but that is also impossible for me to do, because once it happens- it's burnt onto my brain. and it wont go away until it's fully resolved. so the final solution to my dilema is to keep talking things through and hopefully it will all work out. and i hope this will happen SOON. i really can't take much more. today i actually asked to be excused from class because i was crying, i have never ever done that before. usually, i can hold it all in and appear to be perfectly normal, but i'm at breaking points. it's finally come to that. and i hate it. i don't want people to know i'm upset. and, i'm sorry but i really can't/don't want to tell you guys what's going on. but i will be fine, just gotta stay strong, and convince myself it will all work out for the better. thank you for your concern though, that meant enough. don't think you have to do anything more. heh. that's basically it.

~sam

1 . | <3

:: 2004 20 April :: 11.59pm
:: Mood: light headed

lalala
i'm walking on sunshine. so alone in this state of mind. someone join me? if u do, i'll wipe all the dirt off ur shoulders.

just be my friend.
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1o - 12 - o3
i love how u call during the bad times, like when i'm ABOUT to fall asleep. cause when i get off the phone, your simple talks release stress & energy... and it makes the world go round... much easier. i love u.

1 . | <3

:: 2004 20 April :: 10.12pm

Notes:

*practice canceled wasted half the afternoon sleeping
*did bad on the AP mock I know it
*barely finished my spanish project due tomorrow
*Have another project due thursday....have yet to start
*I'm getting sum IB chick to tutor me in chemistry...I don't even want to bother
*hopefully going to the mall with heather sunday
*HOPEFULLY going to danielle h's post prom night party on saturday
*show on saturday morning
*it hurts me when he hurts himself...it hurts when he hurts me....he made me cry again
*I don't cry
*drugs are bad for you
*I need some desperately : \
*my friend tried to kill himself....i think...he upsets me too
*I miss the simple happy times
*I miss the beach at night
*I love Gilmore Girls
*OC tomorrow more therapy (the show that is)
*someone had sex on danielle's bed
*Government test thursday.....no
*A Kiss Kan Kill......
*I'm dying here

*Jess*

:: 2004 20 April :: 9.30pm
:: Mood: uhhhhh.

watching clueless

has made a lot of my frustrating feelings go away.

watch it.

"we're friends because we both know what it's like to have people be jealous of us."
*everyone will wanna look just like me. cuz i'm gonna look so beautiful. i'm gonna be a supermodel.*

it makes me smile. =)

3 . | <3

Lizzy

:: 2004 20 April :: 9.20pm

quick update:

life's been good(ish). today practice was canceled and my mom and i went shopping for upcoming birthdays for mis amigos. i like spending time with my mom :) love.

2 . | <3

alwaysfalling

:: 2004 19 April :: 11.41pm
:: Mood: awake
:: Music: ben folds - the luckiest

thank you for the compliments on my journal and yes pretam, i do cut the grass, thats how i get the little muscle that i do have, i even have a hill in my backyard that i have to push that thing up.

i love being awake when no one else is. it gives me time to sit online and just think and wonder. tonight, i thought about guys and who they affect my life. i've come to this:

"boys, sometimes i girl just needs one..."
i've never been dependent on a guy, nor do i ever plan to be. i do plan on falling in love with one though. i like being independent in my own ways. i always thought that a boy is just someone to come along on the ride though and be there when you need him, a good friend. i still think that. i like living in my own world, where disney is real, so any guy that is willing to deal with that then i say you can come with me, just leave me alone when i want to be free. who knows. if you have no idea what i am saying, just ignore that.

lets see what else i thought about, oh yes, religion. lately, i've been thinking about it a lot. i'm still "finding myself" and when i'm finished, i'll tell you exactly what i am. right now though, i'm just clueles, i believe in God and know that I am a christian, now i'm jsut wondering what kind of christian i am. my parents are both catholic. my dad is still practicing, my mom says she is but hasn't been to church in over a year. *shrug* i don't see myself as being a catholic though, some things in that religion i just disagree with.

memory lane is so much fun, jessica and i took another stroll down it tonight. we realized how much things have changed in these past few months. look at homecoming to now. what the heck happened? things i guess. remember that night? i mean i know there were some bad moments, but remember the good? remember the beach? the glowing moon, the waves, the sand, my baby boy dance, the cool breeze? remember the dancing? the laughs? when at least more than one person gets a car, we need to make that trip to the beach again and experience.

i wish people were more content with life. life is so wonderful. live everyday as it was your last, for you and only you. regrets are not fun. my cousin has this thing on his profile it says, "don't take life too seriously, you'll never get out alive anyways." so enjoy, and experience the bittersweet.

and if thats all bullshit.... you only have 27 more days left of school til summer.

