Fuck you.
Yea, I said it. I'm pissed as all hell right now. Nothing's going right, at least it doesn't seem like it. I just want everything to stop for two seconds... I need a break from life. I just want it to all stop. I want my boyfriend to act happy to see me, I want my dad to just back off and let me be, I want my sister to always be nice and not have so many witchy moments, I want my mom to not act like I never see her when I do, I want school to just go right, I want to not have to work so late all the time, I want to have JD hold me in his arms and let me cry on his shoulder, I want everyone to just be not so annoying, I want my grandma to stop thinking she knows everything, I want everything to just go right!!
Long list right? I know, but that's what I want. If you want to get me a Christmas present that'd be just perfect!
I know, I'm a whining, snobby, little bitch. I might be... but hey, karma right. So it had to have been coming.

Love you.

-Jay-

VENT SESSION: BEWARE
I want to strangle her! She just doesn't get how good she has it!!! How could she do that? How!? She's not like her cousin... she's not like that at all. She doesn't do things like this. UGH! I just don't get it. And now to treat him the way she is! I love him SO much! He is one of my best friends now! I couldn't live my life if he wasn't there. It just wouldn't work. She's so lucky to have him. Ya' know... it's funny, I used to think that he was lucky to have her too. Now I think he deserves better. When she told me this stuff I broke down completely. I didn't know what to do. Now she's going back on it... mostly cuz I freaked out at her, I think. I just don't know what to think.

My head hurts constantly... not a day goes by that I don't take Tylenol at least once. I think I'm too stressed. Maybe my surgery will be a good thing. It's making me chill for a while. At least that part's good.

Anyway, I should go now. Love and hugs all. Muuwwwaaahh. Chao my people.

-Jacquelyn Jean-

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut, my weakness is that I care too much.
So, haven't updated here in a while. Haven't been on in a while really. So much stuff has been going on. I feel overwhelmed. Although softball ending gives me less headaches, I still miss it like crazy. I loved that team. We'll never have a closer team than that one. I'm still deciding whether or not I'll play next year. It's iffy. But yea.

Open court for tennis tomorrow and Thursday! BOMG DIGGITY!! I'm so going to both if I can. June 6th is the parks and rec. camp. I'm mucho excited about that one!!!! I love love love tennis.

So Steph's open house is Saturday. Fun stuff. We're having a bonfire and everything, it's gonna' rock. Jake and Heather's are on that day too. Then Sunday we're going to even more open houses. Next Thursday is Abby's... that'd be my cousin. It sounds coolish. It's on the "party floor" (as I call it) of my aunts office building. You can walk right out onto the roof from it. That's where I watched the fireworks during the coastguard festival. Bomb dig. But yea.

So I guess I should go, I'm WAY hyper and I think if I don't move I may die. So see ya' later. Chao.

-Me-

Blahg!!
Yep, I'm in chemistry. Jungkind said we could do what we want... so I'm updating. Finally!! I haven't updated this in forever!!

So, we had a game yesterday. Double-header. We won the first game and lost the 2nd. Both were fairly high scoring games though! BOMB DIG!

Yep, I got my academic letter! That's right. Who's good? Me... oh yea. Our whole team is smart... all my friends too! Greatness. Really it is.

Okay, I'm gonna' stop boring you now. I'll see ya' later all. Mucho amor para ti.

-Jacquelyn Jean-

Show Me -My Fair Lady-
Don't talk of stars Burning above; If you're in love,
Show me! Tell me no dreams
Filled with desire. If you're on fire,
Show me! Here we are together in the middle of the night!
Don't talk of spring! Just hold me tight!
Anyone who's ever been in love'll tell you that
This is no time for a chat! Haven't your lips
Longed for my touch? Don't say how much,
Show me! Show me! Don't talk of love lasting through time.
Make me no undying vow. Show me now!
Sing me no song! Read me no rhyme!
Don't waste my time, Show me!
Don't talk of June, Don't talk of fall!
Don't talk at all! Show me!
Never do I ever want to hear another word.
There isn't one I haven't heard.
Here we are together in what ought to be a dream;
Say one more word and I'll scream!
Haven't your arms Hungered for mine?
Please don't "expl'ine," Show me! Show me!
Don't wait until wrinkles and lines
Pop out all over my brow,
Show me now!

I love love love that song. It's exactly how I feel. No one seems to get that... words are just words. Show me how you feel! My one request is that you just SHOW me how you feel and stop talking about it.

SCHOOL MUST DIE!
Blah.