<3 love.

11 . | <3

:: 2004 19 April :: 9.54pm
:: Mood: dreamy

2nd entry for today.
i was just over at Carol's house. and for those of u who don't know, Carol is about 32 yrs. old, and she is the coolest person u will ever know. she's a sucker for hollister, AE, A&F, Coach, D&B, etc. she's like my second mother. <3

anyways, i told her about my day. then we got into stuff about her marriage. and then we got into shopping... we picked out the purse that we are gonna go buy thursday after school. Booty Girl (22 yrs. old, went to atlantic, her real name is Carol *also* and she used to be an eagle ette) she is goin' shoppin' with me & Carol too. "how could u not tell me that u 2 are going shopping?!" hehe. so yeah, it should be fun. anyways... i'm out for the night, a nice bubble bath & the Usher CD will do me some good.

that college lady didn't come tonight. perhaps she will REALLY come tomorrow... considering she has cancelled two times already.

let me step out of reality
and into my fantasies
with just a touch of my toe
into the rippling flow
escape from my mentality
and enter my world of love.

this place is insanity
everywhere i go
someone is asking me
they just can't let me be
where can i go?
what can i see?
some place i can call home
have my love
and not feel so alone.
written = briana.

i want my... boyfriend. send me a kiss through your prayers and into the heavens, tell god to let it land on my cheek. when i softly rub down my cheek i will feel that love and know it was there.

heaven let me feel this good. i love... love.
1o/12\o3 jonah & bri.

:: 2004 19 April :: 8.16pm
:: Mood: frustrated
:: Music: nothing.

so fucking angry and frustrated today. for once, i don't wanna be at home. i just wanna be GONE. wish adam could just pick me up and i could LEAVE. dammit. i just get angrier with myself and with crap.

sigh. thanks to ashley cline, as always for finding some sort of outlet for me. usually a song, but this video is absolutely heartbreaking yet uplifting. thank you again.

http://www.albinoblacksheep.com/flash/shii.php

:: 2004 19 April :: 6.14pm
:: Mood: love to love.
:: Music: everytime:: britney spears

ride or die. no in between. love or hate. nothing else matters.
i love to sing.
i love to dance.
i love to cheer.
i love to love.
i love to give.
i love to hold his hand.
i love to have friends.
i love to love my family.
i love to do things right.
i love to be pretty.
i love to try.
i love to succeed.
i love to listen to music.
i love to work.
i love to earn.
i love to kiss.
i love to flirt.
i love to have fun.
i love to shop.
i love to travel.
i love to sleep.
i love to write.
i love to be a girl.
i love to be me.
i love to live.
i love to conquer.
i love to have money.
i love to take pictures.
i love to love pink.
i love to talk.
i love to design.
i love to be with him.
i love to pay attention.
i love to argue.
i love to fight.
i love to have attention.
i love to have strong feelings.
i love to be ambitious.
i love to be optimistic.
i love to have creativity.
i love to have brains.
i love to have my personality.
i love to have my body.
i love to do the things i do.
i love to be girly.
i love to be strong.
i love to be bubbly.
i love.... to.... love... who i am.

I LOVE YOU LOVE IT OR LEAVE IT LOVE IS CHEAP MAKE LOVE NOT WAR LOVE HURTS LOVE STINKS GIMME SOME LOVE LOVE ME OR LEAVE ME LOVE FOR SALE YOU CAN'T BUY LOVE TRUE LOVE CONQUERS ALL I LOVE NEW YORK LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT I'M FALLING IN LOVE YOU NEVER FORGET YOUR FIRST LOVE ALL I NEED IS LOVE I LOVE YOU, TOO Y

i love to know who i am and how i feel at all times. i never like anticipation. patience is so hard.

i don't like to wait.
i don't like to attend school.
i don't like to be a whore.
i don't like to be the same.
i don't like to have imperfections.
i don't like to hate.
i don't like to hurt.
i don't like to cause problems.
i don't like to sit.
i don't like to become numb to pain.

be confident, like you are the only person in this world & that you are even better than britney spears. even if it isn't true. i wish everyone could feel as great as i do all the time.

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:: 2004 18 April :: 10.37pm
:: Mood: ahhh

Thought:
IB band-aids for school inflicted wounds. My mind is in shambles it will manifest upon my flesh soon enough.....

~This stress is beginning to break skin~

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