Fun fun
I had an awesome first full day back! I woke up WAY late, ate pizza for breakfast (that never happens), and Ariana came over! Good good day. Ariana and I went to Family Fare and got lunchables, then we went to the park to eat them. We checked out in Rob's lane at the store and he just talked to us. He didn't put our stuff in a bag until I told him to. The dork. lol. Then he walked us to the car because he was going on lunch and he tied the bag in a million knots. He wanted to tie more but I took it and put it in the car. I don't know why I just told that story... it was just funny at the time I suppose.

After dinner Ariana and I drove past Ellie's and saw her so I turned around and we went back to talk to her. Now she's at our house. She has been since around 6 or 6:30. I really missed Ellie. Not seeing her is like not seeing your sister for 2 weeks... it's crazy uncool.

Yep, that's all. Love ya'll mucho. *HUGS*

-J-

I'm finally home!
You guys have no clue how much I've missed you. I cannot wait to sleep in my bed. I slept on an air matress and in a car seat for 2 weeks now! NOT COOL!! But I did have fun in Cali. I LOVE having a pool! That was the best part of the whole thing. You'd wake up watch Regis and Kelly change into your bathing suit and go for a swim. Or just lay by the pool soaking up sun until you could no longer sit still. We went shopping a lot. I got a new bathing suit (it's SUPER pretty!), new tennis shoes (finally), and some other random clothing items.

OMG! This ones for you Het! They were having a Good Guys car show at Del Mar, so being the car crazy family that we are we went. It was WAY cool!! Not as good as St. Ignace... but still crazy awesome!! I got pictures of 3 different Cobras for ya' Het! The one I think you'll like the most is the silver one... just cuz it's silver. hehe. Yep, crazy cool! Oh and I got a picture of my Vett. (not literally mine, just my dream car!)

Yea so, vacation was good. Can't wait to get back to school though! For real, I've never wanted school so bad before in my whole life!

Hey Al, did JD give you that permission slip thing for Norkus. He said he would... but never confirmed it actually happening. So yea, lemme know!

I can't wait for tomorrow... Ariana and I are going to dinner. Probably somewhere in town. But it doesn't matter, cuz we can both drive! She's coming here first... don't know when though. I missed her!! You just can't leave your best friend for two whole weeks! Of course, I missed all ya'll too!!

Okay I gotta' go. Love ya' all tons. HUGS!!

-Jacquelyn Jean-

Andy your a star in nobody's eyes but mine.
I had a good day today! Running on four hours of sleep can really make you hyper. Kinda' backwards but whatever. Softball was HARD! I hate those little hoppy things. They suck major monkey toes. I'll live though. Majorly messed up my elbow batting. Stupid fricken cage. I was doing fine until I got in there... then everything died. But yea, what can ya' do really?

So I guess everyone's friends again. It must be a softball thing. We automatically become best friends... no matter what happens in school or anywhere else. Freaks that we are. Yea, it's good though. I hate not talking to people... no fun at all!

Well my dears, I think I shall be off now. 'Tis my parentals anniversary, and my grandparental units should be coming anytime now. So I'll talk to ya'll on a later date. Love and hugs.

-J-

"I'm illiterate"
So, interesting day. Went shopping with Ariana and Tim. That was great fun!!! We're going to have a movie night at Tim's on Sunday. Something tells me we'll talk more than watch... but whatever.

Today was goodish. Better than the rest of the week I suppose. Yep, well that's it. I'll talk to you all later! Chao.

Love you all.

-J-

P.S.
Not even 8 days!!!!!!!!!!!!!

"Let's be like George Washington: Dead!"
I like him so much guys! It's not even cool, but I do. I wish I didn't! Blah. That sucks.

Okay, I'm overly sick here people. Hopefully *crosses fingers* I'll be better tomorrow. I have to go to pitching. Just what I get for wanting to be a pitcher I guess.

So yea, I've had an okay week... the two days it's been here. Not good, not bad. Just okay. Yep, fun stuff.

Well, I shall be off now. Hugs, love and chocolate kisses.

~J-Bean~

French fries rule!
So, today was interesting. Not feeling the need to be detailed about it though. I played eukre a lot today... got my butt kicked every time! Sad really. Oh well.

Adam is my favorite guy in the whole world!! He makes me happy all the time. Not the "I'm so in love with him" kinda' happy, just happy. Like friends do. It's grand.

Yep, I really don't have much to say. So I'll see ya'll later. Chao.

-Jaq-